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For me it's a burning of desires that happens as you progress with practice. You lose interest in pursuing money, sex, etc. and stop doing unnecessary harm. You fall in love with God instead. Almost every spiritual book has a chapter on it, so read them all.

It's easy to snort, fruity smell and minimal burning. The only problem is the amount of powder required on higher doses, for some it might be too much.

DPT, DPT, DPT! I have 5 grams of this stuff still waiting for me. It will be probably a life-time supply. It can be the most bening or the most terrifying psychedelic you have tried. Luckily, the experience is predictable, but also very dose dependable. And every ROA has different dosages. Here I will go with insufflated. 35 mg - no visuals, nothing remarkable, threshold for an 80 kg male. 50 mg - nice, pleasant 1 hour trip, in social setting effects are diminished, tripping solo potentiates them, visuals are colorful and different than shrooms or acid, weak afterglow. 70 mg - powerful visuals, everything melts and you cannot really move, can be scary if someone has no experience, DPT characteristic effects start to emerge, that means intense, uncontrolable body shaking and kinetic hallucinations, music is distorted, but still sounds godlike, 2 hours trip and 1 hour of the best afterglow of all psychedelics. Like really, DPT is the most useful after the main trip ends. There's a very steep curve in effects, the trip ends almost like someone has turned off a switch and you are left with super-clear and creative headspace, without any psychedelics distortions. You can easily write text or draw and benefit from altered consciousness state. Great for contemplation. 90 mg - total breakthrough, you fear death and then die, in order to become Singularity, physical effects in the beginning can get really intense and scary, it has a long-term positive impact on life and of course gives awesome afterglow at the end of the trip. And here's one try smoked: 20 mg freebase - the moment I have released the smoke from my lungs, the world has already started flashing with neon lights, the smoke looked terrific and everything would be awesome if not for the nausea, the first 15 most intense minutes of 45 minutes trip are wasted on resisting bodyload, interesting changes in body feel, I have literally transformed into a werewolf, there were lightnings hitting me from every direction and overall I would say that this substance has a kundalini vibe, if that even makes sense. Verdict: very useful for consciousness work, but not only, it has the potential to induce a breakthrough experience and can be consumed in many forms, you can even make something like propylhauasca from it.

I think it's a personality type of thing. Some people have it easier than you, because they are more inclined to be emotionally stable. I believe I am that kind of person so the solution proposed might be not sophisticated or powerful enough for your needs, but here it goes. Have a mantra that will pierce through your fears. For example this part from Psalm 23: It has to be something you belive in and sacred. I get shivers when I hear these words. Other than that, you need a solid theorethical foundation on topics of good and evil, self-honesty, surrender, etc.

It is powerful. Way more powerful than anything else I have tried. Maybe a few long meditation retreats in a year would be comparable, but they take more hours.

I would love to randomly get bombarded with quotes from OSHO's "Love, Freedom, Aloneness" or Rumi's poetry by some chick.

The problem with truth is that it's an almost empty word for me. I don't really know where it points to. On the other hand, I know exactly what happiness means. When I recall a mystical experience my body shivers from the reminiscence of the sweetest sweetness there is. Happiness is that sweetness. I want to go full monty and overflow with it every minute, every hour. That's why I do yoga. If the action taken is the same as if I was pursuing Truth, then I don't see a problem.

I don't want the truth. I want happiness, that's the only reason why I am on the path. To be happy and peaceful all the time. Is that a hindrance? I don't know yet. It all boils down to how skillfully you navigate those desires and wants, I think.

True. Constantly seeing that in myself. Non-cognitive areas of life lag in development, but you eventually make the jump into the next stage and it feels so liberating to drop the old habits.

Yup, also sends a report to your mail every week, so you can keep better track of your work/life balance.

My stack: Google Calendar for scheduling, Toggl for time tracking, Evernote for note-taking. Those are the ones I use daily.

Reality check. If you have never made any money through YouTube or your own website, then you are probably underestimating the effort it needs by 10-fold. Better focus on freelancing until you can make a living.

@Yonkon You see benefits daily. From the first week of practice, your awareness raises noticeably.

If you feel sharp pain close to heart@How to be wise, it may simply be your spine. That type of pain is typical when you sit too much or have some back problems.

Do you literaly feel burning in the heart area? If yes, then I am experiencing somthing similar. Tried Hatha Yoga and felt flames bursting through my hands. I think what you are experiencing is totally normal. The whole charm of this journey is that every day can bring something unexpected.

@dimitri Every single one.

You have put a lot of quality research into the issue. Thanks for that.

Yeah, it's excellent at everything you have listed.

@Freakrik It doesn't matter. Spiritual experiences are waaay deeper. Even the early ones. They always surprise you with a depth, even though you think you know what to expect.

So, I have actually kissed with the preetiest girl in school that I had a crush on and to top it, it was my first kiss ever in life. It was cool, but rather dissapoinitng. I have also had samadhi where I forgot who I am and merged with reality. It grounded me to the floor and left in shock from awe for an hour. It was unexpectedly magnificient. Here's your comparison. I think there's none.

Hah, I have almost forgotten about this guy, but he is sooo entartaining. This could be a good example of pickup. Although I can't get rid of feeling that what I have watched is just a show, like it doesn't work half as well as in the video.

AI reasearch and policy. Drugs legalization or at least decriminalization. Further spreading of environmentally conscious ideas like renewable energy or veganism. Help everyone find their life purpose. Spread Enlightenment teachings, more research into altered states of consciousness.

Or rather, needle dangers

Try to meditate inside a lucid dream. Mind-blowing experience. You can get samadhi so easily in that state. It's hard to get that idea when you are already in a dream, so you have to set intention before having one.

For me, that's called having fun