Schizophonia’s Journal

[Sugarcoat]

Illegal combo

 

[Schizophonia]

@Sugarcoat

Too late i read the post.

No pb, it makes me happy to interact with you. 🙂

The more time passes, as I gradually let go of certain beliefs/attachments, the more I like this kind of music, the more my vibe becomes « rustic » in general.

More morbid, comfortable with death desires, but also less anxious; btw I stopped biting my nails without wanting to; it just curiously happened in the process.

 

Edited June 15 by Schizophonia

[Sugarcoat]

9 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

@Sugarcoat

Too late i read the post.

No pb, it makes me happy to interact with you. 🙂

 

lol I thought this would happen

9 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

The more time passes, as I gradually let go of certain beliefs/attachments, the more I like this kind of music, the more my vibe becomes « rustic » in general.

More morbid, comfortable with death desires, but also less anxious; btw I stopped biting my nails without wanting to; it just curiously happened in the process.

 

I also felt like letting go of beliefs/attachments was a gradual process 

I like rustic vibe

LOL I just started biting my nails😂I didn’t in the past. And I bite the skin around them too that I’ve done for years. Damn it doesn’t look good

Im not anxious for me it’s just habit of biting and picking. Maybe it’s partly genetic because my mom does it very vigorously too

Edited June 15 by Sugarcoat

[Schizophonia]

8 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Illegal combo

 

Oh it looks quite good actually, i could eat it.

i think i recognise the brand ahah , i recognise the sandwiches on the right.

I think i already eat it at Uppsala station if i remember well.

[Sugarcoat]

Just now, Schizophonia said:

Oh it looks quite good actually, i could eat it.

i think i recognise the brand ahah , i recognise the sandwiches on the right.

I think i already eat it at Uppsala station if i remember well.

It’s the cafe called espresso house

Yea i like it too

[Schizophonia]

33 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

LOL I just started biting my nails😂I didn’t in the past. And I bite the skin around them too that I’ve done for years. Damn it doesn’t look good

Soon the sleep issues 😅

Yea i know well I myself ruined my fingers from biting them. Fortunately it's not too noticeable, it's a detail.

33 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

Im not anxious for me it’s just habit of biting and picking. Maybe it’s partly genetic because my mom does it very vigorously too

Anxiety can be essentially subconscious.

38 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

It’s the cafe called espresso house

Yea i like it too

Yeaa i remember.

It helped a lot.

[Sugarcoat]

5 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Soon the sleep issues 😅

Luckily I have no sleep issues. The only thing is that I can sleep for a long time on weekends and it can feel like I’m wasting time

5 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

Yea i know well I myself ruined my fingers from biting them. Fortunately it's not too noticeable, it's a detail.

Anxiety can be essentially subconscious.

People don’t notice without looking closely on fingers

It can be but I feel clearly that I don’t have anxiety believe it or not 

 

[MarkKol]

Real French people live in Ile-de-France.

[Schizophonia]

3 hours ago, Sugarcoat said:

Luckily I have no sleep issues. The only thing is that I can sleep for a long time on weekends and it can feel like I’m wasting time

I’ve read that sleep was correlated to testicles size.

I didn’t notice change myself but if it’s true you must have big ovaries !

 

Ok i stop

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People don’t notice without looking closely on fingers

Yea

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It can be but I feel clearly that I don’t have anxiety believe it or not 

 

Maybe, i don’t want to argue.

Edited Sunday at 07:53 PM by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, MarkKol said:

Homosexual French people live in Ile-de-France.

It’s true 🤔

[Sugarcoat]

15 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

I’ve read that sleep was correlated to testicles size.

I didn’t notice change myself but if it’s true you must have big ovaries !

Who knows 

16 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

 

Maybe, i don’t want to argue.

Same. I’m not here to prove myself

[Keryo Koffa]

11 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

The more morbid I am, the less problem I have with women, and the more masculine I am in general, but that can be dangerous for someone who represses mood problems.

If what i say is comprehensible.

Edited Sunday at 08:11 PM by Keryo Koffa

[Schizophonia]

2 minutes ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Yamete kudasaiiiii

[Keryo Koffa]

19 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Yamete kudasaiiiii

Edited Sunday at 08:33 PM by Keryo Koffa

[Schizophonia]

 

Edited Sunday at 09:37 PM by Schizophonia

[Schizophonia]

These days i play a bit by modulating my persona, my ego, in different directions 🤔.I will do a topic about it next week when i will have access to a computer.

 

Big ego (basically more attached) leeds to a more feminine energy under different forms, it makes me more anxious, more sensitive, more submissive etc.

Less ego makes me more masculine vibe, but so also more morbide.

 

Low ego and « high frequency » (wired) turns me into a very « bloody » persona; like agressive and enterprising, who wrote very stiff with very expressive emojis like 😂😜, a fealing of high blood pressure in the body especially the face, but also dumber; it feels a bit like being on PCP; it seems it even gives me BDSM fetish lol.

 

Low ego and « low frequency » (more dissociated) turns me into a « masculine intellectual », the kind of romantic and rustic guy dry but chill, who writes rather with this kind of emojis 😹😅🙂who wear shirts with rolled up sleeves, some cigarettes and drink wine, and talk about food sex and intellectual subject.

The persona is cooler to me for some reasons but it’s actually more morbide; I feel less motivated, more prone to suicidal ideation (I’m not even suicidal at the base); It’s a bit the « country boy’s  masculinity ».

[Keryo Koffa]

The feminine urge to make puns, there's no sugarcoating of this growing schizophronia.
Given the exploration of morbidity, I'd recommend G̵̗͔̼̓͒ą̴̜̉͋n̶͔̜͂t̵͈́̽z̸̙̐

Edited 1 hour ago by Keryo Koffa

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

The feminine urge to make puns, there's no sugarcoating of this growing schizophronia.

So now when it's not me who annoys @Sugarcoat with my lame jokes in pm it's you lol.

 

2 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Given the exploration of morbidity, I'd recommend G̵̗͔̼̓͒ą̴̜̉͋n̶͔̜͂t̵͈́̽z̸̙̐

Thanks.

I was looking for something less heavy to read than my usual stuff so maybe I'll take a look.

[Schizophonia]

2 hours ago, Keryo Koffa said:

Given the exploration of morbidity, 

I will soon do a more thoughtful topic on this.