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Great decision! Congrats! iPEC is awesome!!

Boom was great! Even sober. Glad you've had such a profound experience 😁

@Leo Gura Have you explored what is called 'Naam Simran' or a certain kind of Japa? Basically a dwelling on and remembering of God's Name'. There seem to be an infinite amount of words being used for that wich is essentially Nameless and I've found it hard to pick one that resonates. Especially as many are connected to some kind of tradition or dogma which turns me off. I've landed on SatNam ('Truth is the Name') displayed in the Mool Mantar in Sikhism. If not, how effective do you image that practice to be? I'm guessing it gives a flavor of divinity to the practice of concentration until you leave the repition altogether. I kind of like the idea of just staying with the Name. Eventually connecting it with the breath (something like SoHam has been used that way) - taking it into retreat and even into day to day as a practice.

I haven't done one, but my guess is that it might be worth it. Depending on what you wanna get out of it. Also I would be very careful in my choice. There are many cash grabs out there, who are doing 'a weekend of blasting' and then send you our into the wild which I find quite irresponsible. One of the only good examples I'm looking at is the training done by F.I.V.E. I think it's about 9 months and ~$15k.

Ask yourself: What is success?

@OMG You gotta do all of it and see for yourself either way. Changing course on this path is very natural.

Nobody said it was gonna be easy to make money with your life purpose. That's why it's so fun!

It sounds like what you're looking for is a mentor coach. Might be a bit pricey but something to look into. There are also groups / masterminds who do this as well that you can join, with more experienced coaches. (One person gets coached, the others give feedback.) Otherwise self reflection exercises can help. Looking at the ICF markers of the core competencies and sitting down after each session you do to check how well you did on all of them. (+What you could improve / what went well etc.).

@OBEler There were 1-2 occurrences where the observer vanished completely during 5-MeO-DMT. I think it's known as a whiteout / blackout in the space and is a common thing.

@Leo Gura Still, better to have entered and united with God and return to the pain of separation than to have never entered in the first place. Cause that would be an unthinkable loss. "If the cost of having had these experiences is being haunted by their beauty for the rest of my life, better this than not to have had them at all" ~Chris Bache Even though there is this incredible heartache , we can still find some sense of Beauty in that. As so many poems express: "On my quest I feel so confused and restless. Set on fire, my heart explodes with the pain of separation. In this struggle, I am caught forever unless I go beyond this You and I. " ~Rumi

@Asia P What would happen if you don't judge your current state of consciousness? But appreciate it and love it unconditionally?

@Human Mint Here it is. I am quite happy with how it went. My first real public speaking experience wohoo!

@Thought Art IPEC is great!

Coaching is the easy part. The hard part is attracting people who want to be coached by you. How are people ever gonna find out about your website? Think about how you can provide value to the people who you want to serve. And start doing it. Online and Offline.

@OBEler It was not with a shaman, and not Bufo. I was alone and planned to take a small dose. Small became medium and that became vaping more and more over an hour. Happens very fast. Yes, I did a heavy Breathwork session after which has definitely contributed to the aftereffect.