Visionary

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  1. Welcome it into your heart. It's just as hard as it's easy.
  2. Not doing anything is a choice too. The thing is we sometimes are forced to go into these dark places to realize that they are not the refuge we seek from life. True fear of death is the fear of life. This discussion of free will might look like a conscious act of wanting to live according to Truth. But in the longer game these discussions resurface the hidden subconscious intention of avoiding life from the heart and from vulnerability. That is how Truth is really making itself your teacher. Indirectly, subconsciously, over a longer period of time and in a very hard manner. Unless you can already grasp it in a sense. The unconscious is a far far greater teacher of Truth than the ego might think it can be through grasping things and insights and what not. The hunger for life is something that needs to be cultivated. A little day by day.
  3. You act like you already figured out what "I" is and what "God" is.
  4. I actually experienced the same and went into a semi-psychosis. But after challenging the mental madness barrier it was relatively easy to step back from it. But before the semi-psychosis it was as if something had taken me over. The way i touched her, my sensuality and energy were all from a perfect place of heartfelt intuition. My ego felt very unsafe to let go of that control. She said: "who are you"? 3 or 4 times out of awe. But my ego really took that as: who the fuck am i indeed? Who is doing this all? Which made me paranoid and psychotic. But not for long thankfully ?
  5. We all are. And we're here to help eachother go through that shit. This "method"can really really help you realize the depths of the pools of shit that are waiting to be discovered. More than mental self-reflective exercises. These transmissions are energetic, very subtle but at the same time extreme in its effects if you give it time. What's even more nice: it takes you beyond the minds self-reflective capacities and straight into the subconscious mind. True Self-reflection cannot take place without the language of the subconscious mind which is energy. Which is mostly non-symbolic. Translating this non-symbolic data into language is the real journey. That is true self-discovery and truthful expression. We're full of untranslated non-symbolic data waiting to be expressed. Like the depths of the Pacific. The conscious ego mind is a little pool.
  6. You have zero experience of an energetic transmission my friend. Zero. If you're really honest, be open and receptive. And test it for a couple of years. If you're not willing to do that, its of course ok. But do know you're full of shit. Literally projecting and assuming as a self-biased cynic. Don't believe, just do and test.
  7. Yes, exactly. Being present is actually a full expression of the auric field, thus also the way the inner and outer world communicates or stands in relationship. Being present is to be and to be is to be in relationship. A transmission is the ultimate relationship (far deeper, simpler and yet less attached than what most people understand as a relationship).
  8. Remember to stay grounded. Give lots of attention to physicality and your physical existence. That's the best way. Or else you will be completely disconnected from physical life.
  9. I would advice you to use your own question you ask in this topic. Let that question fuel you and your search from the deepest place. You should want this so bad, that you're willing to give up everything for it. Even the need for being the saint itself in the end. That's much more pure and authentic way than brittle methods like : who is aware? Those methods won't do much. It is that desire that needs to be fueled and at the last burned in the fires of Truth in your heartspace.
  10. I've been doing these transmissions for years and I know pretty much everyone of them except Gary. Thank you for introducing him! Furthermore you have Peter Cutler (incredibly potent Transmissions... these transmissions are the most "bright" and feel like nourishing bright water hahaha): - https://youtu.be/_XudBFMnXlc - And of course Matt Kahn (who is in my opinion the most gifted transmitter of consciousness of this modern era). A tip: Use the intelligence of this energy to express through dance and art. Especially dancing is an incredible way of expressing, getting to know the intelligence, creating syncronization between the left-right brain hemispheres.
  11. Anala chakra ?? What a f*cking foolish topic. But necessary I guess.
  12. Did two inhales of 5meo. I just stumbled upon the substance at a friends house. I'm quiet deep at my healing journey. Done loads of psychedelics (lsd, shrooms, 2cb), shaktipat transmissions, holotropic breathwork and stuff like rapé. But one inhale of 6mg dmt is like nothing else. Currently my consciousness is being anchored deeply into the body. And the 5meo was perfect for that. It gives you exactly what you need. I vomited both times. Purging from every fibre of my being. What an incredible clean substance. I'm not at a stage where i feel drawn to more nondual expansion. I'm at a phase where this limitless consciousness needs expression through grounding into the body and integrating the new found space in the body and world. It will give you exactly what you need. Be careful tho. Maybe that also could mean a misuse of the substance.
