Arkandeus

very nice...your post shows the truth. You long to stop seeing people in that light, yet you know that you see them in that light. So do you really see people in that light if you desire to not see them that way anymore? This is a very nice entry point into learning about awareness. Your belief system has changed, but your reality and your perception still has to follow. You are aware of people in a certain way, and the way you are aware of them bothers you. You want to be aware of people in a new way, more expansive, more loving. So don't identify with your arrogance you are already above it. Your very desire to change is proof that you're not arrogant anymore. Now about your perception of people, it will slowly change over time. You've already done the hardest and most important part, you admitted what was going on and you desire to change. Soon you will see people in an entirely new light, and I guarantee you that you will be surprised. Arrogance is really an illusion, people are very intelligent, from the guy who takes your trash away to the cashier to the ceo. when you see and understand this, you'll be in another dimension quite literally, which is why spirituality is awesome

I think the ego serves its function in playfulness. You know if you are with your friends and suddenly you make a contest of who can throw the rock the furthest away, or who can chug the most beer, or who can dance better....actually that's a better example. Take a look at dance battles. It's like playing, it's like acting. ''see how I can dance?can you do better?!it's your move now'', then bam the other guy comes in and shows his moves! This is how the ego can be playful. Same with animals, take cats or dogs, they don't have any ego but they play fight sometimes. Or like acting, actual movies. The ego can be used to portray different personalities, even evil ones, but it's a movie, it's not serious. I think the purified version of the ego is a more playful version, it serves you to access your joy in different ways, to play with others, instead of the monster ego that drives you to be serious and step over others and abuse them.

Paths to enlightenment are infinite. Who knows maybe trusting your mind can lead to you and your mind working together towards enlightenment. To trust your mind is not necessarily to submit to its will, it can be to trust that it will work in your favor. it may just be a teaching that doesn't serve you if it doesn't feel right. I'd never read such a book,as I know I don't want to trust my mind, I don't want to hear of it. if you're interested I heard about this book called ''the Law of One'', apparently that one's also a gem, I'll certainly check it out soon

You remind me of one my personal investigations this week. That is to enlighten, we will have to completely accept the state of not being enlightened. How can we be at peace with our world, how can we be at peace with the people in our world that are not enlightened? If we cannot accept and love the state of not being enlightened then there is conflict. And to love is to understand. It makes for a very interesting approach....I've noticed not-enlightened people are a roadblock to me. I have this desire to ''teach'' them , to ''free'' them. It really makes me realize that I view people as an intimate part of me, a part of my identity, so much that I automatically want to apply what I learn to them. Otherwise if I'm enlightened and others are not it feels sorta wrong?But that's the cue. It is possible to be enlightened and not enlightened at the same time. Through my intimate acceptance of the lives of people who are not seeking the spiritual path, I am not-enlightened and at the same time I am enlightened through my personal endeavors and those of my fellow lightbringers. So the ''ultimate'' enlightenment might be to be both enlightened and not-enlightened at the same, through the people in your world that make the ''total'' you up. To merge with the present moment, to be with All That is, is also to merge with all that your personal self is NOT trying to be and thus rise above the personal self to embody a greater all-encompassing self. I think I'm starting to really respect the power of acceptance...

I'm confused by absolute do you mean they experiences most of the time union with All That is or do you mean their state of being?

maintaining a posture is doing something, stop maintaining a posture. believe me it won't ruin your meditation, all this talk about ''chakra'' flow if your posture is right is not bullshit but it's not true either. It's necessary for beginners to have ''rules'' they can enforce so they can believe in their spiritual growth. But past a point you don't necessarily need one way or another to grow spiritually, you can meditate doing dishes, walking, talking with someone....it's not about what you do in the physical world it's about what happens inside. Do nothing, let yourself have a natural posture, that changes, that is unpredictable, that is always new,so you can relax and be yourself.

for there to be a hero there has to be a villain. I think evil as we define it in human terms is a very essential building block of the universe. But as we are consciousnesses taking a portion perspective of positiveness I doubt we will truly understand its purpose any day soon since it's our identity to move away from it and loathe it. If we truly understood evil, could we then still be good? It's to understand to be? I think it's something like that. Maybe being evil is a different form of love, one we do not get. There's probably a dimension full of evil societies where spiritual evolution is based around getting more and more evil. The universe is infinite...

