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  1. Posted

    9 minutes ago, Socrates said:

    @Hardkill You need to get honest with yourself.

    You cant get up early? Jeez, I feel you man, what an inconvenience...

    Jokes aside go find a fucking job and stop this bullshit thinking which is a mix of limiting beliefs and victimhood.

    How is not finding a job a limiting belief? 

    I wish I had more stress tolerance and energy to continue improving my life

  2. Posted

    I am 29 years old and turning 30 in a few months. I am still financially dependent on my parents and my mom has always had to manage and schedule my life ever since I was born. Don't get me wrong, I have become increasingly independent from my parents as I've grown older; however, I am now at a point where I've so f***ing had it with my mom managing my g*d d**n life. Also, my mom is getting increasingly tired of supporting me and making sure that I get through school; however, she can trust that I can be completely independent because I hardly initiate any of my responsibilities including school, work, managing my time I spent throughout the week with all of my hobbies, etc. I've seen therapists and psychiatrists for all sorts of consultation on how to gain my full independence from them, but I am never able to stick with applying any of their suggestions for long because they are so mentally taxing on me that they decrease quality of my life such as having get up by myself in the morning everyday and going to sleep relatively early everyday, keeping a list and schedule of things I need to do each day, etc. Also, I don't have a job of my own other than working for my parents. It's been hard for me to get a job because of how competitive everything is today. Please help!

  4. Posted

    I want to be an entrepreneur because I believe I have something to offer to this world. My belief is that if you can't change the world significantly then your life as a human is worthless. Also, the fitness and sports industries are so f***ed up that it needs someone like me to step in and help uncover the truths behind all of the lies spread to the vast majority of people all around the world. I am not saying that I am the only who can do this as there are already a number of other honest people who are competent fitness and athletic trainers who have started dispelling these lies and have continued to promote honest training and diet methods. However, I believe that I too should take part in this mission. Yet, I don't know where to began because the fitness and sports industries are so competitive and have become increasingly impossible to succeed in. So, I am very ambivalent over whether or not it would be wise for me to pursue this path. 

     

  7. Posted

    Thank you for responses, guys. I don't know where to begin or exactly would be the best plan of action for me take. Also, I've been expelled from a university (for reasons that I don't want to discuss with anyone on this forum) and have had my gym membership revoked from one gym before for alleged sexual harassment. I've failed miserably with women even after having made countless approaches and invites to women and having tried virtually every possible method method and avenue for seducing women effectively, which has severely damaged my self-esteem overall.  So I don't know if I have the inner strength to handle anymore traumatic failures in my life, even with regard to trying to establish a successful business of my own.

    "It will grow you enormously, even if you end up utterly failing." What else besides becoming an independent man will I be GUARANTEED to gain from pursuing entrepreneurship? Can I be ASSURED that I will have a much happier life overall or feel more at peace with myself, at least in the long-run, if I pursue this type of career path?

  8. Posted

    Hey guys, so I've been contemplating lately on becoming an entrepreneur for some time lately. We've all heard many stories of successful entrepreneurs and how they were able to achieve their success through perseverance, hard work, and smarts. However, I also am aware that trying to start your own business will inevitably you to many failures before you possibly reach the desire level of success. My parents don't think that I should even consider trying to start my own business because they know that it's too cutthroat and can lead to an unnecessary waste of time, money, and frustration. I am 29 years old and work for my father who's an architect/construction worker and my financial life is completely supported by them. So, I don't even have any capital to start off with. I want to run some sort of martial arts/fitness business of my own, but so many fitness, weightlifting, and sports businesses have already been established for several years all around the world to the point that the fitness/weightlifting/sports industries have become extremely competitive. I've always been very dedicated and disciplined to training and researching an abundance of information on martial arts, fitness, weight training, aerobic/anaerobic conditioning, flexibility, etc. ever since I was a teenager. I really wish I knew what the wisest decision would be for me to take.

  10. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    Thanks again for your responses guys. Recently, I've increased my antidepressant dosage and feel noticeably better lately. I feel more indifferent and have less of a sex drive now. Also, I've been doing meditation more frequently again and started practicing tai chi. Also, I've been doing more running and am I training to do a half marathon sometime in the future.

