Pre-Modernism is simply Rigidified Stage Blue Conventionalism
And of course, we get Modernism as Orange's original subversion. 
So naturally Post-Modernism is seen through Green's Deconstruction.
Then Post-Post-Modernism is Construct-Aware Reconstruction of Yellow.
Post-Post-Post-Modernist Construct-Holistic Restructuring means Turquoise.
And so then Post-Post-Post-Post-Modernist Construct-Embodiment creates Coral.
And Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Modernist Construct-Divergence emerges in Iridescent.
Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Modernism isn't named yet but it's a kind of Construct-Novelty.
Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Modernism would create a wholly new Construct-Metamorphisis.
And whatever the hell Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Post-Modernism means Stage 3 Spiral Metanics!

Ayahuasca is a great way to dive deep into the shadows. Although some people drink it and enter in state of "only love" and "only light" . Very soon if the person keep going deep he or she will be confronted with their devils hidden in the caves of their unconscious. By devils I mean all the behaviors,beliefs and projections that one use to point out to others and dont want to recongize that he or she have inside himself like greed,lust,pervesion,hate,prejudices,boredoom and much more. Also will help to see the inner child, the inner femenine or masculine and all the stuff talked about by Carl Jung. Of course if the person dont want or is not open to explore this aspects,no medicine or any other work will be suficient. Belive that the game of denial can even be played inside Ayahuasca circles. And of course in the middle of some works one can touch some points that goes beyond therapy. Points like realizing you are creating all as a dream, since Ayahuasca is drank at night and leads one to enter awake in the dreamland. So sometimes I get myself Lucid dreaming realizing the boundaries of wake life and dream life are constructs.
But back to Shadow. Yes, it is a way to go. I also opened a Thread Called ShadowWork somewhere here.

The max donation I take is $100.
This is by design. Egos think they are doing good by donating more but actually they are just being egos and I am not gonna feed that kind of behavior.
I don't want your bribes, do the fucking work

