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@Leo Gura Todd Howard speaking truth for the first time.

When I'm not here as this POV anymore, I'll be everything but will I know that I exist? Will I witness anything transforming? This is such a mind twister

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@Razard86 I've admitted this many times, it's not always clear and there's always a drop of doubt mixed in. How to remove this drop from the mix? Also, please answer directly based on what we talked about, am I getting it or am I totally lost? To be really honest, it feels like my understanding is not complete but it's not totally clueless. But I want to hear a direct answer from YOU

As long as I feel to be separate I will suffer the atrocities of life. Why do you say awakening is not what I need then? All I want is to be at peace with everything and have the honor to accept it all as God's wish.

Yeah, it's obvious isn't it? That it only happens when I witness it, all else is flowing thoughts less dense than what we call reality. And if I keep thinking them and imagining scenarios, I will suffer. Like you said, continuous hurting. I had a dream once where I was talking to someone and he told me a story of a man who killed a woman. It was so clear that all of that was just a story and it didn't happen, only as flimsy thoughts happening in the moment. Then I felt relieved.

I guess whatever I say it is. If I believe it, it'll feel like there's other there. If not, then will not. But I think conditioning made me fall quickly into believing there's other and immediately project that onto morphing forms.

@Razard86 Most of the time I don't answer you back cause I have nothing more to say, but I'm always thankful for you helping out. Am I totally off and lost here or getting it or something...?

@Leo Gura Should I remind myself that an outside world, other people's private consciousnesses / minds are imagined? Because if I stop for a bit and look at direct experience, it's kind of obvious. I still hate to see the suffering of others. And this shit is tricky because I see a form and I add layers of thought on top of it making it seem like the form is suffering as other, like another being is suffering. If I could just see the form feel it and know that there are no other suffering that, this could even be called, Heaven?

If you knew the kind of shit I hear and see happening around me. I don't get angry at God being the monster anymore, but I try my best and can't accept the pain of looking at a dog that has to live his last years miserably because God wants it. Because I want it, somehow not really sure how yet. I just want to melt away, it's too much pain. You can say none else suffers but me, but that entanglement of feeling other suffering, it takes me like a wave and I can't be grounded.

@Razard86 And about physical suffering, the other day I injured my fingernail and it hurts a lot. But it's interesting that when you harm yourself or get harmed, there are many thoughts going on in your mind, thoughts like: what if I lose the nail? What if it permanently fucks the growth process of it? And some flash images of gore / blood / destruction / loss. Those thoughts make the pain 1000x worse than it actually is.

He's right in this particular post. Israelis here need some shock treatment against hypocrisy / double standards.

@Razard86 I agree with that. But also, genuine awakening which completely blows your mind away can happen.

Explain why these guys say things like "I don't care about money", "I don't have hidden agendas" and charge $100 for 30 minutes of their fucking time? https://www.youtube.com/@spiritualrenaissance They all seem like hypocrites taking advantage of people and getting lost in the guru pedestal. Another example is Fred Davis, charging $250 for 1 hour talk.

He said 'equally important'. Which it is, and as import as an ant's life too, but to human selfishness the ant doesn't matter.

@Razard86 And the actuality of this potentiality is God's highest will, so ego can only fear or wish for a certain future out of this infinite potentiality right? From God's point of view, there's a curiosity to experience more and more out of this pool of infinity as finite.

Ah, thanks man!

These (playlist)? I couldn't find anything in his website.

@Jowblob Did you quoted me by accident? I'll watch those videos anyway haha

Do you guys know that saint and mystic David Blaine? He's great at materializing things too.

It reminded me of this

Still I'm deeply hurt to see many parts of God, and I wish one day I can accept it all with appreciation and nobility. Like a child who wants something and cries for it, the father would not give whatever the child wants. Still breaks your heart to see someone not getting what they want.

Thank God I'm finally starting to see that...

Exactly man! I discovered that when I pretended to be dead and suddenly was not breathing anymore.

Yes! All talk and nothing real. Thousands of hours listening to these motherfuckers and nothing has really changed. I still don`t understand what the hell is going on here.