Gabriel Joy

Firstly, I am writing this trip report for myself to integrate, but I am posting it on the forum as it may be useful to others. That being said, please read my first trip report before reading this one; otherwise, you may not understand parts of it, as I won’t be repeating the context that was found in the first report. Setup and Context Drug: 1.1694 g of psilocybin cubensis (commonly known as Golden Teacher) Method of ingestion: Lemon tek Intention: What is consciousness? Test kit: Essential Drug Test Kit (3-in-1) – Package (https://testkitplus.com/product/drug-test-kit-marquis-morris-ehrlich) My first trip was on March 24, 2026. I feel like I sufficiently integrated the first one after a month. Therefore, I decided to have my second one on April 28, 2026, about a month (35 days) later. I corrected my two mistakes from the last trip and made sure to measure it precisely (and invest in measuring equipment) to know exactly how much I’m ingesting. I also didn’t need to test it, as the psilocybin cubensis came from the same batch as the previous trip. I decided to do a lemon tek this time instead of simply ingesting the mushrooms to validate for myself experientially that it intensifies the trip and helps reduce nausea. I didn’t increase the dose from my previous trip, as if the lemon tek already increases the intensity (which it probably would), an increase from both a lemon tek and a higher dose would be too risky, as I’m not sure I’d be able to handle it emotionally. Here are the instructions I followed for the lemon tek: Measure your dose. Grind the measured dose and put it in the glass. Use two fresh lemons or limes (remove seeds beforehand) or lemon/lime juice (I used two fresh organic lemons). Stir and make sure the juice covers all the mushrooms. It will likely create a paste. Let it sit for 10 minutes. Add water and drink quickly to avoid reducing the potency of the magic mushrooms. To prepare for the trip, I did the following: I turned off my alarm to sleep in the night before tripping (if my body would let me). I kept my phone off until the trip was completed. I meditated for 30 minutes before the trip. I prepared lunch. I wore soft, comfy clothing. I took the following day off to rest and integrate the trip. The only aspect that I noticed could have been improved before the trip was my energy level. The previous week was the final exam week of the semester (I’m a second-year student pursuing a bachelor’s degree in social work), and I was quite exhausted from studying for and taking exams. However, instead of pacing myself by working and completing other tasks at a leisurely pace, I exhausted myself by maintaining a fast pace (maximizing the 24 hours in my day by always planning to do something). I was too caught up in the idea of being free from academia, as it was the last semester in which I’d have to take five classes and maintain high grades. During the summer, I only have to take the equivalent of four full-time classes (two intensive classes), and then I’ll be free of grades. Therefore, I went into the trip tired. This definitely hurt my concentration during the trip, as I wasn’t able to focus on the intention (What is consciousness?) as much as I could have. Hence, in the future, I’ll make sure to be adequately rested before the trip to make the most of the experience. I also couldn’t delay the trip, as I’m only home alone on Mondays and Tuesdays. The following week, summer school starts, and I’m definitely not doing psychedelics during the school year, as it would probably have too big of a negative impact on my grades, which are essential for getting into a master’s program in order for me to become a therapist. This is essential to fulfilling my life purpose of helping people with anxiety and depressive disorders awaken to reality. So it was either I do psychedelics despite the fatigue, or I wait about 60 days to do my second trip. I chose to trip. That being said, I was still a little anxious due to the lemon tek, but not nearly as much as the first time, as I had the reference experience to calm me down and knew the experience was going to be worth it. The Trip - Part 1 Chaos The events are more or less in chronological order as I remember them. As I drank my concoction, I lay down in bed without any music and put on an eye mask to better focus on my thoughts. I began asking myself, “What is consciousness?” as I waited for the psilocin to take effect. Nothing really happened until the nausea suddenly came. However, the nausea was much weaker than in my first trip and was very easy to ignore. It resembled more of a minor discomfort in my stomach, comparable in intensity to being slightly sore from a good workout. Hence, lemon tekking