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@Ilya why can't you see that your body is nothing more than what you've eaten lately, your thoughts are just electrical impulses, and your personality is just thoughts you repeat? at which point in all that causation is there a 'you' ? no where no thing

@MiracleMan awesome. Give dark side of the moon a listen. The sun is the One, the moon is the ego. A relevant eclipse.

@Costa7 differentiate between what is simply a thought, and what you are aware of.

I experience a paradox of a perspective of outside free will, which is the only way I experience there is not free will to begin with. Free will, imo, may be the greatest feature of the illusion. It is not that I am a person who is so powerless that he has free will, it is that I am no thing which is infinite, there is no limit or event finite enough to experience anything specific, or that of free will, or of choice. To experience free will, I would have to be one thing, and I am not one thing, I'm no thing. I'm not even the clock maker, nor the clock itself, nor the observer of the clock. No thing does not have a property, not even free will.

@Consept meditate twice a day. the mind will give a hundred reason to stop. if you don't stop, you become less reactionary, and more creative. less ego. less me focus.

@RichardY is that God's word?

@Stoica Doru i used to take five different pills. now zero. even clariton no more. meditation made it very easy to align with choices of well-being, in terms of food also. I lost 60 pounds and I credit it to being centered and connected from meditation every morning exercise doesn't hurt either

@Lord Bwyra you're hilarious! thank you!!!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️

@Stoica Doru it's infinite.

@Joseph Maynor how do you know what you just said?

@shahryar what are you saying here? I don't understand.

@love Get certified in Reiki. Visit a chiropractor who is aware of what role they are actually playing. Then do the doctor thing. This way you won't go into doctoring with unnecessary illusions. Bonus - your spirituality will expand exponentially. The only healers are the people who understand they are doing nothing.

@Max_V describe yourself. Pick 3 adjectives. Pick a couple values. Draw that. Then crumble the paper up an throw it on the floor. Do it again. After some number of times, your creative juices are flowing. Then just be fucking awesome for the rest of your life.

@Ilya the alchemist. Illusions.

Thanks for the advice complement. Chores, all giving, is personal development. Let go, surrender, do for them, it's doing for you. I moved out when I was 18 and got 3 jobs while I went to college full time. My dad had anger issues. They weren't my issues, they were his. It was the gift for me, from him, which helped me to wake up and get living at an early age. I had a destiny to understand reality - at least to the extent that I would be without anger. Meditate every morning. It is not the situation which is giving you the stress, it is how you're looking at it. Live your life as if it were a story that your wrote, and now are living. That's actually true. You'll see that later in life, and I wouldn't want you to regret having wasted any time being half dead with a poor outlook. The gift you gave yourself, in this "life", is the rocky shitty start you describe. That is your gift from you. Start unwrapping your "present". Be present in the now. Start building some thought momentum about your future, short term and long. Consider simply getting the fuck outta there - you are 18 now. If you're not ready to get out and support yourself like the rest of us adults, then definitely renew your appreciation for the fact that your parents are supporting you. Let that inspire you to support yourself. Remember, they are doing their best. They don't know what they don't know, neither do you, neither do I. Good Luck !!! Love your folks! Find anything to love in them! If you want to feel love, it's simple...love. Also, don't underestimate food. If you're feeling stress, anxiety, poor future outlook - vs seeing opportunities, and adventures - chances are you're eating meat, sugar and bread. You're still young, that's your fault.

@Leo Gura Some trolls like to create..trolls. Maybe the best party is the one that isn't even happening.

Do you think, somewhere, there are trolls wondering if we exist?

@Afonso I don't know why, but I really love your avatar pic. It's so you. So honest or something. Awesome. No words for it really. My suggestion on the social approval issue....start noticing the stark difference between a thought and your actual awareness. You have never, are not now at all, and will never have one drop of awareness about what anyone else is thinking. Recognize it is simply a thought of yours. Even when you see people's faces, and you'd bet your life you know what they're thinking, you don't. I could smile at you while I say hello! And you might think "well, he's a happy fucker". But then I go back in my car and cry. I could be sitting in the window of Starbucks, tears running down my face, and as you see me through the window while driving off, you might think, "what a pussy. That guy needs to get it together". Meanwhile, I'm inside so full of joy and love, that it has overwhelmed my capacity, again. You NEVER know what someone else is thinking - that's just a thought of yours. Let the thoughts of social acceptance and approval simply remind you what all thoughts should remind you - that you are returning to awareness mode, and breathing from your belly!

@TimStr that's deep bro.

Trolls are as real as my hand.

@Shane597 that's some serious awareness man. Reality has been doing some insane miracles in my neck of the woods as well. Don't think at all.

@Fuse it's far more simple than that. Just take out a pen and a piece of paper and start writing down what you want.

@Fuse imagine for a minute, if you are infinite, and could create any experience, what would you create? I'm guessing you're thinking of some kind of paradise. makes perfect sense to me. A place where everything is perfect and you want for nothing. so, great, what about hundreds of millions of years later? as the infinite, there is no doubt, no fear, no pain. You could do anything, create any allusion, knowing it's just a story, it's just something to do. my guesses, eventually, you would do this. if the world was perfect you would have nothing to do. yet, the world is perfect, because you can do a lot about it a little about it or nothing at all about it

@Moreira The observer is a good thing, or place to be along the path. No association with the mind's concepts, with all the traps. Good place to be. But the no thing is in your question already - when you say "If we are no thing, who is aware", the no thing, the pure center of love itself, is the "is" in your statement. It just is. And of course, it isn't. It's no thing, as in, we are familiar with "things"; chairs, fruit, gravity - it is nothing like anything thing at all. You reach the last point of no thing (pure unabashed love and bliss) by letting go of everything else; preferences, choices, perspective, concepts, etc.

@Telepresent you are the box in your avatar pic. The box is implied. Only implied. It is no-thing. IMO, you are going in the right direction. 'I am not my body' - is a big step. Currently, however, you seem to be identifying as your brain / thinking / thoughts. The next big step is becoming aware that you are not your thoughts - and then next step after that is that there is no "you" which has thoughts / no observer which observes the thoughts. There is no-thing, which we all are, through us / which has awareness. See how "we are all One"? No souls, no heaven & hell, no observer - just the one no-thing. (The one no-thing is pure love & bliss btw, yet also no-thing at all) (also, imo, it has an incredible sense of humor, and also is no-thing) To detach from your thoughts, which allows the next breakthrough, you must get started putting the focus in, doing the meditation. Continue the self inquiry. Start eating vegan. Excercising. Then you'll be feeling great. Assimilate the habit of breathing awareness 24/7 & BEING IN THE NOW. Past & future are merely thoughts in the now. Look at all things and say "that's not me".......Then try shrooms. Research it! You'll breakthrough. Continue that "path" of no path, and you're on your way to nothingness. (And it's fucking awesome, no fear, no doubt, everything makes sense, love pours out of you all day, miracles happen, birds chirp to you, water feels like a kindred spirit / best friend, people come out of the wood work with opportunities for you, funny is funnier, crazy is crazier!!! Animals will literally walk out of the woods and gaze into your eyes while you both experience - that you are no thing, Beautiful is true beauty itself, the stars pop right into place every time you look at them!, IT REALLY GETS AMAZING TELLY!! ....also...it's also no thing, plus, you'll be CRAZY!????)