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The more I live on this planet the more I realize that society is toxic, most of the people are unconscious robots and living around them adds significant spiritual challenges. Unconsciousness takes you ever and you behave like a robot as well, moreover, you truly believe that it is normal. Anyways, I'm very ambivalent about my desire to quite society when I am 40 (I'm always 30). I am not talking about living in the woods with bears and wolfs but rather in a small village with just a few people (but not too far from a big city). This desire comes from my god self that wants to realize itself. On the other hand I am very much afraid of doing so. I've developed so many identities and now it seem terrifying to me to leave all of it and go for God. Although, I am very doubtful I could deep God-realizations just by doing it but it will definitely bring me more piece of mind (although there will be more problems anyways). Question for you is this: do you think God is afraid of loneliness? Does God have a need for other?

It’s been almost 3 years since my first full God-realization. I had experienced multiple God-realization but all of them were kinda unclear and uncertain. The night I vaped 40 mg of 5MeO-DMT I woke up to the fact that I was dreaming up the universe, all objects and all beings and creatures in it. It was rather a terrifying and unbelievable experience. I had a panic attack thinking I could never dream the dream again. I was afraid I could never fool myself again and I was very fucking conscious of the fact I was trying to fool myself which was bringing even more fear. I swore off spirituality and psychedelics. Of course, at some point (I don't want to use the word time because I was outside of time and space and outside of notion of being inside or outside) I came "back". The next day when I woke up I was just walking thinking I had some sort of a psychosis or a delusional experience so I decided to prove myself wrong by doing 5MeO again. Unfortunately, the results were the same. Over and over again and again. The more I tried to disprove the fact that I am the actual fucking God the more evident it was becoming. After getting the same results on 5MeO-DMT I decided to go and try mushrooms and LSD but I was getting the 5MeO results. Basically, every time I would do psychedelics, I would become aware of the fact that I am the only conscious thing in the universe and I am the source of the universe and the universe itself. I would walk down the streets seeing others as myself in the form of other. The other me wasn't the source of me but I was the source of it in its form (I hope you understand what I am saying). I would walk through patios where people were eating food and enjoying themselves seeing myself the way I see myself in the mirror in a regular state of consciousness but in this case the image of me were the people, the patio and the entire scene where experience was happening. I could see myself beyond all the otherness that was appearing to me through different forms. So, I have 2 questions to you: 1. Were my experiences legit or delusional and how can I know what Is a legit and what is a delusional experience? 2. Can I as God lose my ability to fool myself permanently without wanting to do so?

What was the last time you took a psychedelic? Do you think your base level of consciousness goes down without psychedelics? I'm curious to know

Why? I think you should be more open-minded about it. What if mixing some psychedelics could reveal a new aspect of God or a new understanding? Although, steaks are higher.

What happens if you eat a half of one and a half of the other at the same time?

Can you give more details on how it happened exactly? How did you approach her, what she said etc. It's hard for me to imagine a girl that could be as mean as you are talking about.

Don't generalize and demonize women. There are some women like this but most of them do not feed of rejections. Go approach women and verify it for yourself.

Don't worry my friend. You are not alone in this! When I was a virgin I had exactly the same thoughts. In fact, all my friends lost virginity before I did (I lost it at the age of 20). Before that I thought I would die a virgin and this thought would hunt me down almost every day. If you really struggle I recommend you go and find yourself a good hooker. I've been to plenty of hookers myself Bro I recommend you fly to Amsterdam or Berlin (alone or with a buddy). These cities offer a lot of sex opportunities. Also of course do approach girls and socialize but don't relay on it right now. The results won't come too fast

Girl you made my day 😆

You're funny

You've just proved my point

Me too. North American artificial, slavic close-minded, asian too traditional, arabic ideological.

Without any idea what I'm talking about

The path is non-dual. There is no feminine or masculine path because God is both.

Bro I’m dying