    Also, I've started to think that perhaps I am destined to be single and unappealing to the girls I want for the rest of my life. I know I've sounded extremely pessimistic, obstinate, and a real pain in the ass to deal with. I am very sorry to everyone here who's time I may have wasted on here to trying to help me. After much deliberation, I've come to the conclusion that since I have failed to find true happiness all of my life and given my history of having had far more failures than successes in my whole life with improving my charisma, seduction skills, and finding romantic love, it seems probable that no amount of practice in the field, no amount of analyzing the mistakes I've made and will continue to make out there, and no sort of way will ever make me into a sexy, charismatic person who is capable of attracting any kind of woman I want. Nonetheless, I've realized that even if I continue to fail despite my very best efforts until the day I die, I can still record all of my mistakes I've made and will continue to make in the future for posterity. They say that if u fail to achieve your dreams before you die then you can always pass it on to the next generation and hopefully have those people fulfill your goals for you. So, there are countless variables in a countless number of combinations and permutations to account for in any given interaction with a woman even during just a small amount of time you spend with her. Yet, by the time I've reached 80 to 90 years of age I will have already made at least a few million mistakes in countless combinations and permutations with women. So when I am on my deathbed a certain number of young men in the future will be willing to carry out my goal, and they will be able to analyze and afterwards instantly correct all of the mistakes I made in my entire life. In fact, some will inevitably learn far quicker and better than I ever could. Therefore, I believe that it would be wise for me to focus my efforts more on creating an invaluable legacy for the future generations of men who will have the potential to live truly happy sex, dating, and romance lives.

    Sounds good?

  11. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    Yeah I am with Electrobeam on how frustrating it is when someone talks about having a "giver's" mindset to attract people. In fact many successful businessmen and politicians like Trump have always been the epitome of greed. Our new US president is a malignant narcissist who's grandiosity, envy, arrogance, manipulative abilities, sense of entitlement, sense of uniqueness, preoccupation of all types of material success, and lack of real empathy all have no limits. Yet, he underhandedly won enough votes to be elected as the new POTUS.

    How about Jordan Belfort who founded his "over the counter" brokerage house, Stratton Oakmont? He was ultimately incarcerated for almost 2 years for having defrauded countless victims who got completely duped by his BS "pump and dump" money schemes. He stoles millions and millions of dollars from so many innocent customers. He also had a hot wife because of his charisma and yet it was still not enough as he cheated on her with hookers. Even after he got released from prison, he became suspect of having concocted another phony money making organization in Australia.

    So can Flare or someone like him tell me how extremely egotistical men like the abovementioned sleazballs have attracted by having a "giver's" mindset?

  12. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    On August 12, 2017 at 0:05 PM, Richard Alpert said:

    To hard kill: Let´s say you start getting laid here and there with a few girls?

    That will make you little happier right?

    WRONG.

    I will feel probably more miserably, because you got what you wanted and nothing changed.

    In what martial art you got a black belt? Just curious, because i have done them a little bit myself.

    Maybe you're right. My prospects of ever becoming a happy person are very slim. Even Leo has mentioned that he has never been optimistic about depressed people ever having a content life. It's as if I have a terminal illness that's practically incurable and can only be treated so much.

    I am a 2nd black belt in Hapkido.

     

  13. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    I thank u guys again for your responses, but after some deliberation I don't think that finding out my life purpose or is really gonna need help improve my inner game significantly. It's too general and doesn't specifically address whether or not I am truly capable of learning to become socially adept according to my genetics.

    Also, Lord Bwyra, with all due respect u sound like you need some serious psychological help yourself. I am not one to cast blame on you since I need serious help with my mental state. However, you really have such a flippant attitude that's really crazy. You first tell me that I am really screwed up and then you suddenly say that I am awesome with everything in my life. If other people came to you in real life for help they would probably think that something is wrong with u.

     

  14. Posted

    11 hours ago, Lord Bwyra said:

    Hi Hardkill, welcome to the forums. I just read through this whole thread and I can empathize with your problem as I used to be in a similar position until I got it sorted. I'm gonna say some things now that you probably won't wanna hear.

    You sound like a loser. And that's based on the few posts I have read. I have no idea what you look like or how you are in really life but based on the small interactions here and your avatar, you come across as really desperate and needy. If I was a girl or even as a friend, I would avoid people like you.

    All you want is to take take take. You keep on blabbering away about getting an answer from Leo as if he will give you some magic pill. And I suspect that's the same thing you have been looking for from all that PUA nonsense.

    Not a good first impression! Not for guys, not for girls, not for jobs, not for anything. Obviously you understand nothing about people, persuasion, human psychology, cognitive errors, mating dynamics. I'm not surprised since all the stuff you say you've read is a bunch of bullshit. I've said elsewhere on this forum that the whole "pickup" industry is a scam to take advantage of desperate guys. You are a case in point.

