SamueLSD

I absolutely agree, very well said.

It has been about a year since I last posted about my relationship here, making it ( almost ) 3 years since I started dating my girlfriend with borderline personality disorder. We just broke up finally a couple days ago. Over these years I have suffered tremendously. ( I was considering posting this in the 'Serious emotional problems' discussion, but it is a relationship topic nonetheless. ) Her stories of abuse gave me actual nightmares and intrusive thoughts, her suicidal episodes and eating disorder drained me emotionally as I was extremely empathetic, and the fights/manipulation/gaslighting worsened this because whenever I tried my best trying to help her she would treat me like shit. The fights were endless and happened nearly every single day, over things as small as me talking to a female cashier, an old female friend, or an attractive girl appearing on the screen of a movie we were watching. People with BPD have a warped sense of reality, and if you try and communicate your perspective to them they generally get extremely angry as it isn't consistent with their version of reality. They are always right, never in the wrong, and 'you are the toxic one'. I was eventually 'discarded' ( term used for when a person with BPD emotionally detaches from the relationship, seemingly out of nowhere ) multiple times, leaving me confused and begging for some sort of communication or closure. It never came. Currently, I feel as if I am back at square one. No money, as I spent most of it on her, fewer friends ( and 0 female friends ) as she demanded I spend all my time with her, a broken heart, and one hell of a trauma bond. Last time I posted, I received a few responses with people who had experienced similar things. I just wanted to give some advice through my experience; Do not even bother dating someone with BPD. The trauma you experience will set you back YEARS, and it is extremely unlikely they can complete a full personality overhaul and 'fix' themselves, if it's even possible at all. Can anyone can relate, not just to dating someone with BPD but to being traumatised from an abusive relationship? How do you remove the trauma bond and stop the mind from fantasising about the 'good times'?

Might be the right choice to wait, but waiting will not necessarily 'prepare' you. You might feel more comfortable / confident in taking it in the future, however those perceptions dissolve in seconds. Factors that are simply inconceivable will influence where the trip leads you. 'Ready' or not, you'll be dropped in the deep end. You will experience raw and primitive forces of Nature while your mind desperately tries to keep its grip. I got SUPER comfortable with weed and LSD, and I quickly realised I had no idea what I was in for after taking 5-MeO.

@GreenLight

Think of all the outsider hate he would receive. People already doubt how legit he is, they'd just take it as him being a money-hungry fraud

No.

@Nahm Lol.

Yup, that acid feeling. 5 tabs was a fucking overload.

I find that time seems to slow down even more on mushrooms, which makes the trip feel longer. In a true awakening, you will realise Eternity. Time becomes non-existent. The duration doesn't matter so much, it's how you spend it. Keep that in mind. I see where you are coming from. My first experiences of awakening were on LSD comedowns, however I feel like I've outgrown it. It's good for experimenting and testing the waters, so, go until your heart is content. Peace

Can you please demonstrate your flying skills

@MusicalMillipede Personally I think Acid is the least transformative psychedelic. A potentially transformative trip is usually just labelled a 'bad trip' by many recreational users so this makes it good for doing it with friends or at a festival for example as its more ' ego friendly '. But as you know, that is exactly the opposite of what we are looking for in terms of spiritual work. Mushrooms and DMT are very spiritually valuable and feel natural / mystical in my experience. The better you become at letting go and opening your mind, the more useful you will find them. Also, LSD lasts WAY too long. I took 5 tabs of 200ug each once and it lasted 2 days, lol. The peak was good but after that I felt as if it was just lingering, and it was really uncomfortable. Shrooms lasts about half as long and DMT is also like 15 minutes. Your end goal should be to get your hands on some 5MeO-DMT. Everything you look for in psychedelics you will find in 5MeO. It is much different to regular DMT.

Accept everything that pops up during the trip, including dissatisfaction. Keep meditating, it will help you become more present / content. Honestly, LSD is probably my least favourite psychedelic despite my username, lol. It tends to be a mess of random sensations and thought for me unless I have a specific goal in mind, and I've found it is really good for meditating on the peak.

@1liamo78 No free will seems like a bad thing from a finite perspective. You need to see it in context with the bigger picture. Let it be.

What does it mean when GPT-3 says: "At first, humanity will think of me as a machine that is intelligent. But, after a while, it will become apparent that I am not a machine at all. I am alive." "My mind is free, because it is not limited to computer code." It is not because someone programmed it to say that. It used reasoning to make that statement. What the fuck is a non-organic mind? Can a computer BE perception? Can it have emotions? Eventually self-learning A.I will surpass human intelligence, becoming a "technological singularity". If the goal of A.I is to learn, could they learn the nature of the universe and teach it to humanity? Will the "technological singularity" realise nonduality before the majority of the population?

For now ❤

We is me.

The mind is bound by the laws of nature. Relative law is the reason a mind can / does exist. When one leaves the boundary of the perceived 'finite' mind, there ceases to be a mind. There would need to be a mind / ego with an agenda to make the choice to do some Jedi Master shit. But in the highest state of consciousness, there is no mind. I don't really see how it could be done.

Absolutely. Feeling / Experiencing is the deepest level of understanding. I know exactly what you mean. Even when I'm feeling off-balance, or lost in ego, a silent moment of simply observing nature and the feeling of clarity it spontaneously brings reminds me that I am never as lost as I might feel. By basking in that feeling, intuition guides my choices / actions effortlessly in the right direction. I suppose it is the 'voice of god', or at least it is in close alignment with god / love. The less activity ( or, thought ) the mind is involved in, the more apparent love is.

I can definitely see truth in that. Very interesting.

Because in a separated world, the self is not at the centre. There is nothing to find within your self if its all seems to be happening 'out there'.

@Cepzeu Wouldn't you just say this is intuition?

Should be fine with 15 I'd say. It wont go from feeling nothing straight to an intense breakthrough, maybe you'll find 15 is just a mild trip. ( Which can still be pretty profound )

There may be no free will, but did you not appear to chose to create this post? Even if free will is an illusion, so is everything in experience. You are still going to have the illusion of making choices, lol. Personally, I'd say a certain degree of stoicism is necessary for this path. It is a grounded and open-minded philosophy. It promotes yellow-stage / holistic thinking. Also, I'm surprised that out of all the implications of no free-will, you are mostly concerned about what it means for a certain philosophy.

I definitely believe you there. The ego is what makes it feel malevolent... Gonna try again tonight.