definitely reduces nausea for me, and I’ll make sure to always lemon tek from now on instead of ingesting the mushrooms raw. When the visuals hit, they came on much faster than with raw mushrooms. I knew this by quickly removing my eye mask and looking at the white wall, which breathed like a large beast and had a nice circular rainbow of red, yellow, green, and pink that surrounded my vision in a partial frame that was about 75% complete. The bottom left part was missing. It was clearly more vivid compared to the last trip. Lemon tekking definitely increases the intensity of the trip. As I put my eye mask back on, I attempted to refocus by asking myself, “What is consciousness?”, but the ever-changing visuals were too distracting for me to do so consistently. Instead, I saw a plethora of constantly changing visuals that were continuously morphing. As soon as I was able to identify a distinct form, it would change into something different and remain in constant movement. There were thousands of these objects, and each one was intertwined and only occasionally had color. For example, at one point I saw a series of purple diagonal lines that went to the right and then suddenly disappeared as something else took their place. Don’t ask me what; I don’t remember. However, one visual stood out to me: an infinitely deep, multicolored, downward tunnel of red, yellow, green, and pink that spun like a tornado. The colors were like little sparks that formed the tunnel, and the image itself was quite beautiful. At that moment, it occurred to me how infinite reality is. Much like the tunnel, it never ends—it just goes and goes and goes and goes. The tunnel then disappeared. I then needed to go to the washroom, as I drank a total of three glasses of water before the trip (which was a mistake on my part). One was out of nervousness, one was the concoction (this one was valid), and another was to capture the ground mushrooms that were left in the glass after drinking the concoction. I should’ve avoided the first one, and for the third one, I should’ve simply used a spoon to get the remaining particles that were stuck in the glass. Therefore, to avoid going to the washroom during the trip in the future, I’ll make sure to strictly limit the amount of liquids I drink beforehand. I then walked more or less crookedly to the washroom, as it was impairing my ability to concentrate on my trip. On my way there and back, I noticed very clearly that most objects had a green, yellow, and pink glow. This was a second confirmation that lemon tekking increases the strength, as it wasn’t nearly as vivid during the last trip when I looked at objects in my room. The Trip - Part 2 Clarity When I came back from the washroom and put on my eye mask, the images had a much more painful feeling to them. The background was fully black, with about a dozen white faces expressing agony and repetitively disappearing and reappearing. It resembled what it would look like if someone were pressing their face against the surface of full-body monochrome suits (the ones you wear on Halloween), making their features appear. This sent me two messages. First, don’t go to the washroom during the trip. The psychedelic doesn’t like it, and I felt a clear, temporary downgrade in the experience after I came back compared to before I went. The feelings were more negative (anxious, fearful, sinister, etc.) compared to before going to the washroom. Second, the faces were probably those of my family members. It’s trying to tell me not to neglect them so much, as I’m being too ruthless with my time (by not spending time with them), which is harming my relationship with them. Considering I live with them and will for the next three years, I should work toward improving these relationships or, at a minimum, maintain them. The faces then went away, and the colorful chaos came back. The only visual that stood out to me long enough was a high-speed road at the top right of my vision, combined with a carousel that was roughly at the bottom right. The road looked exactly like a satellite image of a highway sped up by 100x, where you’d only see lines of white and yellow zooming past. As for the carousel, I only saw the top right corner of it, which had a golden and red pattern, along with a lantern at the top to light it. It also had a contour of yellow lights surrounding its rim that would turn slowly to entrance the people beneath it. Two messages were here. First, I was very much like the highway, and it would be good to pace myself, or else I’ll burn out so badly that it will be highly problematic. This is because, generally, I am so structured and focused on my goals that if I don’t allow myself to rest, it will ultimately harm my productivity and make me fail. I’ve also been gradually increasing my expectations without allowing myself to rest to compensate for the increased amount of effort. For example, on a regular day, I expect myself to do the following: 30 minutes of concentration practice 1 hour of Kriya yoga (and increasing) Holotropic breathwork once a month Psychedelics once a month (new addition!) 