    Learn to think for yourself. Become a man. Grow up. This is much more important right now than getting your dick wet. If you wanna get laid, hire a prostitute.

    And I say this with love because I think you can change if you cut this bullshit and get serious with your life. I'm the big brother or father figure you never had giving you the talk on the edge of your bed about how to become a man. You're 29 and age is irrelevant because time is not real. You are 9 or 19 or 99. Doesn't matter.

    Here's a question for you:

    What is your life purpose?

    If you don't know or have no clue, take Leo's course. Since you have a job, you can afford it. No excuses. And since you seem to love Leo so much and you want him to give you all the answers, this course will give you an overdose of Leo. Just you and him, all alone :$

    Get your shit together. Stop fucking around and wasting our time with your bullshit mindgames. Nobody cares.

    (I wish someone would've given me thís talk many years ago, it would've saved me a lot of frustration and madness).

    You can thank me later :)

    Much love brother and if you reply to this and you're still continuing your needy bullshit, I will not respond. Other members can continue playing your games and feeling sorry for you but I certainly will not because I pity no one. I empower.

    Hint: tell us what you're gonna do tomorrow, what you're grateful for, express your positive attitude (it's good practise), tell us what a handsome motherfucker stud you are and how girls love you and you make them feel good and how much you enjoy making their days even 1% better, and how feminine energy inspires you and even making a girl smile is a victory for you and everything else is a bonus. Lie if you have to. Just tell us something nice. Since you are using an avatar online, mineaswell make it someone awesome.

    That's why my name is Lord B.W.Y.R.A.

    Be Who You Really Are.

    That's my God. I am nobody. Just some guy, living his life, pursuing life mastery. Yes, I'm a genius artists in the real world but that's another story.

    You can do this my friend.

    Don't believe these lies in your head that you worship. You have created a false self, this person is an imposter, it's not the real you. Stop feeding that fucking loser victim mentality.

    Now tell us how great you are and what a great day you've had. You have all your limbs, you have a dick that works and your dick and a winning smile and fire in your eyes. You are alive and breathing and make people feel awesome. You find inspiration in everyone because they are all sent here for you as a guide like angels in hell.

    Or do you wanna go back to being mr. "i suck with women, nothing works" boohoo waawaawaa, i want mommy's titty? Huh? Poopy in your diaper? THROW OUT THE DIAPER!!! DIAPER'S ARE FOR LOSERS. Shit on the floor!

    Get the course!!

    And next time you see a cute girl, tell her you suck with women but just wanted to say hi and that you have a beautiful smile. If she still hates you, go to the book store and get some Bukowski novels so you can see what laughter feels like. Read Women where it starts with him as a 50 year old drunk who hasn't been laid in years until finally he bangs some 300 pound and the bed breaks. In the morning his wallet is missing and he blames the whore for hiding in her vagina, lol. It's a great book.

    That's it. That's all I got for you man.

    Oh wait...

    Here's a good 3 step process that will get you far in life:

    Look Good
    Smell Good
    Feel Good

    Then leave the house and conquer your world :)

    Enjoy your day.

    Thanks for your "wisdom." However, if u had paid attention to what I said before, I already tried a form of meditation called mindfulness for well over a year with a certified therapist and I ultimately develop a level of enlightenment that most people  haven't ever reached in their lives and yet I didnt become the "ladies man" or sexy edgy guy that seduces an ample amount of women. Instead, I merely became a seemingly content, nice guy who is relatively boring (except when I do my impressions of others for comedic effect). 

    Leo's course does seems enticing  and I will definitely consider buying it. 

    Actually, there's is perhaps one universal goal I want to achieve before I die. My ambition is to create a world that has a perpetual peace in every single village, town, city, state, province, nation, continent, island, etc. I also want to modify the world we live in into one that is without  any contradictions and misconceptions about any genre of information out there out produced by the media, Internet, libraries, etc. So, I aspire to unify all information that is useful and beneficial into "one" and eliminate the detrimental useless info. out there. I want to take part in creating a world whereby justice is always delivered to those who truly deserve to be punished. I also want to establish an education system that effectively teaches children and teens how to make solid friends with others and how to attract those of the opposite sex (or same sex if u go that way) so that people in the future won't ever have to suffer cruel and unnecessary heartaches ever again.

  15. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    I don't know how to always lead a girl from one area to another when talking to her at the beginning of a conversation. 

