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Holy shit

When you first feel love for someone, this isn't a fake emotion, it is very genuine. It seems to "go", but it isn't, it's just clouded by the mind and its incessant needs and conditions, that it thinks it is required to feel love, but ... ... Love can only appears when nothing is in your mind. @Prabhaker Lol dude, this is a whole passage of "From sex to superconsciousness" from Osho, now I understand why all your message are so god damn long, they're all quotes ! Can't you just talk with your own words ? You know it's ok not to impress, it's ok to just be you ...

Everytime I hear a deep truth coming from a spiritual teacher, or when I start to loose my sense of self for some seconds, I start to cry. Even when my entire worldview was shaken by the first enlightenement video from Leo (Most shocking truth), I wasn't crying. What is this, the beginning of the dark knight ? Or am I just randomly exalting more feminine energy ? It feels awesome, and still, I can sense a subtle fear in it.

You know what you have to do all day tomorrow guys/girls

You know why you can't answer these questions ? Because there is no answers, only realization, only "OHHHH, ok ..." moments. Why do you think so many of us tells you there is nothing to learn in the first place ? Everything you need to know is already in you, you just have to become conscious of it, through meditation, presence, thoughts examination = mindfullness (especially the painful ones). There is only you to do that, no one can teach you anything, they can only tell you to be present and to face your anxious thoughts. The call is something very frigthening and beautiful at the same moment: Frigthening, because you'll know that you can't come back, and because you'll realize that you know that you don't know. Beautiful, because you'll know that your life will only keep feel more and more authentic, genuine, infinitly more orgasmic. You'll also acknowledge that nothing else really matter except the Truth, and that if you have to experience immeasurable pain to see it, then so be it. Now the all dilemma is Will you accept it ? If you don't, you'll always remember (at least inconsciously) all what Is said above. How could you live a happy life knowing you've turned away from that ? You can't And you won't.

Yo I love you

When you embrace your fears Without knowing what lies beyond

The thing is, at first, watching your thoughts feels like torture. If you had some hard moments in your life, it may be so painful and dreadful to do, that you may never want to do it. You can do some meditation here and there by focusing on your breath and other meditation like that, but ultimately it doesn't solve the thinking problem (not on the short-mid term), you don't do any work that really scares you, that forces you to be really present, conscious. It is scary, but I think this is why some people can be very fast in this all thing. They force themselve to look at all the negative patterns they have, again and again, no matter how painful it is, and finally, they dissolve themselve ... I have a very recent exemple: Recently I was thinking about relationship and how to maintain it, and I was thinking about fidelity and why we should or shouldn't have sex with other people. I came to realize there is no real reasons, it is all egotic, all of it. The funny thing is that my mind resisted this insight, and I had to think at least 10 times more about it, and it was very painful, because my mind was very attached to this "only you and me" kind of relationship, which is a pure fantasy, and is not how a healthy relationship works. Now, I can think about it if I want and it does nothing to me, but I had to suffer first. This is how you do it the fastest way possible, cause if you are ok with all the thoughts that appear in your mind, Why thinking about it again ?

Listen to this while watching people come and go in a train station or a very crowded town area (open air), Something may happen