30 minutes of reading personal development 90% or higher for grades No entertainment (social media, video games, board games, movies, etc.) No useless socialization (it’s a distraction) No sexual relationships (unless beneficial to other goals) No junk food or desserts No restaurants Work at least 6 hours per week Watch a video on personal development or spirituality once a week No useless spending (no decorations, no art, etc.) Maintain a sleep schedule from 7:30 a.m. to 9:00 p.m. No screens starting from 7:00 p.m. Wash my sheets every month Work out three times a week (weight training) No rest (this one was implicit until now) Embody all of the above 95% of the time Looking at this list, I realize how absurd I am. I expect to do all this on my own, without external guidance? Jesus Christ! I know I’m hardcore, but this is way too hardcore! I need to scale back. I’ll make sure to update this list and give myself a bit of slack, as there’s no way I can maintain this—and rest. REST! How do we do that? That’s something else I need to contemplate. I’m glad I have the time to do so before classes start again. As for the carousel, it is a simple reminder that I need to stop rushing. It’s a metaphor that I need to pace myself so that I can continue “turning” to help other people, like the carousel that continues to provide entertainment to others. Also entertainment for me to actually enjoy my life as I strive to improve it. My trip finished off in peace, as I was too exhausted to really reflect, so I simply sat there and let the psychedelic offer me comfort without directing it. I let myself be. That being said, I noticed that near the end of the trip, right before it starts coming down, is the best time to reflect, as I’m not bombarded by images and I’m in a calm state, having gotten used to being on the psychedelic for the last two hours. Therefore, I’ll make sure to use this window of time to contemplate on important topics in the future. The effects then wore off, and I drank a bit of water before going to the washroom (I needed to go again). Post-trip - Part 3 Laughter As I arrived at the washroom and looked in the mirror, I started laughing for no clear reason. I found it hilarious to be alive and spent a good fifteen minutes laughing while trying to wash my hands, but failing to do so. Why? I think I intuitively knew that I had found the tool for achieving the awakening I was looking for—that psychedelics are the best way to achieve awakening. In just two trips and two reports, I learned more about myself than in nine holotropic breathwork sessions and an equivalent amount of time spent meditating or doing kriya yoga. I’m very glad to have genuinely tried psychedelics. I then ate lunch and went to watch Flow (2024 animated film). Initially, I brought a large bowl of nuts with me, but as I started watching the movie, I realized I was repeating a pattern that I was actively trying to avoid. Therefore, I paused the movie, put the nuts back in the pantry, and simply watched the movie. There was no need for food; a good movie is sufficient to allow one to rest. Post-trip reflections and main takeaways: Rest. I need to take rest seriously, like awakening, as it’s getting in the way of everything else in my life. I’ll have to make it a habit and actually dedicate time to it, or else I won’t do it. Rest, especially before psychedelics. If you don’t feel rested, it greatly reduces the potential of the trip. I’ll make sure to be adequately rested before the trip. Spend some time with your family. I need to invest time in my relationships to make sure they don’t go sour. Psychedelics temporarily lower productivity, especially on the same day. Don’t expect to be productive, as you’ll still be too heavily influenced by the trip to do anything requiring a lot of concentration. Always write a trip report. It helps maximize the gains you get from psychedelics. Lemon tekking increases the intensity and onset of the trip. Lemon tekking reduces nausea. Reality is infinite. I know that experientially now. Although I could definitely learn on a much deeper level in the future, I’ve only seen a hair of it. Thank you for reading my trip. I hope it helped you in some way. Feel free to leave your comments, questions and encouragements below.

Your right! I forgot to specify that it only applies to room temperature water. My bad.