So, I got myself involved in 5-MeO-DMT. But before I start this post, I'd like to point out that if you wanna know a little bit about my psychedelic background and another fun trip report, you might wanna read my report on shrooms first - if you haven't. There I describe my background with this etc. You can find it here.
+++ Research, Planning And a Fun Experiment +++
So, how did it all start? Let's go back in time. Roughly two months ago when Leo released his mushroom videos I wrote with him here on the forum about my experiences with psychedelics, told him about one bad trip that I had and so on. In this conversation he said I should checkout 5-MeO-DMT and that nothing really compares to that.
I gotta say I was kind of skeptical at first. I had done regular n,n-DMT and thought that this would be as "high as it gets". Little did I know. So I did some research over the weeks into MeO, asked some friends who had done it and read a lot. After a few weeks I forgot about it mostly because I had exams to learn for and interesting projects at work.
Then Leo released his video about becoming God. I still remember how I listened to that in the morning while eating breakfast and I'm like: "This can only be MeO." So I waited a week until he made his video about it. So I thought, I better get involved in this. This sounds transformational and scary and I'm up for super-charging my progress. I did some more research and got me 250mg of 5-MeO-DMT, lab-tested with a minimum of 98% purity in HCL form. Don't ask me where I got it, if you can't do the research, don't do it. Onions might have been involved in this process, one rumors.
So, I basically set up an experiment that I was going to undertake. The question I want to solve is: "Can a habitual use of 5-MeO-DMT used 1-2 a month raise my awareness permanently if used for 6-12 months?" This is the question I wanna investigate with this. To do that, I will do the tripping and document what happens with me. I plan to release I'd say at least 1 post per month here on the forum on my experiences - but more importantly on the development that happens in me. This is why I do this. I am actually thinking about making this in a video form (me telling this to you instead of writing). I might do that if the changes that occur are as deep as I expect them to be so that the cost of exposure and the investment in time and effort will be worth it. We'll see. If you like this whole experiment, like the posts and comment, ask questions and so on, so that I see that you guys are interested. If not, I'll document this just privately for me or later purposes.
So, I got all this down and last Thursday, the 6th of October was the day it should all begin. So let's jump right into it.
+++ The First Two Dosages: Light and Medium +++
How do you prepare to die? That's the question I asked myself before I did the first trip. And you really can't. You can just try to be at peace with whatever happens as much as you can be. This is rather difficult, because your mind can simply not come up with any framework that brings it at peace with non-existence. You have to let that go. I was pretty scared and nervous before the first trip, to be honest with you. I did all the stuff I had to do on that day, so that I had time to prepare, to do and integrate the first experiences with this beast of a drug.
Before I started, I laid on my bed, closed my eyes and went deep inside. I talked to my unconscious and asked it whether it really wants to do this kind of experience and whether I could accept to die into it, so that it could become everything. I listened to my intuition that was in for it. That calmed me down a lot and was the basis for the surrendering I had to do here. I would've quit the whole thing if something in me would've not wanted this authentically.
The following is a sum-up of three light-to-medium trips I took on Thursday and Saturday. They are based on 1x 15mg and 2x 20mg of MeO and had similar effects.
I weighted the dosage on my scale, made two halves out of it, turned on my tripping music very quietly and snorted the powder in with a third of a straw. You basically wanna sniff it in with the least energy to get it inside, so that it stays in the nostrils. Then you hold a finger on the nostril opening, do the other nostril, cover that and sit down on your couch / bed.
I sat down on my bed, tilted my head upside down and massaged the MeO into my nostrils. It burns a little bit but not very much in my experience. After 3-5 minutes my reality would get wanky and I would lie down on my bed very openly. I tried to focus on my breathing that got slower and slower while my pulse would be shooting through the top. And I mean through the the motherfucking top. You have not experienced this kind of pulse ever before in your life (if you weren't confronted with a death-like situation). I knew this would be coming, but man. You begin to worry a little bit if you can even physically take this. Then my bodily tensions and pressures slowly vanished, I closed my eyes and all I could feel is my pulse, a feeling of terror in my abdomen and a very slow breath. I mainly focused on keeping my breath going because it felt like it would stop any second if don't consciously breathe. (This is a known feature of the MeO-experience that it feels like your breath stops, however it doesn't. One does not have to be afraid of this. However, if you feel this the first time it is very heavy to say the least. Me whole body gave me signals that I'm going to die right now and it felt like I was on the edge for a good twenty minutes.
So what did I do? How do you face such a situation? With eyes closed I just tried to get in contact with this force that birthed me into life and that makes and shapes me every moment. I actually kinda got hold of this and it felt very much like home and that I could just surrender into it. I was on the verge of psychological death. I totally gave in. In these 20 minutes it felt like I purged 10 years of emotional baggage. Every fear and every fight that I ever had with myself just vanished and disappeared as I faced my own death here. It is - to say the least - transformational and scary.
After 30 minutes the terror kind of went away, I opened my eyes and was just bathed in this clearness. I laid on my bed for I don't know how long and was just there. No thoughts, no interpretation, no worries, no hopes, no fears. Just stillness and clearness. It was sick, I gotta say. After it, a lot of the heightened awareness actually stayed and is still present. It cut out in the last couple of days a lot of unnecessary thoughts. My meditation practice feels super-charged and my unwanted desires mostly went away. I'm not in a meditative state, but just really grounded and authentic. I don't resist myself anymore - at least in the last few days - and every kind of conflict or negative association just melts because of what happened there. Like, you don't have to do anything to stay grounded and aware, you just are because even if a earthly worry would come up it just is not equipped to hypnotize you anymore, because you have faced your own death. And nothing is greater then that.
You faced your personal ever-nearing apocalypse - and nothing else compares. That's it. But that should just be the beginning.
+++ The strong semi-breakthrough dosage +++
