Nemra

نور العين Nour El Ein

Used to as in you don't care if it makes you uncomfortable?

@Vibes, you can stand and move while on psychedelics?

@Leo Gura, would you share the link of the product that you have ordered?

How do you know it is potent when it's not even made yet to test it?

# Contemplation How does anything come into existence? E.g., when I look at things, I notice that things have the same quality of existence because they are in the same field of sensory phenomena. No thing is visually more existing than the other because they are what they are just by being themselves in that same field. Same for things in other sensory fields. That implies that I cannot be a specific thing; otherwise, I would be contradicting myself since there is nothing stopping me from identifying beyond my body. I must be, e.g., anything that appears visually, the chair, the desk, etc. Same for things in other sensory fields. Each sensory field is absolutely different from the other in terms of quality. However, they all exist on their own. When I look at a chair, the chair comes into existence. It would be nonsense to say that the chair exists without looking at it because it would not refer to something that exists in that sensory field at that moment. Why must it be at that moment? Because it's at that moment that the phenomenon exists. Same for things in other sensory fields. So, looking, hearing, feeling, etc., are common in that things come into existence when they are being observed directly. In other words, when they are being conscious of. Everything comes into existence when they are being conscious of by me. Since things don't exist without being conscious of them, there's no distinction between being conscious and the thing itself. I become conscious of a thing, and I am also that thing.

The interesting thing is that I have poor eyesight; however, on DMT, when visual changes happen, I can clearly see things.

#11 This is the second time I was aware of a blob-like structure, though this time I was aware of it for much longer. It was so alien. There was no distinction between me and it as if I had been that thing. There was more going on than I can recall. My life was being deconstructed continuously; my memories were suddenly being presented to me, showing their absurdity. The blob looked something like the following:

Orthodox Christians are full of themselves. They are just a different kind and come from a different culture. There's no such thing as Christian DNA; it's just brainwashing if you stay in it from childhood. However, Christians are Christians because they have belief in Jesus. They are too lost to question themselves. That is not popular among Orthodox Christians. You may find some very open-minded stuff, but that doesn't mean it reflects on how religious people are and how the religion operates. Even if it's talked about, it doesn't mean they know what they're talking about.

The ego is so masterful at disguising the insanity. You start to cry once your ego starts to go out because of how much it has hidden from you. Ego death feels the same as when I've been physically harmed. It's not easy to react positively, because the ego hides like cockroach's body parts when the cockroach is dead.

When I smoke by refilling low doses (about 5 mg) of DMT, it's totally another thing. It gradually builds up. It's not that visual. However, I start to really die. My very being fights to live and is afraid of what's ahead. I see that I have never actually been died. At some point, I was thinking of going insane. I didn't recognize what I was. If you're starting with psychedelics, know that dying feels very primal. You'll feel crazy.

I will start with small doses to test them. Then maybe I'll go higher. I want to try to understand if they have any potential for me. What's more unclear for me is deciding the dosages of the ones that build tolerance. My plan is more about testing rather than going insane.

I ordered the following: 5-MeO-/DMT/DiPT/DALT (HCL) 4-HO-MiPT (20 mg / pellet) 1P-LSD (100 μg / blotter) 5-MeO-MiPT (freebase) O-PCE (10 mg / pellet) Cannabis gummies N,N-DPT (HCL) I'm thinking of getting the salvia extract there.

Interesting. It is written on psychedelic-related wikis that they have tolerance. Though, I haven't tried them yet, maybe they don't have tolerance.