danniviemaria

@Mindflow Actually it’s your gift. And how you use it. How you use it means how conscious you are. And you (everyone) don’t ever know what you’re missing now in term of consciousness itself. Expanding it. There are ways to the ultimate truth, salvation, intelligent, love and so on. Do you know what? I don’t know how solid it is but I did ask a guy on this forum and at that time he was in the God mode. — Why you created magick? “So can you find God”, said he. — Something is higher is the missing. The higher is beyond the what-you-have-known-now. And Actualized.org is the great place to expand it - consciousness. I did describe some my limited knowing. Down-to-earthly, I think you have had a certain spiritual experience but it is still needed to develop, you need to develop yourself to live in the advanced modern world of technology. I don’t know where your stage at Spiral dynamics or the 9 stages of ego development, it is needed for everyone to develop to the highest level as possible even for spiritual seekers (it’s much more needed). Your post is not really clear what you are tempted to point . You need both, spiritual and science. Science itself is a great way to help people in the human-animal capacities. Biotech can hack human. So how about what-is-not-human in human? That is spiritual. Let me share my insight about this work. First, It is to experience your own experience. Second, why you think there is something because in somehow (that is what I have been spoiled a lot that I* am* God*) you (not your body or thoughts) are so alone. Doctor (contributor) is not the most healthy person but it needs to be the most healthy person to be a doctor (contributor).

I am sorry because I haven’t learned in university but: 1. You are always with your Life Purpose. You are not studying the wrong major yet. One major, many jobs. And one job, many majors. But actually this is the bigger picture only. You have the choices in your one choice. 2. Try to have fun by your intention to study your major that you are learning now or have another instead. Have fun = get good at it = delete your hates about that major. Think about how it could bring you further and the same process for thinking of changing to another (how that major could bring you further). 3. Learning everything related or spirituality, scientific, personal development (if you want). Learning the connection between your major now and your what-you-want and so you have both. Find interconnection. 4. You don’t ever know what you are missing now. So that is a sign to not overthink about that because you are still missing something (even you think you have that something right now) now and your mission is to find that ‘something’ by doing something. 5. Be ‘slowly’ flowing. Don’t be panic so much for why it’s not right for you now. Even you have got the best solution but that solution ifself is not your process of keeping going to find something worthwhile. You are going, and nothing as a place to stand forever. — Actually I did think about my major and my university (I will go to the university in next two weeks) and to choose one major to keep going to find something that is waiting in somewhere that I am missing now. So I did contemplate it and hope my insights about choosing the major could help you to overcome this challenge. And some insights come from my workflow and it is flowing pretty good so again I am really hope this can help you at some points.

@Registered Actually I did being blown by @Mindflow’s thread. Read it meh? Research for it meh? The notion you got itself is your favorite one only. And even that no one cannot tell that is right or wrong. I don’t know. You did have some answers so why you are still keeping debate on every answers that you got. You are keeping that for what? Asking will be not enough to experience. I don’t know.

Why you want to know it? That is the answer. Ask yourself.

I did have it 2 weeks ago. It is breaking what I have believed in physical itself and anything. It was that as you explained. But it now is a thing I really want to ask you since I had that realization. What is real?

Can I write a little bit of my experience? It was just yesterday, and it had been that too. I am not telling this experience as the same to yours but by the way I want to stress this quote from my book about buddhism. "Think by heart, feel by mind" Actually do it, it is what it means. No abstract. No visualisations. Feel that you can think by your heart and use the mind to feel the whole body. It took me back for a long time that I could not feel anything even orgasm.

I have a genuine question for you guys who have Siddhis. Why you want it? I am curious about that. Every answer possibly is okay. I am opening to hear that.

@calibrate I really want to hear your perspective about it. P/S: I mean more detailed.

You have the choice to choose in that spectrum of being gentle and being not gentle. You have the choice. It means gentle = people pleasing but the people pleasure don’t have the choice to be not that pleasing. Gentle means you are living without any needs to please anyone but the choice here is being gentle and humble yourself. And that means you have choice. You even don’t want to be gentle if you can have choices. Pleasing people is not bad as the media telling to you but overall you limit yourself to experience the other sides of non-pleasing as a bad experience. It is not a path that you can go all-the-time to this journey of self-mastery that you could choose or not. Your explorations of all possible ways will lead to the knowing what you can choose and can’t choose. There are a lot of aspects.

@kagaria

Thank you. To me, that is not really to stress on yourself to have great things or ways to do/make/create. It’s in the future. What you really need that is what you do every day to be better. « A day is long and a year is short » That means you even don’t know what you can do in the next 5 years. Maybe you will not have that or you will be extraordinary. You don’t know! What you do today? What do you do today? Don’t tell me you don’t know too! Of course, everyone needs a sense of purpose but is it too pragmatic or too strategic? It is needed but are you sure that you have done the checklist for today? Is it following your bliss or a boring thing? There is tons of way to make your day better. And do it and sometimes you can post that showing how you dealed with abc and xyz in that self-investment process.

Thank you but now I don’t have any questions for you as I did recall back to it. And I am now able to say that nature inside that is not really this Raja breathing. And maybe sometimes I will ask you about that.