Looking forward to it! (Once I can handle it well) Water isn't very good for psilocybin though. Check out this video which is pretty good for comparisons on ways to prepare magic mushrooms for a trip. He also puts the studies in the description of the video that are worth checking out.

Thank you! I do think I'm mature for a 21 year old, but not nearly mature enough! I read about it briefly while doing my trip, but wanted to avoid it initially to test first to see if I had nausea from the raw mushrooms and also because I wanted a more gradually (as opposed to intense) trip, which lemon tekking apparently increase the intensity and shorten the duration of the trip. Although, I'll keep this method in mind to try out later when I have more experience with magic mushrooms and if I find the nausea too intense. Thanks! I'll reach 4 grams eventually. I just got to gradually build towards it. Didn't expect the teacher himself to read my trip! Thank you for your encouragement. I'll break my world, but first I'm going to familiarize myself more with magic mushrooms to make sure I can handle it appropriately when my world does break from a higher dose.

I'll increase gradually by 0.5g. Although, I won't necessarily increase right away since I feel like I can use more experience tripping on 1g before needed higher doses. At the earliest, my 3rd trip will be on 1.5g. I might also consider increasing by 0.25g at higher doses if I find 0.5g increases too quick. Experience will tell me.

Bonus points I though of immediately after posting that is worth noting : I am much more sensitive than the average person to psychedelics. Therefore, it is especially important that I increase the dosage gradually to ensure that I can handle it emotionally and avoid bad trips. It is not the psychedelic, but the intention and effort that bring insights. This is clear to me, as 1g of psilocybin cubensis doesn't usually cause such an intense trip. It was my continual effort that brought about the insights that I experienced on this trip.

After watching multiple of Leo's videos on psychedelics, I decided to have my first trip at 21 years old (following his advice to not do it earlier due to maturity). The report I'm writing is first and foremost for myself to make the lessons explicit and help me integrate the experience, but I'm leaving it here on the forum because it will probably be valuable to others, as this forum has helped me in the past even if I almost never post. Setup and Context Drug : 1g of psilocybin cubensis (Commonly known as Golden teacher) Location : At home, in peace and quiet. Sitter : None. Intention : How to rest ? + Familiarize myself with a psychedelic experience Testkit : Essential Drug Test kit (3-in-1) - Package (https://testkitplus.com/product/drug-test-kit-marquis-morris-ehrlich) Based on my holotropic breathwork experiences, I felt sufficiently mature that I didn't need a sitter. I also tend to be more open to the experience if there’s no one around, as I feel then that I could express myself freely. The test kit came back positive for psilocybin based on the Ehrlich reagent and negative for the Marquis and Morris A and B reagents. This was to ensure that the magic mushrooms I was given didn’t have anything added to it, even if it was coming from a trusted source. The intention (How to rest?) was set because, when I find myself agitated in the afternoon, I tend to find myself short of solutions. I can’t keep working on homework (I’m doing a bachelor’s in social work) or work (do contractual work to train AI) because of my agitation. Hence, I sometimes end up eating compulsively, between 1-2 bowls of nuts, and/or watching movies to dissociate myself from the pain, despite having no interest in these activities. I wanted to get insight into how to solve this issue permanently, that I’ve been stuck with for a couple months now. This was my main intention. I also generally wanted to know (experimentally) what a psychedelic experience was like, since it was my first time getting familiar with it, so I can focus on using psychedelics for personal growth (achieving insights in my life and about reality). I also didn’t use an eyemask because I wanted to get to see the visuals at least once before using it seriously for personal development. I started at 1g because I’m generally sensitive to food and especially sensitive to drugs. For instance, all meats (seafood, red meat, and poultry) and eggs give me headaches when I eat them, and caffeine has a strong effect on me. For example, the last time I drank half a cup of coffee at 12:00pm, I was only able to fall asleep at 3:00am. Start low, go slow was the advice I was following. I left myself the whole day for the experience, with the following day open if I needed more