Koeke

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  1. Posted

    1 hour ago, Vincent S said:

    These situations happen to bring awareness and to shine light on what is still unconscious and still laying dormant.  
    To give us perspective. 
    To bring us closer to each other.   
     
    If these situations wouldn’t happen: We wouldn’t be given a chance to work on ourselves.   

     

    1 hour ago, Vincent S said:

    @Leo Gura No need to bring it down. Just bleep it?

    Could you please attempt to synthesize these seemingly valid but also contradicting intuitions?

  4. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Intense said:

    but it is better to be conscious of it and admit it than to lie to other people and yourself like many neo-liberals do, that they are not racist because they donate a lot of money to war child or something and post some woke infographics on social media.

     

    2 minutes ago, Intense said:

    The video is offensive and it should be removed,

    I haven't rewatched the whole video but wasn't the point of the exercise not to let words have an emotional effect on us? You can still recognize the problems with the word in a social context and act appropriately. When it elicits so many emotional reactions for so many people isn't it appropriate to say it for the sake of consciousness and introspection? It seems to me that what contributes to the perpetuation of racism is all the gut-level, reactions and defensive argumentations people have, that seems to lead to unconscious denial and repression because all of us are racist to a degree and are forced to take sides and defend ourselves into a position of not being a racist. 

    We as a society can't move in accordance with the Tao if we can't honestly introspect our contradicting beliefs/feelings in this way. 

    So my basic claim is: there are contexts in which it is okay to say the n word.

     

    Curious about your thoughts.

  8. Posted

    Thanks for the replies everyone. I'll focus more on having new experiences, relaxation, reading books, and feeling deeply into my suffering @BipolarGrowth. I also appreciated the questions you suggested I contemplate @Flyboy. 

    I was actually already thinking of doing travelling and going to a masseuse @Nahm. Figuring myself (relative) out will get more of my attention. 

    Also @Flyboy, could you be more specific on your experiences with Kriya,Kundalini and the "losing of sleep from unwanted energy stuff"? 
    Thanks again!

  9. Posted

    Hi, 

    Last monday evening I felt really dead inside. Like I couldn't be bothered to respond to anything, to feel anything. Just empty emotionally, the opposite of what people mean when they say someone is "full of life" or "exuberant". I'm of course speaking in relative terms here, not referring to capital D Death or E Emptiness. So, normally when I feel like I am suffering or experiencing dissatisfaction of any kind more than usual, I just sort of investigate the raw, direct sensate experience that convinces me there is a separate self that experiences this suffering. This makes the suffering dissolve a lot normally. But last monday I couldn't find anything, but was still suffering. This probably messed with some perverted spiritual ego kind of control-fantasy of being able to reduce suffering at will when I feel like it. And it also just felt really strange. 

    I remembered this book called "Reichian therapy" which had an exercise where you look in the mirror as if you are looking at a stranger, so I did that, and that helped a lot. It gave me some feedback on how I felt, I guess. It made me feel more alive. I have done Reichian therapy every day now since tuesday, which helps. 

    I should mention I am 19 years old and have been meditating for the last two years, the 16 months of which I meditated and did Kriya yoga more than 3 hours a day on average, roughly. I put in so much energy into meditation and need to relax more, so I'm focussing more on relaxing and concentration types of meditation instead of insight meditation. Insight meditation creates more "fleeting" and unfamiliar and strange perceptions which can be a little ungrounding. So it is good to express myself into some form like writing or exercise, as to consume form instead of letting form consume me, so to speak. 

    Since tuesday morning I feel more calm and clear and as if my Real Self is shining through more clearly, but I still feel like I'm "picking up the pieces" and I'm still in the chaos of dissidentified thoughts, both of which monday evening was a more extreme version of, but this sort of chaos is not new. 

    I have been reading the book "Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha", which has a lot of maps and stages which I haven't familiarized myself with. I should probably just do that. 

    Anyway, I know this post is a little unclear and paints a rather incomplete picture. I'm just looking for some advice or anything that can help me navigate this. Grounding is important, but at the same time I want to progress spiritually. These two definetly are not totally at odds with each other but I'm still confused about it. Can someone shed some light on that as well, please?

     

     

  10. Posted

    41 minutes ago, Craigxt22 said:

    I need to read the entire thread, but looking to get into Kriya Yoga. This sounds like the next most powerful thing to phycedelics?

     

    How difficult is this to learn? it sounds quite complicated just from flicking through some of the pages in this thread.

    It is not that complicated. The techniques are detailled ans specific but not complicated. The biggest thing is surrender and devotion in my opinion. I recommend you don't learn it from this thread or youtube, but rather from a book, video series or ideally a guru. 

