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All of Reality is inside God's Heart, it's your very own existence.

The orgasm is in its release, not in becoming aware of the accumulated tension. It's like carrying a backpack for long, once you notice it's heaviness and you know how to leave it behind, then it's an orgasmic relief. That's fine for now. Although you'll continue to experience these symptoms in your trips. If you're not gonna work for them to dissolve, you'll have to become more adept at dealing with it in the moment of the trip and get used to that happening. I feel you. Maybe it's needed to diversify the tools and practices to deal with depression and loneliness. Usually therapy and classic personal development can do it. Psychedelics, spiritual practices and sport can also come in handy. The good thing about psychedelics is that it just needs to go right once for it to be life transforming. So keep having faith for that day brotha

I love it too A good benche with nice atmosphere is like a treasure.

@Hojo Interesting meditation technique, never heard about it, might give it a try. Thanks for sharing your experience

There is nothing in this universe that may be treated with disregard or contempt. He acts His Divine Play in infinite ways, through infinite forms, and in an infinite variety of settings. Without appearing as the many, how can this Play be staged? Do you not see how light and darkness, joy and sorrow, fire and water, are inextricably linked together in one unbroken chain? Remember that spiritual endeavour must be coupled with purity of heart. To the extent that we harbour unkind or narrow thoughts, we increase the cause of evil in the world. What necessity is there to pay attention to what others have or have not? Far better be intent on your own improvement. If you can develop inner beauty, and enshrine God, the ever Beautiful, in the Glorious Temple of your Heart and Consciousness, you will then be able to perceive beauty in everything. - Ma Anandamayi

By understanding that your acceptance of it is irrelevant to its existence. The reality of torture when you're seeing it is first order, right now dozens of people are being tortured. Your reaction towards that is second order. It's like a children crying because it's raining and it doesn't like it. Then it rains twice, one in the weather and the other inside.

That's personal development. And non-identification pertains to the beginnings of emotional work. The final stages look less like denying, non-identifying, depersonalising, disowning and more like self-love, self-acceptance and total self-embracement.

@LoneWonderer could you try any of the video recommendations?

@theleelajoker I resonate with what you share. Yes, I forgot to mention the jaw, lots of tension is stored there as well. Releasing the jaw in psychedelics feels orgasmic. Regarding not going to the spot with vipassana, I just love to go straight to the deepest tension but I've learnt to not overfocus either. You've gotta see the consciousness and emptiness of the core solidity. Then move on till you complete a cycle (what feels like an energetic completion) to go back again to the spot intensely. I really do my best to feel it and dissolve it. Very probably memories and thoughts will come as it's dissolving, let it all go through you without getting caught. That would be my advice. This is a challenging process. I'm happy we are all sharing our bit. I liked the second perspective you shared, I never thought to frame it that way.

On the Blindness of Scientism: I almost fell from my sofa laughing when the dude from the video said this: The cosmic humour here is just hilarious Getting serious, how can you really care about Consciousness and avoid the evidence of dozens of people sending you emails that psychedelics are revelatory to grasp consciousness and you just omit it. How on earth! I did the same process as that dude and when I encountered psychedelics, I just tried them, and there you have it, bombastic shock.

Lmaooo Let's see who are the best Dark Souls players in the world ahahahhaha

Videogame insight: Just imagine how wild gaming will become once we reach 360° fully multisensory Virtual Reality—where sight, sound, touch, taste and smell pull you completely into a Videogame world. Psychedelic Insight: Wait doesn't DMT and Salvia do That?

Honestly what you make about it is second order reality. The sensorial fact of your illness is first order and that is the only thing I can point to. You go about making sense of it.

@LoneWonderer I know how challenging it is. Trust the process. You're not alone. This is a good sign in fact. You're becoming so conscious that your own body and energetic system is becoming the bottleneck for higher consciousness, that's already a crazy level of spiritual development. You can say I've become so conscious that my body couldn't hold it and started upgrading itself!

How come an enlightened man reads the newspaper!

