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rofl. See Leo's latest video, I think it relates to your questions.

Weird, well that's when I truly feel "insane".

Yes it's possible to achieve things still but without the attachment for "achieving" anything at all. So almost like you can still have some goals but you're totally not worried if they don't end up as planned. No attachment to outcome. On the other hand when this happens your "goals" will most likely be very different.. like maybe just to practically survive, embody your truths, etc. Depends where you are at. How much are you willing to surrender. To surrender might feel like a kind of "death", this might be a continual process. But on the other side is inifnite freedom and love awaiting. It's okay if you got survival struggles. Just be mindful of it and why you need to take care of that aspect of living.

My mom. She had unleashed all her anger onto me as I was growing up but twisted as "love", I think this is partly why I have so many health issues. I don't recommend being close to a narcissist. When I first tried to break the chain in my 20s, she immediately wanted to adopt another kid so she can leech off of. She is only slowly changing now after years since I stopped "feeding her", not feeding it helps I think, but it's a very slow thing and she's still very childlike and prone to it. Not counting on it I feel like it's the kind of thing that they internally has to want to change/evolve, they cannot be "forced" into it, and good therapy for it is hard to come by nor do they usually want to see a therapist. So yeah.. hard for me to see much hope in it, I can find love for her better at a distance right now, but kudos for anyone who have the patience to figure it out, as outsiders.

Lmao no pretty sure I first heard it from Leo ?. Yes it can be so pretty sometimes... Who knew colors could be so rich. And patterns. Sometimes I get these beautiful lace like patterns on my body and sheets, and purply sparkles in the air rofl.

Just have a basic webpage with your songs and other info like store/event page or something so people can find you/support you. You have no idea how many great musicians I've met don't have this and really screw themselves over.

I've been to a few psychedelic meetups in my area now and none of the people there (some with more experience) know about awakening/ego death. Most find that it helps with their mental health/personal stuff, some see spirits and believe in those. Actually when I bring up these potentials the ego backlash kicks in and most just ignore me after with a few exceptions. On the other hand, I experience alot of colors and shapes on just about every trip which I appreciate very much (it can be very pretty and magical ), but in combination with the insights.

Ah yes, haha @Leo Gura Do you have trips where a series of "insights" gets rapidly spoken out through you? Like you're "possessed"?

Congratulations. Yeah I can relate to most things said here. Take some time to integrate. It can be challenging. I've had my share of "rollercoasters" with these trips. Now outside of trips it feels like I am simply an "actor" in this dream to most folks. Things should stabilize after some time. Feel free to reach out to someone here if you need some support.

Well, God is infinite, so it can be anything, it can create separation within itself if it wants to. But ultimately all the separations it creates are contained inside of itself.

No. Only if you insist on seperating yourself because of things like fear, attachements, biases, etc (the "tricks" of the ego so to speak). Or you simply "forget" sometimes .

You're on the right track. Of course. Because your idea of how things work is likely not the way it actually is. At least create the possibility that you don't actually know anything and have been taking things on by faith, by delegating your authority to "others". Let go of the stuff you've been "taught" and find out the truth for yourself - you have all the answers within.

Dawww, if someone has an opening I usually direct them here.

You can assess to a degree. It's about deconstructing all of your beliefs, concepts, conditioning, self-biases, fears, etc. That's actually potentially a lot to "clean up" which is why I used that analogy. Then when you truly feel "empty" of those, your true nature will start to penetrate your awareness more and more, to the degree you can let go of the above. This was the point I took a psychedelic to go deeper into being and "what I am". What you are is actually simple. But if one hasn't deconstructed enough, the ego likes to make it more complex or something that suits its agenda, and hijacks the process of awakening or make something up to fill a blank. So it's important to let go of fears and biases so they don't get in the way.

Similar to emptying your cup yes. Wasn't thinking of Peterson lmao.

I mean at the Godhead and the one and only Self there is, the I AM.

@Razard86 You forgot what we just talked about!!

@Godishere In the singularity God can create/imagine "seperation", but one is "contained" in another. So I accept both as true. Truth can be paradoxical.

Yes that's true. I think it can be hard for the ego to accept this total aloneness.

That's coz you're taking it too serious I kinda like that one it kinda works like that when you're doing it a bit unconsciously yeah..

Haha on one of my initial self-realization trips, I was "told" that God didn't want to feel alone anymore and wanted to experience "the other", ultimately to express love through the creation of "the other". On a later trip I (as the singularity) experienced total satisfaction for having experienced and expressed myself through all creation. I guess God can't make up its mind just like how some of us are .

LOL don't need to take it so literal. But it shouldn't be a surprise that when you reach where your "teacher" has gone, you will literally merge on that level of consciousness.

Dude I just had a similar insight a couple of days ago. I was pondering how similar the urge to "teach" is to "giving birth" lawl. It's mind blowing almost everytime I have an insight you write it out here and I find it. Wtfux?! (well not just you and not everything, but it's still freaky enough).

@Godishere Well I've experienced both so maybe it's both - the feeling of loneliness AND the feeling of whole and completeness .