  13. You are NOT God. God is you. And you are you. People on this forum are mostly running away from their humanity.
  14. Weed is even better when focused on somatic sensations instead of thought processes. Do a proper foam rolling workout during an edible trip. Its something else. Not necessarily fun.
  15. Yes and no? You are speaking to the Formless within me, which is you. I do believe we have Gods spark. That we indeed are not separate. It can be experienced through psychedelic and non dual states. But we take shits and brush our teeth every morning (by Divine orchestration lol). The fact that we are also not-God is incredibly important. I think especially this needs to be emphasized. And i don't think god is praying to himself. I don't think duality is a complete fiction. There is more to it. I think God knowing itself by contrast is exactly the game we are supposed to be playing. We can't deny contrast. So in a way it doesnt make sense to tell me I'm God. As in no way it can be interpreted by me. No way it can be understood. I'm not denying my divine relationship with God. My point is: this path is a lot more about embodying this stuff than the insights. We have nothing in the end, but our divine nature. So the less we can talk about God and the more we can show our connection through our actions, the more we can speak of mastery. That's why I really respect these mystic poets. In a way they realize the futility in their descriptions, yet its their ultimate love statement. Almost always incorporating this connection. And how can you know God absolutely as an individual? The infinity can go on infinitely. You can know Gods nature absolutely. Anway thanks for replying brother.
  16. Your relationship with God can only exist through devotional surrender. Where your not-knowing is embraced. You don't surrender for outcomes. Surrender becomes the way of life. Devotional surrender. You cannot ever know God. Ever. So what's the purpose of this all if you cannot know God? Exactly because it is unknowable you can cultivate a relationship with the Unknowable. Day to day. It actually only needs your total devotional and humble attitude. That you simply do no know. This will help you get to your most humble part and to surrender to something more than yourself. Let go of all those insights about god. Only use them if they can help you surrender.
  17. You want to know what this "bla bla bla" thing is? That's asking for more bla bla bla. Try grounding in the body and unknowing every facet of your experience. You can only know the mind if you know the body (energy). The mind is one of the most subtle forms of energetic awareness. It's better to instantly go to this holistic approach rather than dissecting. Thats the only way to know the wholeness of yourself.
  18. Recently stumbled upon this greatly underrated tantric (Kashmir Shaivism) teacher. Check this one out (especially at the end where he mentions that being infinitely ignorant is part of the deal when in Brahman). You cannot ever get rid of the ego. You only expand. That's where the notion of ignorance plays it role. We can only expand due to ignorance. And this one here is truly powerful. As a tantric teacher he realizes how crucial it is to raise body/energetic awareness (Shakti) to reach Shiva. Realization can only be embodied at the level of the body (Duh!).
  19. Oh my, that mountain looks so filled with warmth and incredible grounding energy.
  20. It's actually about the setting. Unconsciously you're not feeling safe. When you're doing this with a facilitator and an energy surrogate beside you, you will automatically let go and go full in. I think there is a mental block now. A setting like mentioned here will help you let go of this unconsciously. If its not an option you can take try to let go by yourself. Its your mental block.
  21. Realizing gratitude is an orientation and not only the emotional effect. So that means its both a surrender and an effort. The benefit of gratitude is... gratitude. Make it as intrinsic as possible. Look at it like a skill you can refine your whole life. So view it as a process. And get in love with the process. And most importantly: realize you are consciousness. So gratitude is pulled out of you. Its not something to be reached for.
  22. Calling it DP/DR would be a bit more accurate. Its much more dark and spiritual than that though. It feels like a total abandonment by god. A total disconnection from source. DP/DR feels softer, less dark and definitely more sterile.