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  1. Hmm where should I start. Well my main question will be how to wake up? But first things first. Intro I am 20 years old student, discovered actualized.org and spirituality about a year ago. I was VERY interested in this topic since the beginning of my discovery. I started to meditate, do some sort of self inquiry and self help habits. During this year all these things were not consistent, meaning I am still doing meditation and other things not daily, generally a few times per week, as it is very hard for me to commit to this fully. Anyways. Dreaming One of the most fascinating topics for me were dreams and OBE (red all three Robert Monroe books). I tried to lucid dream and recall my dreams. The following explanation might not meet the reality as it is hard to put in words. So in my dreams, as well as lucid ones, when I realize I am dreaming the reality at the time is very dim, sort of like 360p quality or 0.5 frames per second, its sort of like I am very low aware. When I notice this, I try to be very mindful and aware, but its just to dreamy and hard to make it real. Now the main issue! DMT Today I tried DMT, and man, this was sort of stupid. Because I supposed to do it with my friend, but it happened so that we were 5 in the room, I was not in the mood and etc. This was first psychedelic in my life btw. Anyways, I took the pipe and was waiting for dmt to be vaporized, my heart was beating really fast, I was nervous (I really wanted to stay relaxed but it was hard). I took the hit, somehow I took the second and partly third, and the journey started. I closed my eyes and shit started to happen. For the record I can tell you it was light dose, as I didn’t approached infinity and all there were these "infinite" fractals and patterns. IT FELT LIKE MIRACLES WERE HAPPENING IN FRONT OF ME BUT I COUDNT CATCH THEM. the same as in my dream. I was very little aware, it is hard to describe. I am awake, I see the patterns but at the same time, everything is sort of reduced in reality, its like I am dreaming. It was very weird, its like I was watching this magnificent movie, but half of the film was jumping and I couldn’t notice it properly. Okay I have the metaphor- when you try to draw an apple, you clearly see it in your head, but at the same time not at all, because when you try to go into details, its impossible, and so drawing is unrealistic whereas in reality if you would look into the apple you could see the details of it. And so this hole trip felt real and beautiful at the same time I wasn’t able to watch i fully. Sort of like the' glasses were muddy'. Its so sad. I know that I am not ready, I need to solve this dream like perception issue Okay to conclude. Trip was nice, it was very interesting and all. But two things. It was light so I wasn’t able to really go deep into myself, second it so sad its like flower is in front of me and I cant see it properly, maybe I am ADHD or something lol. Because its like I cant watch it calmly and see it clearly. Man I cant see it!. I see the potential of what can be seen, but how. I get the idea of the infinity being in front of me and the only thing that is holding me is my perception. Back to the question finally - what was wrong? why I am unable to feel it as real? Maybe it is my low awareness, if so how can I raise it? Cause it really feels like life is just so magnificent and I am blind.
  2. Damn! I have seen hundred TED talks yet I think this might be one of the top 3 speeches. Very mind-opening, I ll probably watch it 5 more times just to get a deeper understanding of what he is saying. Thank you for sharing this @alifesurreal Those ideas push me to question a lot
  3. @pluto Very interesting. Just red about David Wilcock. Its hard to say for me if this whole energy stuff is real, as I am living in a very conventional, orthodox-like society. So my mind is a bit close-minded in a way. Although I do believe things are changing and a shift in the human mind is accuring. Overall thrilling topic what can I say
  4. @pluto Don't worry friend I ll mark your words Although it seems a bit silly like when people in 2011 were saying in 2012 the world will end. Could you elaborate on your answer a little bit, like why are you so sure about Aliens, and what kind of Aliens are you reffering to? (like some sort of 3d creatures?) Just curious
  5. @Dodoster Good stuff, i would love to try to meditate in a dream. I can tell you my crazy stoy, from the dream a few days ago. Basic background: I have never had lucid dream before although tried. Anyways, so before going to sleep I red that it is very helpful to have an intention to be conscious while dreaming if you want to have a lucid dream. So I did, later that night I dreamt that I was talking with a group of people about college and suddenly I thought to myself, damn this looks so real, what a funny thing it would be if this turned out to be a dream. So I started to examin items on the table, everything seemed real. I thought I will stop examining reality as this is clearly not a dream, although just for the record I ll try to count the number of fingers on my hand. There were 6 of them!!! BOOOM! MINDBLOWING SHIT! it was a dream all along. Funny thing is how real the dream appears while dreaming, hard to catch myself in it. So yeah just wanted to share with you my first lucid dream experience. Btw interesting fact: I always thought I don't have many fears, man I was so wrong. For some reason I am afraid of the dark. Like the moment I become conscious I flew out of the room and it was only a dark space around it, I instantly woke up, I was in a some sort of panic, like I was afraid to go back to sleep for the next few minute. Interesting stuff.
