Amadeusz

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  1. I dunno but Putin seems like a conservative oldschool player. He won't do some 'Vegas on Black Sea' shit. He's gonna play undercover.
  2. @How to be wise Im from Poland and imho it all boils down to their lower level of human development, higher crime etc.. It's something like Mexico for the USA.
  3. Isn't it good that someone's challenging the status quo there, though? But from the other hand maybe there might be huge backlash because of it? Despite Putin being a thief Russia is still improving and will probably continue. Artificial, 'too quick' improvement could only stop the whole process, right?
  4. Poznań here
  5. Skyrim fan here 😀 Also proud that finally my country managed to produce something known worldwide; that Cyberpunk game 😉🤪
  6. Yo! Polish guy here
  7. I want to ask: where's the love? I know that trump is the devil, but who isn't? I feel a little bit of uhealthy hatred here towards Trump.
  8. Im sorry if it was mentioned, but it would be good topic. I know that Leo talked about this idea in collective ego video. I'm not a born leader but sometimes there's need to lead and we need to have knowledge how to do it safely.
  9. I'm in difficult time in my life which made me start this topic. I've posted it also as a first post in my journal, but since this section is more popular maybe someone will help me to tackle this... So basically the thing I want to conteplate here is the video 'You are not happy because you don't really want to be'. I've been living this carrot and stick motivation model since a few years now. And it worked well! I feel like I found my life purpose and I started to tackle my problems and generally pushing upwards carrer wise, spiritual wise and so on. But then I started doubting. After that trip in January i ignored that feeling and just continued to keep my 'carrot and stick structure'. And then again I had 6 months of RESULTS! This system worked well, but after my last trip this week I started doubting again. And now Im stunted. I kinda realise that I don't motivate myself with inner desire but with this carrot and stick. Bad feelings keep me doing 'right stuff' during the day and rewards are to motivate me to do 'right stuff'. The problem is that this 'right stuff' could be artificial goals that I don't really want to do. But you know it's complicated because like I said I found this 'life purpose' after buying the course and I feel big satisfaction doing it (music). BUT at the same time if I let to do myself to do whatever I want it's not so sure I would pursue music... So this satisfaction... Maybe it's an illusion? Maybe I like the feeling of completing the music goal but it's still not authentic? On the other hand I like doing all this music shit like recording videos, singing and so on, of course I also have times when I don't like it and I'm lazy. What can I do in this situation? Basic strategy for this kind of problem is to... let go of these motivations, obligations. Bad feeling comes? Just ignore it. Don't act. Wait for authentic desire. I did it in the past. And you know, sometimes I started like Leo says, with bad habits but then the motivation kicked in and I've started to do conscious and productive things too, like sports, music, creating websites and so on. But you know there was some of these good things but generally I was a lazy slug, played computer games 2-3 hours a day and consciousness was low. I don't know maybe if I continued to do it, then I would immerse myself in these good, healthy motivations full on? But my experiment lasted for 1 year and I was rather unhappy, I lived in my parents house, my discipline was shitty and I've decided to come back to this carrot and stick model. Now after I had this trip last weekend I've been back in this authentic motivation paradigm again after 2 years... It's scary. I feel like my life's falling apart. All my healthy habits are just crushing, all my music habits. Fortunately since the paradigm shift I still do a lot of sports and I keep my meditation habit in place. The vision of being famous musician is my fucking dream, it's like super important. But at the same time if I let to do whatever the fuck I want I would probably? Go to travel with my BIKE? I would build Solar Ebike like here and I would travel through Europe and let myself to do whatever I want... How could I try to tackle this problem? You know, living for one month in this 'authentic desire paradigm' could tell me a lot, but at the same time each day is super important and I liked my carrot and stick paradigm but also I'm a slave to it and it's structure. I'm stunted and inflexible. Such month would make me more flexible and maybe will help me resolve this problem. But at the end of the day I feel that I will be this lazy slob again... What do you think guys? Any tips or ideas?
  10. Ok so here I will post my journey. Now I'm in difficult time in my life which made me start this topic. So basically first thing I want to conteplate here is the video 'You are not happy because you don't really want to be'. I've been living this carrot and stick motivation model since a few years now. And it worked well! I feel like I found my life purpose and I started to tackle my problems and generally pushing upwards carrer wise, spiritual wise and so on. But then I started doubting. After that trip in January i ignored that feeling and just continued to keep my 'carrot and stick structure'. And then again I had 6 months of RESULTS! This system worked well, but after my last trip this week I started doubting again. And now Im stunted. I kinda realise that I don't motivate myself with inner desire but with this carrot and stick. Bad feelings keep me doing 'right stuff' during the day and rewards are to motivate me to do 'right stuff'. The problem is that this 'right stuff' could be artificial goals that I don't really want to do. But you know it's complicated because like I said I found this 'life purpose' after buying the course and I feel big satisfaction doing it (music). BUT at the same time if I let to do myself to do whatever I want it's not so sure I would pursue music... So this satisfaction... Maybe it's an illusion? Maybe I like the feeling of completing the music goal but it's still not authentic? On the other hand I like doing all this music shit like recording videos, singing and so on, of course I also have times when I don't like it and I'm lazy. What can I do in this situation? Basic strategy for this kind of problem is to... let go of these motivations, obligations. Bad feeling comes? Just ignore it. Don't act. Wait for authentic desire. I did it in the past. And you know, sometimes I started like Leo says, with bad habits but then the motivation kicked in and I've started to do conscious and productive things too, like sports, music, creating websites and so on. But you know there was some of these good things but generally I was a lazy slug, played computer games 2-3 hours a day and consciousness was low. I don't know maybe if I continued to do it, then I would immerse myself in these good, healthy motivations full on? But my experiment lasted for 1 year and I was rather unhappy, I lived in my parents house, my discipline was shitty and I've decided to come back to this carrot and stick model. Now after I had this trip last weekend I've been back in this authentic motivation paradigm again after 2 years... It's scary. I feel like my life's falling apart. All my healthy habits are just crushing, all my music habits. Fortunately since the paradigm shift I still do a lot of sports and I keep my meditation habit in place. The vision of being famous musician is my fucking dream, it's like super important. But at the same time if I let to do whatever the fuck I want I would probably? Go to travel with my BIKE? I would build Solar Ebike like here and I would travel through Europe and let myself to do whatever I want... How could I try to tackle this problem? You know, living for one month in this 'authentic desire paradigm' could tell me a lot, but at the same time each day is super important and I liked my carrot and stick paradigm but also I'm a slave to it and it's structure. I'm stunted and inflexible. Such month would make me more flexible and maybe will help me resolve this problem. What do you think guys? Any tips or ideas?
  11. Dont they dare delete the rest WTF . I go back to them from time to time.
  12. haha that's funny. We had IT in Poland too. Such a distinct melody that I will remember it forever. 😉
  13. So I was that excellent A grader back in primary and secondary school. I was polite, I was nice and I had poor social skills. And I had this complex that my head is too big. I mean it was huge but nothing to be shy about. But back then it was a real deal. And everyone was laughing at me. They called me the TV-guy, Square-guy, Huge-Head and so on. In high school this complex gone away as I healed myself a little bit. But it was still a present to certain extent and some people still made laugh at me. And the moment it stopped bothering me, people stopped making laugh of me. That's such an example of nonduality it shocks and terrifies me. Wow. It was all in me. My head haven't suddenly shrink. It was the same for years, since secondary school. Crazy. Do you have some other proofs?
  14. To me you shouldn't say 'I love you' to a women. Show her that you love her! Talk is cheap At first I laughed hard, but maybe it's not that bad of an idea? ;D