time to integrate the experience. I prepared lunch so I wouldn't need to cook. I wore comfy clothing (jogging pants, t-shirt, and hoodie). All sharp objects were far out of reach and put away. I made sure I wouldn't be distracted by anything. I literally didn't turn my phone on until after the trip, so it wouldn't distract me. I turned off my alarm to allow myself to sleep in a little if I felt like it. This was based on my previous experience that meditation and Kriya Yoga usually goes better if I sleep well. I figured the same is true for psychedelics. I also meditated 30 minutes before to put myself in a calm state, ready to welcome the experience. Basically, I followed his advice from his video called “How To Use Psychedelics For Personal Development.” However, I omitted two important things that I'll make sure to do properly next time. I didn't use an accurate scale. My scale was only accurate by the gram, and therefore, I actually don’t know exactly my dosage. It probably was between the range of 0.9g and 1.1g. I’ll make sure to invest in a precise food scale and measure the precise dosage for all my future trips. This is because, at the start, it created a bit of anxiety in me concerning if I took too much or too little. This could’ve been avoided. I did the testing the day of the trip. This is a bad idea, as it creates a lot of anxiety and uncertainty for whether I’m dedicated to the trip for the day or not. Next time, I’ll test the substance at least the day before to avoid this unnecessary anxiety. The Trip - Part 1 Images It is more or less in chronological order, but I didn’t take any notes. I ate the mushrooms fairly mechanically, but found some of the pieces stuck in my teeth. Considering I was already taking a small amount, I went to get a toothpick and pick them out of my teeth to make sure I ingested the entire gram. In retrospect, I’m glad I did this to get the full effect. Therefore, I will always make sure to use toothpicks to ensure I fully ingest the mushrooms for all future trips. I then laid down in my bed and simply observed the wall for roughly 5 minutes. Quickly, I noticed two things before the trip came on. Firstly, the room was a little cold, so I turned up the thermostat to make sure I was truly comfortable and not freezing during the trip. Secondly, a wave of nausea came on. I knew this was a possibility, but didn’t prepare anything for it. So, I just felt it, lying on my bed. I was able to deal with it, but next time I’ll make sure to prepare peppermint or ginger tea to help ease the nausea, since I think at higher doses it’ll be much harder to handle, and it’ll be a distraction from the trip. I was lying down with my head towards the left, which is when I noticed that the wall started moving. The best way to describe it was like a beast breathing, where I’d see it move closer and further away from me, with it distorting ordinary dimensions, as it seemed to “stretch” the wall. It looked like the wall had organs that breathed, and the wall became its skin that moved freely. Vague colors also started tinting the wall, mainly in mixes of blue, green, and yellow. It made me feel happy, joyful, and curious as I put my attention on it, which only made the visuals more vivid. I would be giggling internally, like a kid, as I’d look at the wall. The emotion was so intense that tears of joy would go down my face as I felt graced and privileged by its presence. This would last a couple of minutes until a face then started to appear, where the eye would be situated where there was a bulge of paint. Slowly, it produced a face resembling much of your typical stone buddha statue meditating. It felt like it wanted to tell me something, so I tried my best to listen to it. Then, a feeling of warmth came in my left ear as I focused on the face. It felt warm, very warm, hot, very hot, burning HOT!!! It was so hot it broke my focus, and I turned away from the wall. Quickly, I realized that the sun from my window was peering into my room and exclusively on my left ear. Therefore, I closed the curtains about halfway for the rest of the trip so I wouldn’t have to worry about the light coming on my body. Always block out sunlight from hitting my body during future trips to avoid it as a distraction. When I looked back at the wall, the face was gone, and the wall went back to being the beast I described above. However, at the same time, I noticed that the fan started to shift as well, as if it was hanging crooked on the ceiling. At the same time, colors started appearing as it spun, mainly a mix of blue, yellow, and pink as I concentrated to make the colors brighter. It was oddly amusing to me, as it made me laugh internally. I’d constantly be smiling. I felt very much like a kid seeing a show. It