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@Just the mage I totally hear you. I too wish I was able to work in home construction again and just live a "normal" life.

@Just the mage You should look into S.S.I. disability if you haven't already.

@Leo Gura Yes. That's what the Dr's tell me. @moon777light Thanks. I'll check into her work.

@JayG84 Why should I build a live life when it has no meaning? The same reason people climb Mount Everest. Because it's there

Maybe you are just now discovering the true meaning of life to be lived.

@Leo Gura Just to throw this out there. MRI's do show lesions on the spinal cord and brain. Weird stulff for sure. The body attacking it's own nervous system.

@Leo Gura Finding that out first hand.

@Leo Gura Not sure if it's kundalini either but I experience something very similar to what the op discribes here. Western doctors label it ms.

Just for a piece of mind nothing about reality changed at all. Only the way you see it.

@herghly You certainly stepped up your game there. You condensed 20 years worth of sitting on a cushion into a few hours.

There's nothing to panic about. It never really happened.

Seems to be you got the Full Monty all at once.

@Jack River I know exactly what you mean and I am at a loss for words after that.

@RobertZ Mu can't be spoken of besides to say that it is perfectly empty. Even saying that is too much.

Practice gratitude.

@Paul92 Play along with the illusion as always but knowing it's been an illusion all along.

For this is all a dream we dreamed one afternoon song: Box of Rain

This is a trip in itself. Go to 2:00 and you'll see what I'm talking about.

@hikmatshiraliyev Who am I to argue with Om Swami

@Fairy Don't allow the naysayers to take anything away from your moment of clarity.

@ShinO.K.- I don't believe you.

That would be as silly as trying to suprise yourself.

Who doesn't like a good echo?

Reading this reminded me of something I read about Whitman - Whitman lived in a state of heightened awareness. To him, the world was a fantastically real, beautiful, and fascinating place. As Bucke writes of him: “His favourite occupation seemed to be strolling or sauntering about outdoors by himself, looking at the grass, the trees, the flowers, the vistas of light, the varying aspects of the sky, and listening to the birds, the crickets, the tree frogs, and all the hundreds of natural sounds. It was evident that these things gave him a pleasure far beyond what they give to ordinary people.” With this heightened awareness, Whitman sensed the sacred aliveness of the world and the radiance and harmony of a spirit-force pervading every object and creature. The whole world was divine, including his own being and body. As he writes in “Song of Myself”: Sound familiar?

@Aakash That sounds a bit too concrete. Too much of a plan. What does @Nahm have to say about this? You wanna get there but wanting to get there is the very thing that keeps you from it.