    Also, I don't have my own place since I live with my parents. So it's very difficult for me to take a girl to a place to have sex with me. Every time I get close to doing it with a girl, I usually ask to go to their place, but virtually all of them except for one of them say "no we can't because their are other people at my place."

    Also, lots of time when a conversation with a girl I just appeoached went well and I get her number, the girl ends up not responding back. Its like she put up a good front or act when we talked in person, but then goes back on her word. That's one of the reasons why I have issued trusting women.

  16. Posted

    I personally don't think that it helps much as people would think it does. An aquaintance, who worked on his inner game for years still struggles with women. He says that he doesn't really care anymore about being rejected or being alone completely. I said to him that I dorm understand why your non-neediness is not attracting a lot of women. His response was "non-neediness does not make you attractive. It just doesn't make you unattractive." So doing stuff to work on inner game through Improving your cognitive perspective, practicing meditation will only eliminate your negative unattractive traits of your character. However, it will not necessary make u charismatic, socially calibrated, funny, sexy, or edgy unless u already had those attractive traits to begin with. So even if you neutralized those negative or unattractive qualities of your personality you still could come off as just an average boring nice guy or someone who is truly a very kind, generous, respectful, and grateful individual, but still fails to understand how to fit in with people socially because he's like a nerd who can't comprehend how to or someone who has a very severe case of Asperger's syndrome. 

    It's sad, but I believe that that's the reality of the world we live in.

  18. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    But See_on_See, that's what I've been trying to figure out. I've been analyzing every aspect of myself for years to the point of where I stressed myself out and yet I can't figure it what I am doing to turn off girls. It's like I can't solve some sort of quantum physics problem.

    I've thought about seeing a pickup coach or going to a pickup seminar, but they are all ridiculously expensive and too inconvenient for me to travel to.

    Tightrope walker, even when I approach women during a day when I am in a great mood, it still never worked. Again, I practiced mindfulness with a legit psychologist, Psy. D. for well over year to point of feeling at peace and "one with the universe," and ironically it didn't increase my ability to attract women. All it did was make me more like able and at ease around people in general socially. That's why Gunwitch says that u don't need to be a monk to pickup. In fact he mentions how working on your inner game up to a certain point becomes counterproductive to seducing women.

     

    I really think that Leo is the only person who can possibly give me the best insight and solution on here. 

  19. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    See_on_see, I told u already that I tried following Corey Wayne's methods to the letter a few years ago for a while and while they sounded all good on paper, they didn't work for me. 

    Santiago, as I stated above on this forum topic, I've been doing martial arts for over 10 years and weightlifting/powerlifting for over 3 and a half years as hobbies. I am a grad student studying to be an occupational therapist. Furthermore, I've gone to meetups such as trivia night for several months, kickball meetup, volleyball meetup, and recently joined a running training club. Plus, I just went to a meditation meetup earlier tonight. 

    Moreover, I am getting a contradiction of advice between what Aurum is suggesting to me and what See_on_see is saying I should do. Aurum is telling me to analyze like a pickup and see_on_see is telling me to not to do so and just do the "authentic" way (whatever that truly means because I am probably not a normal human and may never be). So what the hell am I supposed to do.

    Actually, do any of u guys know if Leo answer PMs to him frequently or has he gotten too busy to answer most of them back efficiently?

  20. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    I see what u mean Truth. I guess that makes sense.

     

    Aurum, the very opening of any interaction is never really the issue because my looks take care of it (I don't like to brag, but people who know me have told me that I should've done modeling). It's the hooking part of the interaction and I still am sure if I am doing the cold reads right. Also, I wish I knew how to build a strong social frame in most of my interaction. 

    Btw, be brutally honest with me guys. Given everything I've done so far, do I only have slim chance at succeeding at pickup? Do I truly have any sufficient genetic latent aptitude to learn well at this stuff? Or am I too retarded for it? I know that given my natural talents I'll never become an English professor or foreign language professor or mathematician at a University, but perhaps I am simply too dumb to learn how to excel at pickup as well. I wonder what Leo would have to say about all of this.

