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By this logic, loneliness, separation, and feeling bad are details. So I see no contradiction.

Yes. They actually aren’t as dogmatic as my other family members, which I am grateful for. I’m now helping them open their minds organically just by me being more authentic. All of our growth looks so different, which makes this process so beautiful to explore!

That’s honestly one of the nicest things somebody has told me in a while. I also totally forgot I came up with it. Thank you!! I honestly have no idea.

Yep, me, me! I actually am pretty terrible when it comes to art, but I do like someone who is extremely talented with art, and they think they may be autistic.

You’ll get back to it when the time is ripe. No need to set a deadline or an expectation for when it should be the case. Whatever you’re focusing on currently hopefully is bringing you joy!

Nice one. Always nice to see different parts of yourself for once

@AerisVahnEphelia There is a condition called BDD (Body dysmorphic disorder). I have it to various intensity levels. This is a good example, since I can look at something and see a body part that looks completely wrong or disgusting, whereas someone without BDD would look at it and probably not even notice anything wrong until I pointed it out. And even then, they would not even see it as a big deal. This goes to show that it’s not the body that’s the issue, but how you interpret it.

I’ve personally lived most of my life being told how I should be and what is the right way to live. Oppression. This is what should be realized as miserable and terrifying, yet most see this as something they want to protect. Imagine that! The closer you are to truth, the more freedom and love you will embody. Even the freedom to be in pain and to hate yourself, more consciously. Trust that you are more powerful than you currently believe yourself to be.

@TheWind Fun fact, when I was child, I was part of a totally different forum. I went by the username silverwind1012

It’s good to hear that you’re doing better as well; haven’t seen you in a while.

The sequel should be titled: But Leo!

I’m noticing a circularity here….. it’s as if I was meta observing my own judgement through the lens of my friend. Because prior to this, I actually was judging them prior to them saying it. I’m constantly judging myself in different ways!

I was with a friend and they said something similar in nature about a group of people that we passed by to me. It honestly made my heart sink. I wish I said something about it in that moment, but I was too afraid. I also need to watch my own biases, though. I, too, judge peoples’ appearances still.

Nice. When I was a kid I was obsessed with Dragon Ball Z. The scene with Frieza beating the shit out of Vegeta, then Vegeta explaining to Goku what Frieza did to their home planet… very symbolic. And I enjoyed watching him get tortured. It’s as if something in me as a kid knew I was going through immense suffering and was trying to figure out what pain and conflict meant.

I honestly think sports in general is super gay to begin with. I mean, c’mon. American Football is a bunch of dudes touching each other for hours on end.

I am respectfully resisting the urge to come up with a joke for this.

Yes. Society looks at all this as crazy, but that is society’s bias. Also, nice job for no longer abusing drugs.

That’s sounds like human metrology

Not necessarily. As a human, you cannot comprehend what it would be like to be alien conscious. It’s like asking a human to transform into a donkey on command. If you enjoy identifying and being a human, then I recommend you stick to human stuff for now.

It’s best to be honest that you have judgements and hatred towards certain people, which are of course parts of yourself. Feel the hatred. Allow it. Don’t deny it.

So this whole discussion is part 2 unfolding live.. nice. Let me finish part 1 in the meantime.

Why is there no part 2??

@blackchair Having a fixed story or idea about someone or something is not healthy and will only fuel the cycle of hate.

Yes, when I was very immature. The experience started off blissful, but quickly descended into fear. In hindsight this is because I tried to bring my family into the light I was experiencing. But it’s impossible to bring such close-minded people into such radical states. They will hinder your progress and judge the hell out of you if you continue letting them run your life and distract you. Now that I am more mature I plan to do it again with more grace, openness, and sincerity. I’ll create my own family completely from scratch this time. I am at war with myself.

Stop letting people tell you how you should be. They have no influence over you unless you make them into gods.