For Saturday evening I had planned the last initial dosage. 30mg. Boy, I wouldn't have dreamed in my wildest dreams that 10 godly milligrams could do such a difference. I had expected that I would go from near-death to a kind of void and that this is it. Yeah, think again.
So I followed up on the normal procedure I described above, sat down on the bed massaging my nostrils. 3 minutes in the reality would get wanky again. So I laid down on my bed and expected the upcome to take at least a few more minutes. I don't know how long it actually took but I suspect 5-10 seconds when I laid down and opened up I was just gone. My mind just started collapsing in on itself. Indescribable. Pulse through the top, breath on the verge of being existent, bodily tensions and feelings not there unless a big, mother... god-fucking big existential terror in my abdomen. It felt like my whole nervous system collapsed in on itself, my mind tried to wrap its head around it and just every frame of reference vanished.
You don't even remotely suspect how deep your ego shapes your perception. Every experience you have, everything you take in and make sense out of is combined with your web of beliefs. Even the most little thing like taking a breath is carrying years and years of your ego in it. Every little cell in your body. And now imagine all of this goes down to zero, nada, nothing. Just collapses in on yourself. It is by far the deepest kind of transformation you could ever experience. You are just blown away and every tool that your mind uses to come up with a calming solution of "you can handle that in a certain way" just isn't there. You're basically going insane while you are dying while it feels like every two seconds you are flushed with the doubled amount of awareness you just had. Very, very intense experience, guys. Very intense.
This is such an physical experience that I actually thought I gotta vomit. It felt like my body would explode and implode every few moments. So I ran to the toilet, put a finger in my throat and tried to vomit. Nothing happened. And I'm like: "What the fuck?" I never in my life was so certain that I gotta vomit and I never put my finger so deep into my throat to get me to do this. But I just didn't.
So I laid back down in my bed for about 10 seconds and then got up because I thought I gotta vomit again. Didn't happen. The second time hanging over the toilet I realized that I'm completely transforming right now and that this is probably the cause of me thinking I gotta vomit. This was one of the only thoughts I had in these moments. Dear, dear thought. I was happy that you were around, buddy. At least a little calm.
So I got back to my bed, laid down again, opened up, massaged my navel a little bit (which a friend of mine - a Qigong practitioner - recommended to me to get my awareness from my head into my abdomen which calms you down) and closed my eyes. In that moment all tensions, the existential terror and the complete shock I was in just exploded in this ever-still moment that expanded in all directions while not moving at all. I was that for a brief time and then were birthed again into my ego, were ripped out of again and then were the stillness again. This occurred for some time.
God is a beast, man. A fucking beast.
After having this for some time I managed to surrender into this birthing and dying every few moments and flowed with it for a few moments. It was the most majestic, horrifying, loving, still and moving I don't know what to call it that I have ever seen. Completely impossible. In the process I actually thought I died because there was no indication left that I was alive. Having done that it birthed and destroyed me for some more time, like 10 minutes and I opened my eyes and surrendered to the process. I merged with everything I could see, I was the room, the thing itself and the viewer of it. I was still being pumped with tremendous amounts of awareness every few seconds. Fuck me man, this is nuts I thought.
By looking at the things in my room they changed their boundaries like every few seconds. Like the shelve and the wall would now be one thing, then everything would blur out and then they formed a different object again. No hallucinations, but just every kind of way you could perceive an object in like 30 seconds. I didn't even try to understand this.
After 45 minutes I slowly came out and by that time didn't even care anymore whether I was breathing, my pulse was going through the top or whatever just happened. I was completely wiped clean, bathing in this stillness and nothingness and slowly saw how my ego began to put my world together again.
After that I smoked a cigarette and took a walk. My head was surprisingly still and cool with what just happened and was happy to have even greater amounts of awareness and stillness, no bad thoughts coming up, feeling very authentic. I asked myself whether I wanna do this again for 6-12 months on a bi-weekly basis and my intuition was still in for it.
Why do I call this a semi-breakthrough and not a genuine breakthrough? I think that if I do this a couple of times and increase the dosage 3-5mg I would be leaving most of the terror behind and bath more consistently in the absolute. I was kind of going in and out here the whole time which was kind of crazy. So we'll see next time.
+++ The Aftermath +++
So, I guess you read all of this and just think: "What the fuck, how could anyone ever do something like that to himself?" Let me tell you why. In this moment of complete shock, terror and then dissolving into the absolute you are shown your own birth and death. You actually see how you die every few moments and then are born again a moment later. You see how you are this collection of thoughts, perceptions and emotions and how they spontaneously arise out of an infinite pool of possibilities. 
I'd guess that if you do that for a few times you can surrender so deeply into it that most of the terror dissolves and you just die into the beauty and majesty of it. Of your own divine nature. I also guess from the aftermath that I experience right now that your own mind has to rebuild itself in a higher order after these experiences because it has no framework to handle it with your limited view.
Besides that, I guess that this will lead to the most mature emotionality a human being can have because you learn to accept dying here. That means that over some time nothing really can bug you anymore, because you have experienced and surrendered to your death and have seen beyond it. This I would conclude can lead to tremendous psychological changes that could cause an permanent awakening because nothing else can really handle such an experience. No framework of a normal sleeping mind can do that.
Also, the feeling and awareness you get after these experiences are amazing. It feels like being reborn again, clean. It feels like I have done 3 years of daily meditation in 45 minutes, 3 years of talking and fighting and adjusting myself. It is that powerful. I think that it just gets more powerful the more you do it, although it is scary and horrifying to a degree. But you also see that there is really nothing that can really destroy you. And that itself is transforming.
So yeah, that's my take on the first experiences. If you are interested in me posting more of this and documenting my journey here on the forum, like this, comment and let me now. I'll go through that and see where I end up. I think it's gonna be a good place. The last few days were the most exciting, refreshing and calm days I had in my entire life.
Cheers to 5-MeO-DMT,
Azrael

