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@LoveandPurpose It's up to you but I wouldn't use the word sprituality. Maybe self realization or something but ppl hear the word spirituality and right away they think religion. Even using the word God you could be saying one thing but they will hear something completely different b-c they already have a fixed idea of what God is. The guy in the sky so to speak. You could do a totally amazing presentation but just be really careful how you approach it or it could fall on deaf ears or even worse.

Plant a garden by starting from seed.

@billiesimon

A total shift in paradigm would stop those shitstorms in their tracks. Something really radically different. A complete departure from the defined self would be needed though. That would require quite a surrendering. Practice this every time you notice the ego acting up. Or anytime. Do it now. Realize it's all a thought story. It's always been a thought story. All you know are thought stories. The shitstorms and everything in between are just mental apparitions. Every thought you ever had was an illusion projected by the ego/mind. Surrender and step past the mind. Trancend it and find what you have always been beyond mind. That of you which does not change and does not come or go. You exist on a level beyond the mind. Go there. Get re-aquainted with that part of you that you've never forgotten. You may experience a feeling of emptiness at first. That's a good thing. The ego/mind is falling away. Let it go.

Everything after the mind. You may be doing some lucid dreaming too during meditation from what you say about the visuals.

Sounds like your still purging out the old to make way for the new.

@nistake If your practice isn't shaking the ego's foundation your not doing it right.

@Aakash No they probally wouldn't understand but I hear what your saying. @Shin Don't take too long now. Just to add a note: What i said about expanding into everything. That's a small picture. It's much, much more. It's expanding into the infinite potential of every possability. Shit that's not even manifest but it's potential exists. So what if it exists in form or not. Does an architect need to build every one of his designs for it to be valid? Now imagine being infinite blueprints.

Can you imagine expanding into everthing as pure awareness? It's gonna be a rush for sure.

@Shin It's all a natural transitional growth. Have you ever heard anyone complain about being dead?

No that was the ocean and the waves thing you heard 100 times before. We're talking Pepsi and bubbles here. Kicking it up a notch! Oh, sorry Leo- that's Coke. Dude, I'm 62 years old and a lot closer to my death then I am to my birth.

Do the bubbles ever have any existance of their own seperate from their source? They appear to come and go but is that an illusion?

@Ingit Anything that resembles your situation. Again- look for yourself only.

@Ingit Are you talking about the floaters? Floaters are specks of dust. C'mon you know this already. It's no different then having food stuck between your teeth. Benign? I'm into astronomy and when I look through the eye piece I can see the floaters because it's at close focus. Often I'll have to look with adverted vision just to get the floater away from the object of observation. Just thought to ask. Anyone else around you like a close family member have what you do? I don't mean the floaters- everybody has them. No need to answer. Just observe for yourself. Lots of times it can be a learned trait. Like if a mother is afraid of lightening often the children are too. I have an aunt that's deathly afraid of lightening and thunder and so are her dogs. They hide in the basement together during thunder storms and the dogs shake from being nervous.

Your talking about the eye floaters your Dr. told you were nothing then said to you: "pay no attention to them and they won't be a problem"?

@Ingit "Get an evaluation by a professional and don't dismiss what they tell you."

@Ingit If you really want to help yourself and break this cycle you are going to have to be totally honest with yourself first. Reading most of your posts not just this one it's most likely you suffer from hypochondriasis. This is a clinical illness and a seriously debilitating one at that. I'm sure none of this is any fun for you to go through. But like I said if you really want to get better and live a satisfying life you'll have to be honest with yourself now and get help. From what I know about it most ppl that suffer from it are in denial and will often refuse help. This too is part of the illness. Get an evaluation by a professional and don't dismiss what they tell you. That would be a great first step to breaking the cycle. Best of luck https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypochondriasis

@PetarKa Leo touts Kriya yoga as being most beneficial in his practice. And sure observation, self inquiry and contemplation can also play important parts along with just sitting in silence. Silence is the language of God.

@TheIndigoKid You expanded. Cool stuff isn't it? And it's just the beginning.

First panic sets in then panic overload then shock. They end up becoming detached in all the wrong ways.

@Aakash Got a warm break in the weather today. Gonna take advantage of that and head out to the woods and disappear for a while.

I've seen the "dis-attachment" literally save ppl's lives too. Once was during a fiery car crash pulling passangers to safety. Another was during a boating trip on a rapid river where the boat flipped. And another was at depth while scuba diving. Chances are if you attach yourself to it your screwed. Just saying. So it can be a healthy thing too because awareness and instinct will take full control.

@Aakash You were asking before when I work do I remain aware that everything is awareness. No I don't. It's more like what is sometimes referred to as a "flow state" where things are happening but there is no sense of anyone doing anything. Even time is not there because for there to be the sense of time passing there would have to be a someone who is being aware of time.

You gotta trancend all that by letting it go. Your only practice is to step out of the way and let awareness do it's own thing.