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@Holykael I'm so sorry. We are connected, you suffer, I suffer. I'm part of you, you are part of me. Just hold on a bit longer. I love you.

This is my last comment on one of your posts. Keep spinning your stories.

Why do you give your father so much power over you? You need to heal trauma. Your problem is not that you know too much, it's that you have trauma! Fuck your father.

I hope this is true, and I look forward to realizing that...

@Leo Gura What is the purpose of my suffering? I can't understand it. Will it ultimately lead to complete Awakening? How many more years do I need to suffer and struggle, could I live an entire life of suffering and only wake up at the end? That would be tragic.

I had an interesting insight kind of related to this. I was walking while thinking and scratched my arm on a torn. This led me to realize that when you are conscious, alert, present, nothing can surprise you. It is like you see it coming from a mile away, before it hits you and by the time it hits you you might be already out of the way.

You already said it would be about reprogramming the mind. But I'm confused now because you wrote Mind with the capital M. 1:43:20 1:44:07

Will you try it? Let us know if you do

Now, start looking for birds sitting quietly in trees. You'll see a lot of them.

Do you see thoughts the same way? I've discovered that thoughts are "real things" but the content is just content you know. Reality is appearance, it's all as real as everything else. But some things are shallower than others, that is why I want the total absolute bottom line of everything.

Don't know man. I don't really care for lies.

I see now. Thought is not history, thought is not past. History (Past) is like a deeper thing, that ties everything together. If I think of an elephant NOW, that's shallower somehow.

@Findus Never mind.

@Leo Gura Are you saying that history only exist as a thought right now?

@Squeekytoy Are you @Michael Jackson by any chance?

@Squeekytoy Don't lie. Is this your first account here?

@NoSelfSelf You nailed it

@Yimpa Thanks. I shouldn't hold on to awakenings. What is true is what's actual right now. I'm so stupid sometimes, just to make a fool of myself in public.

What fucks me up is that I have experienced some degree of solipsism. I've seen that the world is literally my Mind. So is like one foot in one foot out of the river.

@Leo Gura Just to be clear. When you say Me, you are saying Me / Myself / I? Do you want me to go Insane?

Staring at anything for too long cause my vision to get blurred after the sitting. Will I damage my eyes if keep this practice?

Let's change the example. Is it possible that I could create terrible situations, that would cause me to suffer a lot, without knowing, while living from a lower state of consciousness where I don't see others as myself? If I was living from a higher state, maybe I could create reality and witness every little detail of the creation in real time, while "living" like a human. Even "terrible situations" could be used for growth, but will I submit myself to extreme suffering?

You know we can buy mushrooms legally in Brazil right? Let's hope Lula keeps it like that

@Jowblob Yeah. It was a stupid question haha But I respect you man.