I just did this test and learnt a whole lot about myself!
https://www.idrlabs.com/personality-style/test.php
I understood many of my neurosis and I was able to put name to my obscure psychological traits. I discovered my compulsive side (71%) and my narcissist side (50%) and how they have played in my favour and in my detriment throughout my life. The point of the test is to be humbled and also honest with oneself, so that Personal Development and real healing can happen.
I invite you to discover your dark side! if you dare...
 
It would be nice if we all share our results with the Actualized.org community so that we can link resources for targetting the specific issues we are all facing.

@AION Well, instead of doing step A, why not skip straight to B, or C at this point? D,E,F? Y,Z? Ω
Instead of chasing random girls for random girl's sake, how about you build yourself up?
Instead of building yourself up like every fool, how about you do self-actualization instead?
Instead of the self-actualization trap, how about you go straight for a spiritual journey?
Instead of these all too ubiquitous spiritual paths, how about you follow your authentic passions?
Instead of following this "authentic passion"-paradigm, which is lost in identity, how about you...
And so, why bother slaying the dragons, when you can drink the blood of the gods and rule the...
And why again did you like this girl, when she dumped you like that, clearly Lovecraft did not...
At this point, you must realize your own love loops around, never having come from the girl...
And so you reached your psychic singularity which brought you back to this earthly realm
Guess you really have to heal that part and sit with yourself until reconsidered... 

Adjust your expectations or tune your selection. People vary, and getting too attached too quickly is a problem.
Reciprocation, transparency, authenticity, and long-term relationships are your core values.
Leo mentions the importance of such values. Maybe you should take it easy and explore the waters.
Before going into the deep sea to fish without any supplies or guarantee that there's something out there and you won't starve.

I'm gonna start:
Interstellar (for expanding your mind and realm of possibilities) Unbroken (for persevering in the toughest times) The Theory of Everything (Love) The Imitation Game (learning about how the computer came to be) The Intouchables (how social status and any other superficial things mean nothing in your interaction with other human beings) V for Vendetta (sacrifice) 8 Mile (crawling your way up from point 0) Arrival (expanding your mind) Pumping Iron (inspiration to work towards your vision) Schindler's List (how one can make an impact on 100's of people's lives) The Intern (staying positive and active in old age) Hacksaw Ridge (willingness to make sacrifices for a cause you believe in with all your heart) Gandhi (treating all people like parts of yourself / the futility of violence) These are just a few. Let's hear yours.

In this clip from an interview with Darryl Anka, who has now channeled Bashar (an essassani hybrid ET being) over the last 40 years, he explains some of the aspects involving first contact with ET species from Bashar's point of view:
 
 
The documentary Darryl Anka has made titled: 'First Contact' and referenced at the end of this interview clip can also be viewed on youtube here:

This documentary tells the story of how Darryl became a channel for Bashar and sheds some light on the channeling process, a natural ability of our 'human' consciousness being in resonance with higher dimensional information and translating that inspiration into art, writing, music or verbal expression. It also goes into some of the main spiritual teachings and topics Bashar has shared with humanity about existence, consciousness, god, et civilisations, ufo technology and our part in all that is. The enormous body of detailed information these last 40 years of regular transmissions from Bashar include in depth answers to almost all topics humans have wondered about and are able to imagine questions about to even ask an alien. Highly recommended to explore for anyone who is interested in aligning with alien consciousness.