It's a long term process. I'm 100+ trips in and still working through them. This is my understanding: Don't worry because this is normal. What happens? Imagine your body as a fluid system. Now more fluid is introduced in the system and it flows more frenetically. This creates "bottlenecks" that weren't present before. That's what you are feeling in psychedelics. What exactly are bottlenecks? There are many ways to frame it. I sometimes see them as energetic/muscualr/biomemory contractions. Sometimes it may be karma or unresolved mind/body issues that are not consciously resolved and therefore unconsciously stored in the body (for example I had lots of fears in my ass, or insecurity in my stomach area). Now I simply see as the "lower" part of my energetic body, realising that I'm an organism or system that is continually evolving, there are parts of my psyche and self more evolved than others. So that contraction I'm feeling to release and resolve is only so in relation to the evolution of the rest of my body, but that same part, if took years ago, it would be the most evolved. This cleared the fear of how is it possible that after years of this work, I keep encountering "trauma", now I see, it's just the loose end of my system to be evolved, there are always rough edges so to speak. Around 20 trips in I realized I couldn't just be doing this work "in the trips" that I had to find a way to evolve my energetic system everyday. That's when I experimented with many techniques and the ones that correlate more outside and inside trips for this matter are: Kundalini and vipassana. (advanced non-doing meditation also works, but it needs some skills, you have to become conscious that you are clinching that zone and then consciously releasing, like a fist so tight for so long you forgot you were even doing it). So I'll leave you some resources:

"Worldly life is no doubt a battlefield. By becoming conscious of one's spiritual wealth one must strive to emerge triumphant from the battle."

@Carl-Richard We can dissect and explain intelligence in many interesting and nuanced ways. My insight though was in another domain. Regarding how is it possible that someone with all the traits you mentioned and even more, can still be utterly deluded and very very wrong about reality: both in the common sense and in the existential sense. This is a non obvious, non trivial question and that is exactly what my insight revealed. I wouldn't know how to go about properly defining or understanding IQ or Intelligence. It's something still in the contemplative machine.

Dealing with cosmic horror while trying to ace my ant life was the biggest challenge in the beginnings of my spiritual Awakening.

@Ima Freeman There is a correlation between peak consciousness and health, but consciousness still is the medium and essence of pain and suffering. You're conscious of all the disease you describe, in the same way you become conscious of a screen or the Infinite nature of reality. In short, yes to realize God, Peak consciousness and Infinity your consciousness must break all limits and serious health issues may be a serious constraint/bottleneck. To realize the existential nature of Reality which is Consciousness, it health or it's absence, is neither an obstacle nor helpful, because you're always existing, pain is existing, pleasure is existing, no matter the form, sensation or object reality takes, that's it, this is the Ever-present-Beingness Awakening so to speak, it's always on.

That's only a dimension of spirituality. No thoughts and Beingness is quite a basic level of realization, get over it. You're working only in the ever-present nature of Reality. That's fine and good, but once you master that, mystics naturally progress to the peaks of consciousness and Infinity. Sitting there just being, becomes a hindrance after some point, and you've already more than exhausted that point. Go have a new Awakening, you got 2/30 ( I guess you also realised no self)

Yes, it broke my mind. Like putting an insane gear in my mind and accelerating.

I've been contemplating on IQ lately and I've had an interesting insight that cleared lots of confusion for me. IQ is like horsepower in a car. It's the raw brute power a brain is able to exert, so to speak. However, skilful driving is not only determined by the car, but by its driver also. This analogy explains why high IQ individuals may be brilliantly stupid, because they are using all that horsepower for self-deception and getting into dead ends of contemplation. At the same way, it shows how average horsepower can get into truth and high intelligence, as a skilful driver gets safely to its destination. Finally, it shows how the best minds must meet lots of horsepowers with a skilfull driver (mature ego) to actualize the full potential of the Human mind.

This is one is really profound: https://youtu.be/Bs9g9B0O0to?si=ziIHPV9pucKgk2Nb The three videos on postmodernism really cleared baggage from modernist epistemology I had. It's good to think epistemology from scratch as Leo said, this is foundational, yet I have found that even in doing so, there are blind spots that go unnoticed. In this same line, that's why I also recommend the trilogy on deconstructing the myth of science.

Really loved the "c" te contextualization gif. I looked at it for quite some time.