Hello from Russia

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    28 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    What most people don't understand is that much of Middle East is stage Purple, Red, and Blue.

    Everywhere is less developed than it seems on the surface.

    I often get fears that if I go completely nuts with my life purpose I might get assasinated by one of these guys, zzz

    Have you developed any frameworks to cope with it?

    You say radical stuff, I remember you mentioned you get death threats. How bad is it?

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    3 hours ago, Hello from Russia said:

    Yeah, I had my first bad trip with DMT 

    What's interesting is that it happenned after I kinda went too cocky with a substance

    I had around 2 poofs with it and nothing was really changing. Then I was like - "Wtf is that bullshit substance, not doing anything for me". And then I took a really deep poof and omg, it took me to other realm pretty much quite literally in seconds. And I felt as though I was "punished" for my cockyness. 

    It taught me some humility and the neccesity to have a respect for substance

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    20 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    DMT has somewhat of the creature, otherness feel to it for me. It feels like the spice has a mind of its own. 5-MeO does not feel like that at all. DMT seems to active the "otherness" receptors in the brain. It can be quite disturbing.

    Yeah, I had my first bad trip with DMT 

    It was as though I was possessed by a dmt jester (or dmt elf or whatever, I saw the jester shapes) and he sort of played evil jokes on me, showcasing me a lot of imagery of my deepest fears. For example I was very afraid of snakes from my childhood. And the room turned into full snakey-like shapes for some moments. And other simillar things like this, it was terrifying.

    Also for like 30 seconds I felt the total loss of control of my body/experience and it was very terrifying and fairly traumatic, especially with this imagery. I felt some hairs turn gray in real time during this all :D

    I remember reaching out for my phone and feeling as though my hand went beneath the astral plane of a phone, I just couldn't get a firm grasp on it. I was then like "Okay, no phone then" :D. 

    Thank God that shit lasted only for about 3-5 minutes

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    Just now, OBEler said:

    @Leo Gura can you contact Ralston and show him how much we discuss him recently here on this forum? And if he would be available for a discussion between you and him to clear things out? That would be in his interest too I think 

    Damn, if he'd come to this forum it'd be such a gift

    Though he might probably be too old for forums...

  11. Posted · Edited by Hello from Russia

    @Leo Gura

    All these people still provide enormous value to society despite having some limitations, right? 

    I often times way too critical of people too, even of the most conscious ones, and I sort of start playing the avoidance game, not really engaging with them. 

    But this seems like a trap. I feel like we all need more higher consciousness socialization, even if some people will have certain limits

    Perfectionism is damaging here too it seems like

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    56 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

    Ralston has mistaken love for a human emotion. He's not actually conscious of what love is. Ralston suffers from an overly narrow, reductionist notion of consciousness. Same mistake as the Buddhists make.

    In the end, if you never realize that God is Love, all your enlightenments are a game.

    Would you say new agers are kind of more advanced in that regard? Especially new age women

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    It's okay to have fights here and there and that they can actually be beneficial

    But where do we actually draw the line? How much fighting is okay? Is fighting every week okay? What if for 6 days you have an ideal amazing loving relationship and 1 day a week you fight very badly and the situation is consistent? How damaging is this situation? How much fighting is too much and how much fighting is too little?

    I invite you to discuss this

    I personally had a great deal of experience in a scenario discussed above. 6 days in a week it is an ideal relationship, 1-2 days it is an utter nightmare. I was excusing a lot of it because these 6 days felt so great once we "have worked on an issue" . But now in retrospect I see how damaging it was and kinda even regret it. I'm not sure what personal standard to draw here.

    The biggest thing was that it usually was happening during the weekend. I am pretty ambitious person and I like to work hard or go really balls to the wall with meditation/learning. That entails I really need quality rest and recharge time. And instead of it I was constantly dealing with shit load of nonse drama that would take an enormous energy tax on me and lead to a heavy burnout after a while.

  25. Posted · Edited by Hello from Russia

    On 8/25/2023 at 9:50 PM, Jowblob said:

    @Dazgwny

    Look in religion/spiritual gatherings and so on worldwide you will see how it is dominated by man

    I don't know about religion but If you'd actually look up spiritual gatherings it is dominated by women

    Probably 80% women, 20% men ratio, but then it depends on a type of gathering of course

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    https://retreat.guru/