    I do think, like you say, it has the potential to be way stronger than meditation.

  11. Posted · Edited by Koeke

    I have only read half of "No Boundary" so far and skimmed through integral psychology and a brief history of everything. It seems to me that there is a lot of repetition in his books and between his books. Is a brief history of everything useful if you have read sex, ecology and spirituality? Is Integral spirituality useful if you have read The Religion of Tomorrow? 

    So what books are unnecessary if you have read certain books and is there a certain order in which you should read them?

    sorry if this topic doesn't belong on this subforum.

  13. Posted

    On 2-4-2021 at 10:56 AM, herghly said:

    @Koeke These experiences are normal, and will go away with more time practicing 

    Good. Have you experienced this as well? And could you give me an idea about what you mean when you say "these experiences"? 

    I feel like it is really important to have a flexible body (and especially back) when doing kriya. Otherwise you'll mess up some way of using your body properly. How right am I?

  15. Posted · Edited by Koeke

    So I meditate 1.5 hours per day and do kriya yoga 1.5 hours per day. Whenever I don't do either of these things for 4 hours or so, I get a bit agitated and my mind just feels so filthy (not in a moralistic or sexual way). How do I not get consumed by my egoic emotions during the day and especially when I have to read academic philosophy. I know it is a very common question but how do I maintain clarity during the day? I mentally chant mantras whenever I am free but this annoys me after a while.

    This post feels a bit silly. I guess I just need to let go or something. "I just feel  like I shouldn't have to feel so much resistance." Haha!

    Any thoughts on this?

     

  16. Posted · Edited by Koeke

    So I have been practicing kriya for 4 months and will do the third part of KP today for the first time. My results so far are pretty good.

    Sometimes when I do a kriya breath (Maha mudra, KP 1, KP 2, yoni mudra) the energy goes into my right shoulder and specifically into a muscle that is a bit tight. It doesn't hurt but it isn't pleasant either. This tension makes me "hold back" and not breathe (and thereby raising the prana) as intensely as I could. Does someone have any experience with this and if so what do you recommend I do?

    It says in the book that you need to make sure that you raise the energy via the sushumna and not via Ida and or pingala whilst practicing KP 3. I feel it going through the sushumna but also a bit into my shoulder. Any thoughts on this?

  20. Posted

    7 hours ago, Inliytened1 said:

     

    Now for me it took a week of meditation.    

    For what to happen? Awakening!?

    7 hours ago, Inliytened1 said:

    But for you, since you have put in so much work - why don't you take 5-MeO and just demolish the ego.  Do not fuck around if you want awakening at this stage.  If you want to experience God.

    Mmm..

    Do you agree with Leo and Martin Ball that 5 meo accelerates awakening by a lot? I haven't had a breakthrough so I'm still a bit sceptical.

  21. Posted

    1 hour ago, Nahm said:

    @Koeke

    Are you making money, affording your own place, supporting yourself, paying bills etc? 

    I have a job, but live with my parents.

    Why all these questions?

     

    Btw: how do you delete previous posts you wanted to quote (as seen below)?

    1 hour ago, Nahm said:

    @Koeke

    Are you making money, affording your own place, supporting yourself, paying bills etc? 

    10 hours ago, RedLine said:

     

  24. Posted · Edited by Koeke

     

    8 hours ago, Nahm said:

    Expressed what you really want in this life, such as onto a dreamboard?  Profoundly, deeply, unabashedly - actually. 

    Great question! Sex! And lots of it! ;)

    No, I don't know! Do you mean a life purpose? I don't have one. For now I just want to raise my consciousness know the Truth, keep learning other stuff and play music. I was wondering when I'll think I'm done raising my consciousness. It's a weird question because when your happy and at peace in the moment there's no need to 'raise' your consciousness. Sometimes I feel this way. Wanting to raise ones consciousness is more of a lifestyle of doing the work, I guess. 

    Learning stuff, playing music, playing sports etc are just hobbies, I don't consider them part of ...

    Mmm.. I guess I just want a relatively plain life, with the exception of Enlightenment. Maybe do some spiritual teaching, maybe research on psychedelics, meditation, neuroscience. I don't know.

    Is this the kind of answer you were trying to manifest in me?

  25. Posted

    I would like to add that I have been doing shamanic breathing for 5 months now and barely have emotional reactions. I remember Leo saying you might wake up crying. This is an extreme example of course, but the only thing shamanic breathing does for me, afterwards, is that it makes me more loving and accepting of me/reality. Thoughts don't annoy me as much etc. I find it hard to tell how much emotional purging happens.

    I don't know if this is relevant but I am 18 years old and I might be autistic (aspergers).