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I’m so grateful for this new journey we’re taking

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OHHH MY GOOODD!! YIMPA’S JOURNAL!!! OMMG IM SO SO EXCITED FOR YOU!! CONGRATULATIONS ❤️🥰💯

Let’s just focus on ourselves and not this relationship let’s focus on healing and following our individual truth

Do you mean terminated relationship towards our therapist or us?? Are we not having any labels as of now?? hhhhhh joy you’re moving so fast

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Ahh I see thank you for clarifying.

Of course. I know we’re doing it separately and not together. Sorry perhaps I should be more specific whenever I say things.

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As Trump shuts down the suicide hotline, Canada has broadcasted their national hotline which now has a toll-free American version: 1-877-330-6366

I've never been so confused in my entire life. I don't want to make the wrong choice. I don't want to go through the same thing I just went through again. Am I being foolish to believe what is being told to me? At the end of the day. Only I can save myself. I want to stand firm on my boundaries this time. And not up put with I did originally. Will it work-out? God who fucking knows. My heart is so stubborn. It's frustrating. It's confusing. There's talks about us doing EMDR therapy which is a trauma based treatment. And I've been seeing good reviews from others on it. I'm scared, but I will take this leap of faith. Of course with caution.

But what does that mean joy. Is this you saying you don’t want a relationship? is this you saying all you want to focus is on God? I don’t understand and it’s just confusing me even further

I don’t think it’s a delusion. To save others or to love others.

This reminds me of when we met the kids who were using the pool. And how you were upset about how they’d jump over the fence, but then I told you “I’d rather these kids be here playing and having fun than them out on the streets doing something illegal or dangerous” Internalized racism is difficult to understand or uncover hidden biases. one by one we must dismantle them. Slowly but surely.

I think both is true. it is 100% essential to look at both angels and the bigger picture. You would’ve never found freedom from your pain if you didn’t experience this