reminded me of how fun life is and that I don’t appreciate my daily routine as much as I can. Eventually, I’d return to the wall and focus back on the beast. It then started morphing again. Mayan symbols started appearing, as if hundreds of invisible hands were drawing them. It felt like a spectacle was being put in front of me, where these symbols would continually appear to be drawn and disappearing at an astonishing rate. The symbols were appearing in an ever expanding circle that then approached me at a steady pace, with it disappearing gradually as it got close, and other circles taking their place behind it. I was so amazed and happy that I’d be in a state of ecstasy, happier than any other moment in my life, where tears were once again going down my face. It had my complete attention. Then it stopped. The beast then came back. After some more time, the beast started shifting again. This time, though, it gave me an unclear eerie sensation that made me hesitate and filled me with incomprehension (confusion), yet at the same time, there was another underlying feeling of judgement and rejection. In terms of visuals, an ever expanding circle with dots that started appearing as tiny eyes. It would close in on me while vanishing, while other similar circles manifested behind it. This visual was all gray this time. As I focused my attention, I remember clearly trying to understand this image, as if I was looking to make sense of it, filled with as much comprehension and compassion as I could at the time. “What do you mean?” is the question that would come over me, and I’d seek an answer for. It only came later. The image was to inform me that I am still too fearful of the judgement of others and hold back my authenticity (what I say) due to this. I simply omit the truth of what I think too much. Yet, at the same time, I still seek too much approval and still need to work on detaching my value from others opinions. The eyes represent the rejection of others, yet also their admiration that I dig, which may be why I was able to focus on it so easily, despite the uncanny sensation it gave. In retrospect, this is obviously tied to my past, where I vividly recall being left, time after time, in elementary school by my one friend at the time, which left a great dent in my self-esteem, even if it never actually was my fault. It was never actually my fault! That’s new. I know better now. The image then suddenly stopped. By this time, I stopped looking at the wall and looked at the curtains and realized how exhausted and agitated I was from all the emotions and focus. It took a lot of energy and willpower to stay with these images, and sometimes I would take a small 10-second break to recenter myself and refocus on the image in front of me. I’d also glance at my clock from time to time, which was also distracting me. So, I got up and turned it away from me so I wouldn’t know what time it was. I’ll make sure to be able to not perceive the time for future trips because it’s a distraction from me focusing on getting insights and experiencing the trip. “The wall has much to teach.” came to me as I cracked up for a second at the thought. Very true. Mentally noted for my reflection. On one of those breaks previously described, I noticed colored waves started emerging at the edge of my roof connecting to the wall. A multicolored shore of blue, yellow, green, and pink. I began focusing on these waves, and the following message came to me: “Relax, go with the flow.” At the time of agitation, this was the exact message I needed, as I effectively relaxed after this message. The mobile game rider - stunt bike racing (https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.ketchapp.rider&hl=en) came to mind as I looked at this visual. I felt like I had to be like this rider in the game. Going ahead to do my moves and flips with what comes, and if I die, then I’ll simply respawn and restart. Two clear messages came to me. 1) I can definitely relax more often, especially in my body. 2) Going with the flow more often can benefit me. I followed its advice for the rest of the trip. The bottom of my curtains then began to take the form of the beast in the corner of my eye, which I decided to concentrate on. However, unlike the wall that had yellow, blue, green, and pink colors, my brown curtains instead took a monochrome color. It brought to mind the image of a tomb, as if a ghost came back from the dead, and a feeling of dread came to me as I looked at the curtains. Unlike previous images, it was surprisingly clear, with a complete absence of symbols. I froze, but kept my awareness on it, looking for signs of insight and how it would change. Nothing came up, and it simply gradually vanished. Instead, I noticed that from the middle