     

     

     

  21. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    The thing is that a few years ago, not only did I watch all of Corey Wayne vids and read his book thoroughly over 15 times, but also I was very non-needy around others to point where I didn't really care about finding a girlfriend or having sex ever. In fact, I did mindfulness practice with my therapist for over a year. I ultimately became very indifferent to virtually everything and everyone around me. So I then decided to cold approach about a hundred girls because I figured "I've reached a level of detachment to the point where it doesn't matter if I get rejected or things don't go according to the way I want. I also was quite fun to be around to and people liked me. However, it never got me laid and I was still a virgin who still never had a girlfriend before. That's when I realized that I am not good enough for the girls I want and worked so damn hard on the pickup stuff for a few years. So, obviously becoming "one" with the world and enjoying the present moment didn't work to attract the girls I wanted. My therapist told me that once I become a healthcare professional (which is what I've been currently studying for) then I'll be a more attractive candidate for women. However, I am skeptical of that idea because guys who are good with women have mentioned how having a decent paying career is irrelevant in attracting women. I wonder what someone like Leo would recommend I do.

  22. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    I am not trying to use anyone.

    I was hoping that someone like Leo would give me some valuable solution or insight on what to do besides meditation to encourage me to not give up any hope about one day having a happy sex, dating, love life if u put in the hard work like I have with it. Maybe, I don't have the genetic talent for learning seduction or even becoming relationship material for any girl. Is there any hope for me?

  23. Posted · Edited by Hardkill

    Many pickup artists have said that having an attractive lifestyle will make u attractive to women. However, I've been doing serious weight training/powerlifting for over 3 and half years and have a 2nd degree black belt in a martial art that I've been practicing for over 10 years. Also, I've been doing meetup groups and recently joined a running training club. Also, I graduated from UCLA for my undergrad degree and am currently in grad school for a healthcare profession. How many more activities or things do I need to do to have enough of an attractive lifestyle? Or does having an "attractive lifestyle" not really do anything for getting the women u want? I feel like this was such a BS concept that these PUA chuckleheads came up with to gain publicity, views, and money from the public. 

     

    I've been trying to meditate and working on my humor, but it's still so hard to live my life. Even if I keep practicing these methods, I feel like I'll be a social loser forever. I am 5'9" 163 lbs. and people have always told me that I look like male celebrities like Ashton Kutcher or Ian Somerholder, but it doesn't matter because sadly women aren't nearly as visual as men are. Everyday, it feels like a tremendous burden for me to carry and I try to distract myself from this pain by keeping myself busy by being very physically active, reading stuff, watching TV, being with my parents or my dog, and meditating, doing my work at my job, etc. but I still live with this pain of uncertainty of my future, utter dejection from others, depression, and immense discouragement from interacting with girls or even people. I wonder why Leo never made a video on what to do when u feel this disheartened from approaching girls, dating, sex, and romance. Ive tried analyzing what I am doing wrong in my interactions, but I can't figure out what I am doing wrong. It feels so complicated to the point of becoming an impossible puzzle to solve and I can't even just let go of it. I tried taking a break from pickup for 4-5 months, but it still has been devouring my mind. This really has ruined my concentration and productivity on my everyday tasks. Sometimes  I just want to end my life to end all of this pain. Not even my therapists and medical psychiatrist have been able to help me let go of this issue. I don't know what to do anymore to end this suffering.?

  24. Posted

    Hi everyone, I am brand new to this forum and this is my first post ever. I've watched a lot of Leo's vids on Youtube on making friends, sex, attraction, love, mindfulness, meditation, goals, success, etc. I am 29 and a half years old and I've been struggling with improving my sex and dating life for almost 3 years. I've cold and warm approached hundreds of women in real life and tried many different kinds of online dating apps including OKC, POF, Tinder, Bumble, Happn, Match.com, Jdate, etc. I lost my virginity when I was 27 years and 9 months old and have never had a girlfriend in my entire life. Also, I've had sex with a total of 4 girls, but I've only had sex for a total of 7 times in my entire life (only two of the times where I engaged in full genitalia intercourse). I've read up and tried various methods of pickup from the PUA community including RSD, Kezia Noble, Hayley Quinn, Gambler's methods, 60 years of challenge, GoodLookingLoser, etc. and they all gave me limited results overall. I've tried going to meetup groups, social circles, bar, clubs, parks, fairs, streets, malls, college campuses, social circle, etc. Girls in middle school, high school, and somewhat in college used to tell me how attractive or cute I looked, but after college was when I realized how extremely difficult if not impossible it is for me to get a girl I want. The furthest I've ever gotten with a girl was through a 6th date over a 4-5 month period (I though I was close to making a friends with benefits relationship with her, but she stopped wanted to see again after our 6th date. I've done more work than most guys have, but still suck with women. Therefore, I fear that I may never find a girl I want who will be willing to be in a solid friends with benefits relationship with me or be my girlfriend.