I understand your perspective Shin. But if she cannot say no that is her fault and responsibility. Now if he was beating her and threatening her with something I'd completely agree. But in this case he's not hurting her, he doesn't owe her an attachment either, if she wants to keep seeing him under these circumstances that is her responsibility. well that's my personal perspective

don't pity her, you're both adults, it goes both ways, you're both responsible for yourselves, if she's still seeing you then she has something to gain from this as well, you don't have to feel any guilt.... your deepest most honest self-interest is always in the greater good of everyone. it's not a typical relationship, who cares? let things be what they are, if you're fine with it and she is, let it go on, if it's not your thing deep down then stop

when I listen to metal I can feel my own pain screaming through the band and the song. anyone else?

Haha that is funny man!! I know that when you thought that it didn't come from your heart. As we go we'll start to understand the real identity of people. It is not their actions, nor their words, nor their thoughts, it's their hearts. And their hearts are always pure, which is why everyone is deserving of unconditional love and acceptance. Enlightened people are the ones who can see behind the shit on the windshield. Just the way you went ''that fucking cocksucker'' someone else might go and grab a knife and kill someone. But what you thought or what that person did has nothing to do with what's real. We're all affected by the negative energy in this world in an entirely different way. Some fall for it harder then others. But underneath it all we are all souls of love. Forgiveness is a very essential asset as a spiritual being. Earth is just a hardcore playground. Sometimes I too I have glimpses of darkness...I walk by a women on the street and out of nowhere it's like my thoughts are zapped by negative lightning : ''bitch'' or if it's a guy : ''what are you looking at'' Just raw violent energy. Sometimes it catches me off-guard and sometimes I just let it go right as it happens. It's merely a second or two of letting negative energy take over while I stay positive and loving most of the time! why should I feel guilty! there's no need to, these things will diminish with time

It is you. Yet it's not you. In the same way as you are you, but you are also the universe. You put them into words but you can chose not to identify with them. The absolute truth is that you are everything in the universe. But you're looking to experience certain things and so what you're doing is changing your perspective. So you could take on the perspective of you thinking those thoughts or you could take on the perspective of you deeming these thoughts as not a part of you. Both are true. Right now you are taking the perspective of being a human but one day you might take another perspective. that's why they say they say that there is no time, everything is happening right now, the future the past, the big bang...it's just a matter of perspective. What portion of reality you're perceiving right now. And even this is bullshit, the universe is infinite intelligence itself, I couldn't possibly dare to pretend I fully understand how things work. My best explanation is probably as simple as 1+1=2 while the real thing is something like a modern unsolved mathematical problem. But what I know right now can serve as a good torch.

We all aim to stop seeking, to just be But there's a momentum at place. There's a barrage of subconscious beliefs and fears we have about life, there are feelings, we have our surroundings, our friends and environments that give off vibes that push us into seeking...this all is a Huge momentum. I'll use this metaphor : It's like trying to stop a car that is advancing at a couple hundred thousand miles an hour. If you force it to come to a full stop suddenly then you didn't stop, you crashed. You'll be knocked out and you won't remember what happened, and you'll be back to doing what you always did. Just like a car, if you want to stop you first gotta hit the brakes and slow down. And there is a lot of momentum to slow down. So aim to seek less, at the pace that your momentum allows you to diminish in a comfortable manner. To respect this momentum is key in growing spiritually. It helps bring about patience, which brings peace. It also helps you to take distance from what's going on in your body and mind. To take a step back to realize you are not the things you're trying to change about yourself nor are you the things you will have changed about yourself. You are a the process inbetween those two. You are the change itself. Which is why enlightenment never stops, an end-state is never reached, that would mean the end of you. To change is to be. The journey is really the goal. The universe is in infinite expansion, ever-changing, ever-being. It's the only constant, that nothing is constant. We embody that propriety of the universe, as we are the universe, always changing, always being. The seeking can stop when we realize there is never an end, there's nothing to seek in infinity, you will never ''find'' what you're looking for because there is always more to find. But the seeking won't stop because we are constantly-changing. Which might appear confusing. It quite is. Seeking is us being which is why we're all enlightened already in that sense. But if we really want to enlighten we have to change the nature of our seeking, instead of trying to seek to be something, which is impossible as we are change itself, we should seek to be ourselves, meaning we should seek to be our change. Instead of trying to change out a place of needing to be fulfilled which is seeking, change out of a place of trust : You're not trying to change because something is missing in your life, your changing is what fulfills you. Not the result after the change, the change itself. So be absolutely ecstatic that there are things to change about you, that you feel like you could do better in some places. How can we be perfect and still want change? Because change is perfection. Your imperfections are your perfections, because imperfection invite changes, which is perfect. And there will always be more imperfections and more change. Change is our identity, there's no result to get, we change things because that's who we are literally, not because we seek to craft the perfect circumstance. If we really get that then we know that a grounded and permanent happiness and fulfillment cannot possibly come from outside circumstances that will always change and never be constant. Which is where unconditional love comes from. Love life not for what it is, but for all that it can be. Love someone not for who they are, but for the many persons they can be.