to the top of my curtains Egyptian symbols appeared, which had the usual colors of pink, yellow, blue, and green, as well as the usual feeling of delight, much like the fan and the wall. I focused on it for some time, feeling like a child again. The curtains didn’t really give me much insight other than a feeling of happiness. Therefore, after approximately 2 hours of all these different images, I felt it was going nowhere and had a solid experience of the images that people see during mushroom trips. Therefore, I decided to simply close my eyes for the rest of the trip to contemplate. The Trip - Part 2 Contemplation I set a clear intent to question and asked myself, “What is awareness?” However, quickly, the answer came up to the following question: Which life purpose do you prefer? A) Helping people with anxiety/depression self-actualize and awaken. B) Helping people with level 1 high-functioning autism and learning disorders self-actualize and awaken. The answer was B. As I trusted myself to follow the psychedelic path, I asked myself why, and very quickly, explanations came. It was because I fundamentally identify and struggle more with my anxiety and depression than my autism. I don’t really feel or struggle with my autism compared to my anxiety and depression. For example, I am extremely organized and don’t struggle at all in platonic relationships. I also genuinely don’t feel autistic and don’t relate to autistic young adults or the community. It simply is not my struggle anymore. Hence, I feel much more motivated to help people avoid the unnecessary suffering of anxiety and depression that I went through and struggled the most with. Question 2 then came up as I understood this insight. Do I want a sexual relationship in my life? This question came about because I knew I didn’t want kids (because I don’t want to spread my crappy genes or have kids), but since I never had a serious partner with similar goals, this question remains unanswered. The psychedelic then gave me its answer as I contemplated. Yes, if it happens by chance that I meet someone with similar values, goals, and life purpose, which helps us to mutually develop ourselves, but I won’t actively go out searching for it, as it’s not a priority in my life. I would much rather spend my time pursuing awakening, self-actualizing, and increasing the consciousness of society. Question 3 then came. Should I pursue exclusively awakening and ignore self-actualization needs? This means minimally investing in my career, only to the extent that I need to in order to maximize my time dedicated to and chances for awakening. Answer: No! If you focus exclusively on awakening, you’ll feel empty from your lack of contribution to society, which is likely to prevent you from awakening! Go self-actualize and satisfy that need while pursuing awakening is much more effective to meet both needs in the long run. I also read this insight in a book on Kriya Yoga, and Leo also holds this perspective. However, with the psychedelic, this is now crystal clear for me. Once again, the next question came to mind as soon as this insight was clear. Question 4 followed: When certified and ready, should you create Grof Transpersonal Training (GTT) Canada? GTT U.S. (main organization), GTT Poland and GTT Australia exists.Yet, no organization or even event affiliated with GTT U.S. exist in Canada. For context, I’m pursuing a degree as a holotropic breathwork facilitator at the same time as my mainstream schooling (bachelor of social work), and am quite disappointed by the lack of initiative of holotropic breathwork facilitators in Canada’s inactivity to promote holotropic breathwork outside of their individual events. I feel this is fundamentally wrong, as they leave few training opportunities in Canada to train future facilitators, and I have been wondering for a while now if I should remedy this situation. It’s been bothering me in the background, but I never bothered to seriously contemplate it until now. This was due to the second question, which I didn’t answer, which made it pointless to contemplate it and made me procrastinate. However, the answer is a clear yes! Holotropic breathwork is a valuable tool for mental health disorders and self-actualization. It should exist in Canada. Expect a GTT Canada in the coming years. I don’t know how much time I need to get certified, experience, and capital before to launch it, but I’ll get it with persistence, as I am now firmly dedicated to spreading holotropic breathwork in Canada. Nothing came afterwards, so I began asking myself, “What is awareness?” However, I’d find I’d get easily distracted by fruitless thoughts. This was when I realized that the psychedelic effect is rapidly decreasing, as I am no longer seeing