But I tilted my head back for that all 30 days. I don’t know if I try to keep my head down, so it’s like to off the track of the automatic or the flow of meditation. So I didn’t keep my head down for that sake.

I want to actually reply you on this thread to everyone else who is curious. I don’t know anything about Samadhi for now at least as not the interest to my own now. I will and i do have some stuff about that. I did have an awakening before I have watched and have contemplated on Actualized.org’s videos. This is right, so right: I didn’t have any concrete techniques to meditation and I did with the so-called focusing. I don’t know what the Samadhi posture is. I had forgotten anything when the ‘ping’ hit on me and it is so natural to ‘begin to tilt the head back’ as he said. I sometimes did think ‘Where am I?’ as being so empty. I didn’t notice to my heart but my breath was just not in control like turning off since the focusing was hitting on my brain so much. I don’t know what DMT vision is as I don’t want to use any psychedelics now. But it was the white dish spinning like everyone calls chakra. It was so something new that I was just ‘what is it?’ and start to watch it for a while. That is just one case and sorry I cannot remember anything more.

I’m not bullshiting here. I did that unintentionally at my first approach to spiritual practice. I just meditated and it’s happened like everything-so-called-that-technique for 30 days as my commitment. Awakening. I didn’t feel anything of my breath. And I didn’t know that so-called Samadhi as you said. Everything is just focused on the brain. I had forgotten everything in the sessions and I did think I did wrong as I hadn’t had any concrete techniques. But I am pretty sure that happened as what you described to Raja breathing. A thing makes my day better to trust that nature inside, thank you.

@soos_mite_ah I don’t want to debunk anything. Just wonder that how do you think about Growth? You made me to contemplate a lot.

There is no Life Purpose at first. There was you not knowing by your direct experience about everything even you could think ‘I-Know-All’. There was you put the first effort to read books to grow and want to live in your vision. There was you to find your what you need to do every damn day to achieve your goals. There was even you burned out and it’s bringing everything so-called negative to make you think back for the why. There was maybe you could think and could find the Purpose of Life and you would try some other stuff like some spirituality. There is you need to love the all thing. There is you want to do the Life Purpose to love more. There is a lot of challenges to make you recalling back to the why, now you know why to have the Life Purpose to your life. To giving love through your work. And for every damn day you know some days could be that negative lazy and it’s okay to make a thread like this and you-know-what. Hehe..Just words of motivation but I think that surrender is not that really. Not just that settings of this work must be trained to that image you have for spiritual practicing.

I couldn’t find anything more than this resourceful forum, so couldn’t I make a thread instead of searching and I got a lot of good stuff to read and a ton of helpful threads that are ‘didn’t cultivate’. What are you waiting by making this thread and someone explains everything to you and tomorrow you will have an awakening so? So distract me as a love for great conversations.

I assumed that you did know Spiral Dynamics. And so don’t tell me now you are a turquoise. I don’t know what is really the thing you making this thread for.

I am so curious to question you why you was making a thread about ‘why I am still not awake? = how it could transform me?’ in the resourceful forum of techniques, stories, etc. It was cute to do or its name as ‘turquoise’ attracting to you? I know someone is kind of downloading a contemplation question lists to do as well but you know what I am pointing here. It is not kind of doing because ‘I found this channel and this shows me a lot of outlandish things’. It’s fun? It’s attractive? It’s being a genius? It’s why! I don’t know that you want to do this spiritual practice or personal development. Even both. Yourself has your own reasons. If you want to do the personal development, this forum is resourceful for that purpose, too. Maybe I think this is not the place that people at there could tell you like “come here, it’s the best for you, trust me”. No, trust yourself and not waiting for someone persuading you to this work.

I will tell you a secret that you are even going mad about. It’s now. If it is not now, where is it around. Okay, hope this thread is going to help @Thought Art more than just this conversation as distraction as well..

Of course, Leo’s videos are awesome but sometimes there is too outlandish and to contemplate it as well as practice more but anyway I don’t want to pursuing the truth as taking it as ideology as I did fall into that trap for a long time. Oops, you replied when I am writing this. Love is the most center of this work. Even you are looking at the sky with all gratitude ?. Is it not consciousness work?

Hell no, I have never used psychas... Just meditation and Wim Hof’s breathwork only. And to read supa slowly to contemplate each sentences. I have just been ‘ahhaa’ a lot by reading a book. And feel free to this world. But actually, I did have an awakening. But it is a good thing to you to know that you don’t even need psychedelics as well. I will do somes but not now because I am still very young as well.

Nothing will change but it changes everything. Hope you give it a try.

OMG! Haha, I did think someone will make a thread like ‘I feel like I can't relate to people my age after doing self development work since I didn’t worry about people judging my childish’. I don’t know, maybe it’s depending a lot on the personality but as an ENTP or some one can joke as Extremely-Nonsense-Thinking-Person, I did feel my interest to my nonsense could have never been introduced to someone as that nonsense could be a something-bad to my ‘mature’. But why? It’s just why?! Because someone could nickname on you as an alien or a crazy one? No, I share with them with all my love for them. I wish a lot that someone can recall back to that and think ‘how about personal development? I can ask this guy’. And that love of that conversation with some people that I am now so-called childish to ask them ‘What are you doing?’. With love, who cannot smile at you back and have a great conversation? Thanks for your thread.