Beans

My twin sister has bad postpartum right now. I called her up to check on her and I asked her what’s wrong. Almost immediately she began tearing up. Which made me want to cry. Healing twin powers 🤍

This was my attempt of playful teasing

Good morning everyone Yimpa’s breathe stinks right now

Why say anything if nothing I say matters

Yay first time taking cannabis with mom, and Anna 🥳

I had wrote something just to delete it sometimes things feel too intimate to share

Feeling weird I’ve been feeling weird for a minute Whose spiritual presence am I feeling?

“when i found out not every woman felt repulsed and nauseous towards a naked man and only found a womans body to be attractive..” - random chatter I kind of feel indifferent to both bodies I won’t lie. I think women are beautiful, and even men to be beautiful. However when it comes to intimacy. It disturbs me. I can’t help, but think “ew.” Though another part of my brain feels conditioned to a certain perfective. As a woman or growing up fem presenting. You’re given this perspective that you must procreate, you must serve the man, you must be obedient, you must be pretty, but most importantly you must be kind. You must enjoy sex. When the reality is I don’t think I do, but I’ve been conditioned by mainstream society to participate in this animalistic behavior. That somehow as a woman the spot between your legs is the most important part. it’s not to say my attraction for others disappear, but what really disgusts me. Is the behavior towards intimacy has been corrupted in my eyes. People do not value love, people do not value each other, people do not value slow burning passion, people do not listen to each other. Instead in mainstream society there’s this huge over sexualizing. In almost virtually everything. Yes I think empowerment is great. I love that. I think feeling confident and comfortable in your body is great. As I become older, I become less and less interested in superficial things.

Happy holidays! Happy holidays! while the merry bells keep ringing Happy Holidays to you!! 👋🥳🎄🎁

I think this year has really gave me a new perspective. on my disabilities. Not in a negative sense, but more of just finally acknowledging “you actually do have autism, you actually do suffer from ptsd, you actually do suffer from depression, you actually do suffer from anxiety” because in my culture which is a Mexican culture. A lot of the times they don’t believe in mental illness. They’ll tell you “it’s all in your head” or “those are demons and you need to just pray it away” and if you’re slower to learning they’ll belittle you and call you stupid. When in reality you’re just a child with autism who needed patience. I’ve always loved school, I always enjoyed learning. It only became a problem when I started feeling school was no longer a safe place. Accepting my brain for what it truly is has been a journey in of itself.

^-^ it’s nice. And I always have a good time hanging out with everyone. Even though I’m shy. I’m glad they accept me. In the beginning I was so quiet and use to follow joy around everywhere, but now I’m getting more use to communicating openly. They make me feel safe and loved for sure. Grateful to be apart of the family.

True story. lmfao Yimpa will fart and try trapping me underneath the blankets then we’re just wrestling each other

Beans: serious question if you had to pick just one person to save who would it be me or Leo ?