Another short excerpt from the full transmission titled 'The Protocols of First Contact' in which many steps involved in the process of open contact with other ET civilisations are explained:
The full length video's can be bought through the official Bashar TV session archive: https://bashartv.com/the-protocols-of-first-contact-video-2-hours
An interesting answer to a question about how contact with his civilisation could be experienced:
This fragment illustrates how our mind would react to being in their alien presence:
Their Invitation:
 

@Dan94
Man you gotta follow @Nahm's solid advice, If you are really serious about your life purpose (Being a successful musician) and care about producing quality content until the death of your body. 
From my experience, I can say that there is no shortcut in the long run. I remember practicing guitar blindly for 6 years and making huge momentum. Then all of that crashed and burned in 1 year due to a series of addictions, health issues and depression. Discipline for discipline's sake is the legit way to master your craft and sustain that over a long timeline. In case of your life purpose especially in some very technical field like being a performing musician, there is really no other alternative than solid discipline and practice routine. Cause you know how skipping just a single day of practice disturbs your form.
And about enlightenment, I think being a disciplined musician itself is a solid path towards that higher consciousness. I'm sure you know many virtuoso musicians (In many genres), who have practically surrendered their whole life to their practice and craft. After some good years, they are not really looking for anything particular. Their solid discipline carry their flow state. That goalless, dedicated practice itself consumes their ego, pride over time. Some of these people are extremely grounded and you can almost feel their aura (the way you feel in front of a guru)
After a while, practicing those scale runs, chords and songs get mechanical anyway. Start practicing 24/7 awareness on breathing while you practice to keep it fresh and conscious. NEVER let your daily practice become mechanical even if you are doing it for 50 years. Cause it WILL come back to bite your ass. When you are mechanically doing stuff, all sorts of things go on in your mind (mostly unconsciously) which inevitably depletes your mental and physical energy that leads to low conscious behaviors. Every single day counts!
How about this for a strategy?
1) 8 hours of solid, conscious music practice (after a while this will become your meditation session). Start block time practicing in 30 min/1 hour chunks instead of planning and grabbing all 8 hours by the balls at the same time (It will seriously demotivate you to practice that day) lol.
2) 1 hour meditation. 1 hour breathing techniques + exercise/yoga. 1 hour PD stuff (visualization, affirmation, journaling, reading)
then you got 5 hours still left in day to rest, maintain relationships, do other stuff, enjoy nature, studying more etc. (24/7 mindfulness goes on  ) even if you sleep 8 hours. Make a routine that suits you most at your particular life situation.
Then maybe take 2 vacations every year for psychedelic/solo retreats. Consider trying this out. I think you can discipline yourself easier as you already got solid meditation practice going on.
I know it may sound like a very tough and mechanical lifestyle, but remember a musician's life can be either a very fulfilling one or a very miserable one depending on how you build it. Yeah it will consume all of your personal agendas and low consciousness cycle. Yeah It will consume your whole life. But wouldn't a hardcore lifestyle solely towards full enlightenment and understanding do the same thing? 
Finally, I will attach this link of me playing guitar at almost my peak performance level. Not to brag but to verify that I'm not just throwing 2nd hand knowledge at you. A musician got a HUGE road in front of him. Gotta figure a lot of stuff out and it's very easy to get lost somewhere. That's why staying conscious and strategic in everyday life is the key. All the best!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQs9_M8gc5U
 
 

@Preetom
Thanks Preetom, appreciate your advice a lot. After doing a lot (at least to me, haha) of meditation and being more mindful in general, I have definitely found my self doing a lot of mechanical practise in the past and even to this day. And even better: a lot of low (un)conscious behavior too. I am easily drained these days and I think you are very, very spot on with the mindset towards practise. Consciously articulating that my prime goal for the day was to get through the practise as quickly as possible is a mindset truly doomed to failure. I like your schedule outline but I know for now I will ease my self into it, it will be too much for me. Homeostasis will kick in.