semi-circles of red when I close my eyes. I therefore opened my eyes and focused on the wall. Effectively, the wall was barely breathing. The time was 11:43 am. I took it at about 8:45 am. Therefore, psilocybin cubensis peaked at 3 hours on an empty stomach for me. Less than the 4-6 hours I read based on previous reports. I tried contemplating again, but it was clear that the effects were over. Therefore, I thanked the wall, the fan, and the curtains for their wisdom (which I look back and find odd, since I’m usually not thankful to things that are not the cause of the state), went to eat lunch, and concluded the trip. Post Trip Reflections I had indigestion during lunch. It was clearly from the mushrooms, as I ate nothing else that morning. Indigestion is a tiny price to pay for the psychedelic experience and is to be expected in the future. Psilocybin cubensis is a more effective tool compared to Holotropic Breathwork for personal development. During a typical holotropic breathwork session (I’ve done 12 up until now), I usually get between 3-5 solid insights with adequate preparation, but during a trip, I got 8 insights (excluding insights concerning preparation of the trip) on a pretty low dosage. I can only imagine what it’s like on a moderate or high dosage. That being said, there are advantages to both. One is that you need to be mature to handle the trip, you need to get the drug, and you can’t stop the process once it’s started. Hence, Holotropic breathwork is better for beginners to get used to and familiar with non-ordinary states of consciousness, while psychedelics are more appropriate for mature people who have already been doing personal development for at least a year MINIMUM. You need a certain amount of development to use it effectively. I had a clear mind using Psilocybin cubensis compared to trip reports I read. I attribute it to the low dose. To be observed at higher doses if this changes. Close one’s eyes, or use an eye mask, to maximize the insights. The visuals, although pleasant, were definitely distracting. I had an easier time gathering insights by focusing on contemplation with my eyes closed. Leo said this (about the visuals being potentially distracting), and I confirm his insight through my experience. A sitter is unnecessary at 1g of psilocybin cubensis. I am sufficiently mature to handle this dose and can probably ramp up gradually without a sitter if I’m careful about it. I handled the trip well because I have a daily spiritual practice of 1h 30 that grounded me emotionally. A daily spiritual practice is a prerequisite for psychedelics. Otherwise, I don’t recommend psilocybin cubensis, as the person is not ready yet. Noting for my future psychotherapist practice. Next trip: 1g of psilocybin cubensis, but with an eye mask. I’ve decided not to increase the dosage just yet, as I want to experience a full trip with an eye mask to make sure I can handle it. Probably during the summer, but I’ll wait until I feel I have integrated this experience fully before doing another trip. If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading! Also, I’m going to post all my trips on this forum, so be on the lookout if ever it helps you. I’ll create a new topic for each trip report. Feel free to leave your questions and encouragements below. I’d be glad to answer them and/or receive them to give back to this forum which has helped me in the past.

I would be interested, but only in a couple years (about three). I still have some groundwork to lay concerning my survival before exploring psychedelics.

I think what your lacking is a life purpose. Right now it seems that everything in your life is aligned except a grand over-arching, inspiring life purpose for everything you do. Therefore, I believe that you need to find one, whatever it may be. I think it's hard for you to stay motivaited as you don't have a vision, or purpose to keep up the healthy habits, but you still do them (most of the time) because you know it's the right thing to do. Note: Treat this as food for thought and I encourage you to come up with your own conclusions as I don't know your life as much as you do.

Lack of energy. If I have energy, then I could do anything I set my mind to!

I'm terrified if I'm being honest, but here I go!

I think it's your psychological issue causing it. People don't voluntarily chose to be stupid or lazy, it's how they were raised and reacted to their environnement that caused them to be stupid or lazy (All parties influence whether one procrasinates or not). Therefore, I think whatever caused your psychological disorder may have overrided your desire to not procrasinate. Although that's reversible with the right mindset and methods.

Very well explained! Thank you for sharing this insight.