I don't see the point on learning anything anymore, the thing I read or watch, is for entertainment or simply to remind me to be present, I don't seek any answer, because like you said, there is nothing to understand/realize except that being conscious is all there is. Doing seems pointless too, in fact, the less I do, the more conscious and admiring I am towards the present moment, the more happiness comes, and it comes from nothing, which is so beautiful and powerful. Like I said in many other topic, I don't think enlightenment is just a on/off switch button, there is a "learning curve", and right now I can sense that very much. The colors seems brighter and brighter everyday, the shapes more precise and more beautiful, when I talk I start to sense that I don't really talk, I'm just something that is aware of the talk taking place. When I look at one person or an object in particular , they seem to be the center of the universe if I focus on them, it's hard to describe, but they are the only thing that really exist in that moment. Also, time seems to be slower, and I have this weird sensation that everything is unfolding as it should, that everything will be ok as long as I am conscious in that moment. There is no judgment towards anything most of the time, it's rare that I judge, it usually happen way after I become conscious of the corresponding subject. All of that, happened gradually, and I think it is already englightenment, just not the one mindblowing stage everyone is looking for, which is when you identify with everything. This stage will come when it will come, there is no rush, even though I admit it will be fucking cool, and ultimately what I strive for. The second you become conscious and see your thoughts on a another perspective, it is already it. Don't overlook the entry point, otherwise how would you experience the advanced stage of it ? Sure, there are people who instantly go from inconsciousness to full enlightenment, but when you look at their story, it is because they suffered so much and were so much in pain, that they had to, otherwise they would have killed themself. The others, are either people that were on the path for a long time (some of them without knowing it), or people who go hardcore on the path at some point, there is no randomness in that ... Don't listen to people who tells you that it is random, it's not random, you just can't predict when the big mindblowing shift will occur, but you can be present and conscious right now, an it is the cultivation of this presence in any given circumstance, in all situations of the day, that will make everything else unfold. IT IS NOT RANDOM ! If you understand this, if you truly do, now you just need to live it more and more, untill there is no distinction between this new "you" and "other" experiences. @Barna Thank you This one made me cry for "reasons" This channel is quite good actually, lots of good cry https://www.youtube.com/user/tradgedyandhope/videos

Workout Meditation Breakfast Work Lunch/dinner (depending on my shift) Dog walk Nature/reality admiration (can last hours) Concentration exercice Self enquiry Music Funnyness exercice Browsing the web/actualized.org Reading Sleep The week end I socialize and do hours of sitted meditation, and spend all the rest of the time admiring nature/reality. Life is amazing :3

Self-inquiry in a nutshell ...

Feel the emptiness inside ...

Just realized something very obvious. There is nothing inside you unless an experience happens in your body. Even then, it's an experience happening in something else, the experience can't be this something else. Interesting ... @zazed I'm a ghost ... This is cool actually @zazed Oh men, I have no idea what I am, I'm completely lost. This week-end will be interesting, only self-inquiry, meditation and observation in silence of nature/society :3 I need to know ...

You need to do both. Forgive your past self, be compassionate for the pain he endured, realize that it happened because you he couldn't do better, and acknowledge that was is done is done. Be thankful that all what happened to you (or what you did), all the things that needed to happen, in that exact order ... If it didn't, you may never find out about spirituality, you may never had the opportunity to truly heal yourself like you are doing now, be thankful to that. To stop the identification, you just need time, I really don't think you can force that. Don't try to force it, you can't, it will happen gradually

What are you talking about ! Just take some 5-DMT ! SEE HOW EASY IT IS ? ALL DONE !

Ahah, I meditated all the afternoon, and at the end of it, I was like: "I'm ready my dude, I will surrender, see, I want to surrender, so come ! Will you come or not, what the fuck are you waiting for, I'M READY ! JUST FUCKING COME YOU PIECE OF SHIT, FUCKING PUSSY COME TO FIGHT !!!" Couldn't stop laughing, because I was basically talking to myself EDIT: Also, I was looking at my hand, and it started to get really white and started to vibrated, but that is probably my eyes getting tired of watching ? @LetTheNewDayBegin What is there to prepare ? How can you prepare this while still being in the egotic paradigm ? @zazed Well I know these answers, now, do I really know them or is it still concept in my mind, I can't really say.

Why do you want it so fast is the real question, seems like you use this as an escape and denial from your life, which is totally the opposite of how you will "attain" it ...

Most likely, that's what's gonna happen, that's all it means. In any case, you prefer to be ready for these eventualities rather than thinking it will be a piece of cake. I never said in my post that I'm Jesus Christ, and that everything I say is the truth, and the only truth. It's just my opinion, which could be totally wrong of course. @Sevi There is a thing called "humor"

Yeah, just learn everything that is to learn, to have the knowledge in the back of your mind, But every girls will be different, you also have preferences, and not two situations will be the same. Your intuition can't really fuck you up, it's infinite intelligence, it knows exactly what you have to do if you listen attentively.

You have to: Accept being the weirdo. Accept being an outcast. Accept being alone (if necessary). Accept pain. Accept that you're addicted to stimulation. Accept that it could takes years of suffering and struggle to get out of it. Good luck, and have fun ! No seriously, good luck, this is heavy shit, getting out of this western culture is just so damn hard and counter-intuitive.

You're quite fucked my dude.

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