no ''Friction Applied to Penis'' aka no masturbation, when a man stops masturbating, there is a lot of spiritual energy that gets lost each time a man masturbates and releases his semen, in an act of sex that spiritual energy does not get lost, depending if both lovers really get in communion with each other. but masturbation is pretty useless, spiritually wise, it's a lower pleasure. now I don't know how this works for women, if no masturbation actually helps them. in my experience and at my current spiritual level if I masturbate I literally feel the energy leaving my body, I have perception changes as the world looks more 'empty' and less ''vibrant'', so this shit is for realz and it's a big no no for me.

one good thing whenever you feel scared (sc-ared) notice that you are sacred (sa-cred). If you feel scared, feel sacred. and remember that fear is False Evidence Appearing Real being scared is the the false evidence of being sacred

the mind will always reach for black and white concepts because it cannot understand infinity. It cannot understand that every being is not a man or a woman but a completely unique energy-entity that is ever-changing, that will never be the same it was and will always be something it was not. infinity is too complex for the ego. To try to grasps such concepts destroys it. Which is why I'd be very careful with trying to label immortal souls as men or women. You can be a man now while having been a women before, that doesn't change who you are. I don't think the physical world is real, and I don't believe that our bodies define us, much less our genders.

To be honest LRyan I don't know if I'm enlightened, I certainly don't feel like I'm fully my divine self yet, but I do think I am demi-enlightened. everyday I experience the world in a slightly different, a higher way, it can change from morning to noon, more dimension, more space, more emotion in people and more understanding of their emotions, different shapes, more beauty, different light, bit by bit more love for strangers,... it's like when you see someone you've never seen before it's like wow...it's like magical, the shapes of faces has nothing to do with before, it's like everything feels magical. Sometimes though, not all the times. I still have periods where I feel down,but then it becomes obvious that I'm down because everything and everyone looks less fresh, less beautiful and more smaller, less vibrant. your imagination is a great tool to enlighten, it is the link the higher dimensions. What would it take to you to absolutely blow your mind up? how would the world feel, what would you see...how would you experience sound in a way that would make you feel amazing? when you imagine those things you are literally bringing of portion of a higher dimension into your reality, in the small form of imagination. image-ination, to way you perceive the world if you're in the present moment, you will notice that you literally just created a portion of consciousness of a higher dimension, you brought in ways to experience sounds and feelings that you never had before. just like that you evolved and raised your consciousness, you then realize there's nothing you have to do. you didn't do anything special to imagine more consciousness, it just happened, it was that easy,and if you trust this process, it will unfold automatically. which is why I'm always grateful when I meet someone highly spiritually advanced and they talk about their experiences, their feats, in doing so they raise my imagination and by consequence my consciousness.

unresolved for now my friend, we have a couple of million years to go to advance and grow in spirituality and intelligence. with all what we've learned in such a short time, one cannot imagine what things will look like in the future

you know that feeling when you sleep on your arm and after awhile you don't feel it anymore, like it's not a part of you? Then your arm slowly starts to wake up again, you feel it becoming yours again? That is what you can describe enlightenment as, you start feeling people intensely, not just intensely, you know they are a part of you, you can feel them as you feel your own arm, when they move it's like the move inside you, when they talk or walk it feels so personal and intimite, when they move their eyes or blink you feel even that. it all happens inside you. It's like awakening the body parts outside yourself. It's like people are a precious part of your body, like a super sensible organ, you feel them just the way you feel your stomach or chest or hand. this feeling of unity is not a concept, you really feel it, you live it. Which is why enlightenment is so mindblowing and makes you full of joy and happiness, it really has nothing to do with the way we experience the world when we're not enlightened, it's an entirely different dimension.

there's nothing wrong with wanting more, as you enlighten you will want more and more and you will get more then you could have ever imagined. the key is simply out of which place do you want? From which place do you desire? do you want something to fulfill you because you think you live for a mere hundred years and you better get something to make it worthwhile? Or do you want something because you know you are an immortal soul that will live for a billions years across many dimensions and worlds, that on a deeper level you and me are literally the universe, on the deepest level we share the same background you and me...and so everything is your home, everything is in your favor and benefit. You don't need to be fulfilled, you want things because you are the universe and you want to express infinity, to create more and create more. You don't fulfill yourself, you add on top of what you are, you expand yourself, the universe is in infinite expansion.

tell us more about how you feel,in what way you experience the world now, so sounds in the chest? what about vision or imagination? how do you feel if you look into a mirror or look at the picture of another person? do you feel like you have a clear sense of purpose with a major goal or do you feel like you just know what to do right now? any changes to your sense of time?

