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I've got one since September last year. It appeared after my MDMA + 3x 5-MeO-DMT breakthrough experience. Well, actually not directly afterwards but a week later when I got tonsillitis. But I guess it relates to the psychedelic experience. It's pretty loud about a 8/10. Even the nurse was surprised by the volume when I did a test. I tried relaxing homeopathic medication to calm the body + high doses of magnesium+ high doses of other supplements for the immune system (like zinc, harness, d3 and so on.) Didn't really work at all. I checked that there's nothing wrong with the ears and did a psychological test to examine if it has something to do with psychological stress or mental disturbances (it doesn't). Strategy for now: Acceptance. No judgement. Looking what Leo has to say about it.

@Salvijus very interesting perspective and great visualization exercise. Thanks for sharing!! <3

@r0ckyreed Great insight! But then, how to raise ones awareness of that happening? I might resonate more with doing a lot of nothing in the mountains then to work in a restaurant on the city. Both are Meditation. But my awareness or the atmosphere might be enhanced by creating a certain atmosphere (through surroundings, singing, movement etc).

Lately I've been more curious about the question of 'What is Meditation' and 'How to practice it'. But the 'How' implies a method. So over the years I've kind of tried out and explored different things. Zazen, breath awareness, chanting Hindu/Buddhist/Sikh Mantras, Concentracion, Mindfulness, Yoga of different kinds, Contemplative Prayer, 'I am awareness', Self Inquiry| Enlightenment Intensives, Neti Neti, Tantra, Vipassana, other Buddhist Methods and so on and so on. During this journey, I lost touch with the understanding that meditation is a happening, a blossoming, whole within itself. It doesn't have a reason or a purpose. I forgot that. So I searched for something ... The 'Most effective / true / resonant' technique or 'practice' to get me to God-Realization / Oneness / Awakening / Enlightenment/ Self Understanding/ Peace / Bliss .... And whatever else "I" desire. So much Selfishness on the journey to Selflessness. Now after a Vipassana Retreat I realized again that you cannot "do" meditation. The Vipassana technique (as taught by Goenka) was related with so much "Doing/Work/ Effort". Completely besides the point of Meditation as I understand it. But now there is still the question: I want to live meditation. Create the atmosphere of body, mind and surrounding that meditation can blossom. With a path or a 'Practice' to go into depth with. The exploring of the wide range of perspectives and techniques is wonderful, and there are infinitely more to explore. And almost all claim that THEIR thing is THE thing. Still I feel a calling to dedicate myself to something , consistently to go more from breaths into depth. How to decide? I find it difficult to commit to only one single "practice" or tradition as many are so wonderul and many resonate. There might be value to deepen understanding and experience in one particular field (like zen, daoism, Shaiva tantrism, etc.) and really go deep with it. But there might also be value in continuing to develop my own understanding and my own 'practice' and walk my own path. Without accepting or commiting to what any authority or framework is saying. Cause that's what true Spirituality is. Deepening your own understanding of reality and developing an intimate connection with Life, Love and God. But then my mind comes in again and says : "But how to do it?" And the search for the end of seeking begins anew. But I also realized during my retreat: To enjoy the process of seeking the end of seeking is to find it.

Many spiritual scriptures and mystics have tried to formulate their insights on exactly that topic. A good way to start getting some ideas would be to read some of their formulations and then contemplate them for yourself.

Also great life purpose statement! I would recommend that you think about making that way more specific. That's gonna help you to speak to your ideal client more personally and it'll kickstart the marketing of you coaching practice.

I would recommend you go and work really hard to afford iPEC. It's a really good program. No rush to buy a shitty program just because you don't have the patience to save up some money for a proper one. There's a high change that that's gonna backfire, then you bought a program for 2-4k which didn't have you what you looked.for and have to start from 0 to save up money for a proper program like iPEC. I'm doing iPEC at the moment and it really is a fantastic program and worth the money.