  6. @Kazman thanks man for your in depth answer appreciate the advice
  7. @Kazman What exactly is the technique you use? I would like to try it out myself someday, could you provide us with some source of information maybe ?
  8. @Donald thanks will do. Currently I am reading Sadhguru's inner engineering
  9. I noticed this to be very true. From human's trying to do things in order there only comes disorder. Good work with understanding the book. And of course thanks for the quotes
  10. @Bizarre Nice post, however, how do I know that even the first statement of yours is true? "Enlightenment is about the unexamined logic of your own experience"- this is just another idea. I see enlightenment as knowing the truth. So why should your statement more right than Max's statement
  11. @Bizarre Idk what to believe, maybe Max is right, maybe you,maybe you are both right to some extent or maybe you are both wrong. Thats why it would be nice to be enlightened, at least I would know the truth of who I am, because now I know nothing, so many opinions so many contradictory books. So much information. And at the end, who is telling truth? What is truth? Damn it would be cool to know something, would be good starting point from where to build knowledge
  12. First of all thank you Maximilian for taking your time to help us with this advice. Just one thing, you talk about listening to silence, and I wonder what practice is best for this, is SDS good for this. Or one should simply sit and actually listen to silence? If that is the case, do you listen to that sound of weird frequency sound in ears, which is when you quite. I mean i can definitely hear some sort of sound when I lay in my bed before sleep, there is this weird sound i don;t know like a signal some kind. Its hard to explain, like very high note playing in my ears. Anyway, the important of this post is to ask you how do I listen to that silence?
  13. @cetus56 Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind I've seen it, nothing special as said before, but I LOVED that movie! haha Idk maybe it was because it resonated with me, as the character is somewhat similar to my personality. And the story is cool, especially the ending like inception, as everything is put in place. But not the greatest movie, just good . What I could recommend is Forrest Gump, I know u prob have watched it but still, watch again and pay attention how Forrest is acting purely from intuition, when he thinks its time to run he runs! And runs without worries or anxiety just runs. An overall I feel like he is without much crappy baggage, like it feels he just flows with what universe gives him without ANY resistance. Great movie. Recommend to all of you
  14. @Pramit I might not be the best adviser in this situation but I might recommend a few things. First: don't force it too much, just try to relax and let go of a thought 'its uncomfortable', although this wont help u too much as your body is too much adapted to sleeping in different position. As for me I was sleeping on the side for years so in this case what is most suitable would be to put an extra pillow against your cheeck ( like side to your head) therefore it will trick your mind into more relaxed state as you got used to feeling a pillow on the side of your head. Or put extra pillow below your knees, in case you were sleeping with bend legs, so again your body would feel more 'as usual'. Finally, u ll have to adapt step by step, like don;t force it too much just adapt gradually good luck, hope this helped
  15. I don't think that movie is very spiritual and about enlightenment, although it is beautiful and with nice effects. Its cool that they introduced new universes and other kind of 'magical' stuff BUT! It is VERY much about POWER/ PROTECTION/ KEEPING THE BODY ALIVE as long as possible and defeating others. Most of the charterers in the movie are resisting the here/now. Trying to fix the planet fighting against someone. Idk, for me it seems not the most spiritual movie. But again, i liked it and it has broader perspective on life than most other Hollywood movies so overall it is a bit 'enlightened' . bit in general its cool movie