MarkusR

The studio is fully functional. Still going to school & completing courses. Currently creating a collective of artists here in Finland to take over the industry. More focused than ever at making music & creating projects. Consistently working on production, and trying to understand how to vocal mastery, and especially rap. I'm decent but I know there are higher levels to this, and feel as though I'm lacking, while my production is starting to get on par.

LOG 7: Starting to see the results of the things Ive posted online. Slowly gaining fans on sound cloud, people listening to my music regularly. Also having producers messaging me and people reaching out for me to perform. Seeing opportunities pop up from things that Ive posted and made in the past. This is that first confirmation that what I am doing does breed results, and that the work I create now is what will open up the doors to all future possibilities and expansions. Gaining my first sense of recognition for my work, which only motivates me more. My ears are still in the process of healing, but I feel like through not working on music Ive only become better at it, through my sensitivity and understanding expand with my subconscious.

Personally I really find a lot of value in Bentinhos teachings. A large portion of them are freely available. I wouldn't mind spending money on a luxury retreat also if I was in a position to do so. I think most of the people handing accusations seem to be being overly dramatic, and not stating any clear instances of what he has actually done. I think it's pretty clear. He is a young and dedicated spiritual teacher with somewhat "immature values" like a luxurious lifestyle and wanting to enjoy multiple relationships with beautiful women. But in the end that is natural, we all have those desires, I don't necessarily like demonising someone for having that.

@catcat69123 This

Good luck man. I don't think its a good idea to suppress natural desires though.

1. Push yourself massively to grow (You know what you need to do: Do it) 2. When you face emotional backlash and pain do not run away from it. Cut out all forms of dopamine/ pleasure distractions. Sit with it, sit through it and continue to doing what you need to be doing as best as you can. 3. Within your mind, start applying new mindsets. Reprogram your mind, through new thoughts and beliefs. Allow thoughts that make you feel good about yourself and life to flourish. Keep nourishing these thoughts throughout the day. 4. In time the emotions will subside. This is ample time to rinse and repeat the steps. As in aim even higher this time. Be ready for the backlash. I feel like this is simply a reality we will need to learn to live with. One of those challenges that cant be escaped. Its all apart of the level your at. The only way to move up is to move through these emotions caused by deep inner beliefs. Good luck everyone!

This is a very important topic. Ive noticed this everytime. Usually the emotional backlash is always equivelant to the level of growth you are trying to attain. So the harder you try push the heavier this backlash is. Its revealing your inner negative beliefs. I really dont know the answer to this either. Whats the best way? Because it can become debilitating. But you cant let it stop you from action. And at the same time we do want massive growth, which takes massive action. Anyone wanna chime in with possible solutions?

LOG 6: Back on the grind. So I'm going to start balancing these posts with my current mind state and overview of my life, as well as concrete steps Im taking and results that I feel on my growth. Life is the ultimate training ground to becoming stronger. Im using all the tools in my disposal to basically increase my strength, power and agency over my life. One of the main components of this is taking the passion that I love, music, and pouring hours of focused training so that my abilities become undeniable and Im able to make a living of what I love. Right now is that training stage. Im 22, and I want to drop a critically acclaimed album by 25. These 3 years I want to grow my self mentally, spiritually and physically to the point that Im ready to skyrocket. So far some of my key focuses have been optimising health. A big goal is to have perfect health, and to even surpass that and have a powerful, agile and capable body. Another key focus I'll bring back now is consistent practice on music. Since Im still working through the ear fatigue i'll be focusing on songwriting as the key aspect. Song writing and acoustic guitar. Right now 3 * 45 minutes. And I'll bring that practice up if it feels like I should and I can. Another evolution. No distractions. Cut out any entertainment until 18 o clock. Before then I just want to focus on ways I can expand my skills, and work on my way toward my goal. If it feels like I have too much time in between I'll just increase the amount that I practice. ------ Overview: - 2x40 minute sessions of meditation a day -3x45 minute practice of music (acoustic guitar and songwriting) - 50 minutes of physical training every day. Physitheraputic steps included.

@Human Mint I also played the drums for a while. Definitely picking that back up when I get the chance. Never learned to read sheet music though, but that practice sounds effective as fuck. I'd say also film yourself playing extremely simple patterns and try to really get in the pocket. Thats more of a feeling exercise, but the simplest patterns can sound amazing when your timing is on point.

Great Post. Hit the nail in the head. Although I am not able to now, I had a consistent 90 minute instrument practice for a long time (atleast 1 month straight). Twice a day 35 minutes of meditation practice. Consistent mental practice of maintaining high degree of confidence. (This is just something I keep in mind consistently.)

@Preety_India Haha ty

My style is always to underplay the sex. I never bring it up blatantly. I just subtly seduce her and give hints but in the end I make her wait. Often girls will feel so comfortable around me they just want to sleep in my bed with me. At that point even then im non-chalant, and shes already in her underwear. I love building up the sexual tension like this. Then as the tension rises, I start making moves, caressing her body, moving her closer etc etc. Subtle things like that. Then kiss her on the neck when u want to make her wet. Feel like im giving away trade secrets. But I wouldn't keep doing this if she doesnt let up. If a girl is turned on it'll happen in the first 20 mins, if you wait too long to escelate or you stay in one phase for too long it'll become dry.

LOG 5: Ears slowly starting to heal, definitely feeling an improvement. Complete break from any and all music. Pure silence I've realised so much. My life gained so much space ever since I quit music. Probably coupled with the meditation is the reason I feel so much more clarity overall. Im at peace with not needing to make music. I feel in a sense free. Still I have a deep urge to create, but I feel like Im actually getting better by doing nothing. Im more in touch with myself and life. I know when I go back and touch music again, I'll have the sensitivity and wisdom to bring out what I want from it. This space has been a blessing. I am also dealing with some joint pain in my knees, so for this reason I have not gone into serious physical activities, like lifting or a martial arts gym. For the moment I focus on going to work, consistent meditation, finding ways to enjoy life with no music, and building on certain project unrelated to music. A bit of programming and a bit of visual design for ex. Nothing too major. I know for a fact that my ears will heal. And I know for a fact Im going to make it as an artist. I'll give all other elements their required space to fall into place.

For healing to take place you must abstain completely from the activity, thought, or action which created the wound in the first place. Any action which causes the wound to flair up, feel pain or open up again must be completely halted. This is required for the healing of both mental and physical wounds. Over time your wound will recover, harden and go through a natural process which will take its own certain required time. Patience and discipline is required for this. But once the wound has gone through the cycle of healing, that aspect of your body or mind will be stronger than ever, and more anti-fragile. Just wanted to share this. For anyone experiencing any type of wounds, be it physical or mental.

@Etherial Cat Mic drop ?. Im for sure on your side. I'll say it again, the more effort I put into turning her on, satisfying her needs. The more submissive she becomes and willing to do pretty much anything; and therefore the sex becomes amazing. If I treat the sex like a porn, which most of the time is just the guy doing nothing and the girl just automatically starts sucking his dick, it never works out as well. You really cant expect her to do a lot without you taking the lead. Your the one doing the fucking, its simply the sexual dynamic between men and women.