Is 1+1 really 2? Let's say you bring two people together. Do we really just have two people? What if there is bad vibe between the 2 persons, where one feels uncomfortable towards the other. Then you brought 2 people together, but one person makes the other one hide his true self so you end with less then 2 people. Or take for example a couple or 2 best friends. Bring these two together, do we really just have the addition of one person on top of another? Or do we have a connection where each individual brings out the best out of the other individual? And thus we end up with more then 2. this topic is an ode to relieving our look at the physical side of things, and be more aware of the spiritual side of an event. is smiling at a stranger really just an objective event in which you smiled at a stranger? You could smile at a stranger, and it turns out that that person was feeling very suicidal inside and your smile, gave them the will to give life another chance. A smile could save a life, that is for sure, for it is not just the movement of the mouth, but a real act of love. Our daily actions have a lot of meaning.

if you really want to see some real tangible progress then you have to do some type of psychedelic from time to time, like dmt or mushrooms. Just to enjoy those higher vibrations, those mystical vibration. Just having an experience like that, basking in those higher vibrations, you'll learn a lot subconsciously. it's definitely no requirement to do psychedelics, you can also meditate daily, if you want some real result try a good 30 minutes of meditation a day. one other thing you can do is read books about spirituality, any topic, be it chakra's, the soul, reincarnation, the infinite one, healing, crystals. The more you get in 'touch' with stuff related to spirituality, the more you'll grow,just by being busy with it, it doesn't matter if you don't get the ''lessons'' in the books, just being busy with that stuff gets you familiar with higher vibrations. it's how easy it is, just get busy with something related to enlightenment, and things will fall into place

I've been paying very careful attention to the present moment and I noticed something. Don't you ever have those moments when you're not worrying about something, those moments where you're kinda just being ok? You can be on your way to someplace, or waiting for something, or even just being distracted doing something. Do you notice that in those moments you are not being bothered by your 'problems'? You are not being worried by your ''worries''. You are not being bothered by not being enlightened, or by a fight you had with someone, or a bad event that happened in the past, a goal you haven't reached yet... The first rebuttal from the mind would be : ''well of course, I wasn't thinking about those things so I wasn't bothered, but that doesn't mean these problems are solved!'' But that's it right there. Take any problem you think you have, anything that usually bothers you, and watch out for those moments when you are not bothered by them, when you are not thinking about them. Those moments, are the peace, those moments are the solution, they are the proof that your 'problems' are unreal. You'd say : ''but when I think about the problems again I get worried and bothered, so it's not solved!'' Even when you don't actively think about your ''problematic'' circumstances, you are aware of them. You are always aware of everything that is going on in your life because you are powerfully intelligent. So how can there be moments where you are seemingly at peace with everything you are? With everything that is going on? investigate this. To focus on something, is to create it. If you think there is a problem, there is a problem.The thinking itself is the problem being. The problem can only be if you think. If you don't think about the problem, there is no problem and you are at peace. Your mind will have you believe that you have to ''solve' a problem through thinking and planning and only then can you achieve peace. No, you demonstrate it yourself all the time, we can't help but have moments where our so-called 'problems' don't seem to affect us. But we think those moments are moments of ''escape'', of ''illusion''. Moments of ''distractions'', we deem these moments as unreal, as exceptions. No these are the moments of ''truth''. You constantly manage to get at peace with your problems. But then we think them back into our life, and then we get at peace with them and then we think them back. If we do not pay careful attention to the present moment, then we do not notice this process, this ''back and forth'' and we believe that our problems are static entities in our life that need to be solved through more thinking. Because we do not see that they are constantly being solved naturally just by being ourselves, so there's no need to think. this is for me a beautiful realization, for now I really understand why they say that we're already naturally enlightened, only because you're already enlightened can you have moments where your problems don't seem to matter, moments where your thinking is dispelled. We are able to not give a damn about our problems, and we do it all the time, if we just pay more attention to those moments of truth, can we start doing it more and more. Pay attention to those moments when you don't give a damn, and learn from them.

just call her up or send her an email and ask her stance on spirituality. tell her it's very important to you and you'd like to know her approach to that before you see her