In the videos where Sadhguru talks about these topics you can feel that he has absolutely no clue what he is talking about. He does not even have a point of reference. Which is fine. But then he could just admit that he does not know everything. Which is apperantly not easy for him to do his position.

DMT will make Sadhguru forget about his human games.

@CoolDreamThanks Thanks. That might be a way to see this challenge as an opportunity. Still in this very dense state, it is easier said than done. Eventhough realization is just a perceptual shift away, the actual attachment to physicality is immense. I'll still try to sit with what you wrote. Thanks.

Sorry, somehow this post landed in mental health. It would fit more into the general Health section of the forum.

I have been sick for over 7 weeks now. And it's deeply affecting all areas of my life. It started as some heavy caughing, I just stopped all physical exercise and went on with everything else as normal, thinking it might go away. It slowly got worse until I realized after 3 weeks that I might need a complete break from everything (which was very hard to accept as I am in the proccess of starting my coaching business, which I loive doing and am very very excited about). Symptoms were Caughing, Nose blocked, Neusea, Heavy dizziness and just feeling endlessly weak and sick to the core of my being. Took a complete break from everything for over a week. Didn't got better. Mind is cycling from anger/victimhood to respnsibility to acceptance and back again. Week 5: Went to a doc. Taking antibiotics for 10 days now. Still not any better. Symptoms are changing though. Now there is still caughing, nose even more blocked, heavy headaches, infinite weakness and still thi sunderlying feeling of just being incredibly ill. Did some tests (Blood, Checking the lung, vitamins etc.) Everything seem to be fine. I am taking Vitamin C, D3, Zinc, Magnesim daily, and some other stuff occasionally. I am back to do a little bit of work, maybe 10-20% of what I usually do. Taking walks, sleeping a lot, eating healthy. But I have to say, it is very difficult. It has been going on for what feels like a very long time. (Blessings to all who are dealing with much more difficult chronic health issues, now I have a bit more compassion towards people who are dealing with stuff like that). Besides all the spiritual practice, it lowers the joy I am able to experience. Freindships are affected by it. Work is affected. Mental health is affected. "Pain is inevetable, but suffering is a choice" - I would love to embody that insight more, but I realize that it takes a very very high degree of conciousness when the body is so deeply involved. I wanna keep showing up for coaching conversations fully, which takes a lot of energy and it is very hard for me to cancel all these converstions as I just got my first paying client. How do I balance that? I wanna keep on working, at least a bit, as doing nothing (which I have done 1-2 weeks) feels very very boring and is effecting my mental health more than it should. Also I am going through a diffcult phase in my realtionship at the moment (she decided to take a break), which is more difficult to deal with when I cannot distract myself with work. Overall it just feels like is is slowing me down to a degree which is very uncomfortable to fully embrace and enjoy. Any practical advice on what to do / how to change my perspective into a more beneficial one or how to move forward? For the next steps I was thinking about cold/hot exposure, Kambo or traveling to a warm country. As to where it might be coming from I am thinking back to my spiritual crisis from a few months ago, caused by MDMA + 5-MeO-DMT. Since then I have been almost constantly sick. (Before I have not been sick for over a year). Just an interesting observation, might have nothing to do with it.

Make very good videos. Study the market. To start: comment (valuable comments) under all videos from small and big YouTubers in your niche as soon as they upload.

Or start by reading about 20-50 coaching books. Should also give you a good start to see if you're really passionate about it. And talk to A LOT of people. Get into conversations and apply what you learn if it's appropriate.

Otherwise a great way to connect with the UK community is to go to all the festivals. Super fun and you'll meet the same people everywhere. Medicine Festival, All about Love, LoveJam, Noisily, Buddhafield. Otherwise, many of the psychedelic people are also gonna be at the Jam Sessions and Spiritual Events (like a teacher's talk) that are going on. Depending on your preferences (hippie, science, spiritual, etc) you'll find a place and community that suits you. It's fun and infinitely valuable to connect and build your network.