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He is enlightened part-time. Make sure to ask about the meaning of life between 12pm - 6pm on certain weekdays, or else you will get a dualistic answer.

All deception is imaginary. All deception is thinking. Therefore, if you believe that you can imagine yourself or think about yourself, you are susceptible to deception by the very nature of your imaginary existence. Anything imagined is susceptible to imagination.

If you look closely at death and impermanence it will make you feel very alive. Much more alive than shying away from it.

Legumes have always been too hard to digest IME. I think people get overly logical looking at nutritional value and discount how it genuinely makes them feel after they eat it and how intensive the digestion process it creates is. Starch is fine and easy to absorb for energy, it's good paired with something whole which has fiber and other nutrients to back it up, like wheat or potato. I don't have issues with grains if it is high quality.

Lmao

I heard my TV playing, and I swear it feels like the "entities" did that to distract me and trick me into opening my eyes. If you open your eyes during sleep paralysis it's much harder to escape IME because now there is visual stimuli to scare you. It is very strange, I saw a Youtube video of someone who had my exact same auditory hallucination. The consistency leads me to believe that the entities are real in some way.

You are experiencing sleep paralysis and maybe hypnagogic/hypnapompic hallucinations. Your fragmented sleep schedule caused it. The horror setting of the bad dream was an unlucky coincidence, but also somewhat related, as it interrupted your sleep quality allowing for the later sleep paralysis to occur. I know exactly what you mean when you say "you could think while falling asleep", that is the state/gateway for sleep paralysis. I had one once where a foreign voice "entered my head" and it was reading my thoughts back to me, my inner monologue was replaced by the voice of some female. Auditory hallucinations and physical sensations are a common occurence in such states. It won't happen again unless you switch up your sleep schedule again, that will boost its likelihood.

The sun is actually a selfish bastard, it gets super lazy at night and always abandons shift last minute. It has a love affair with gravity and don't think it wont abandon you for it.

The desire to quiet the mind is more mind, and it perpetuates more mind as well because it creates importance around the activity. A self-fulfilling prophecy, literally. Thinking happens in direct proportion to how important you think it is to think, it can almost be similar to a thought loop. If you identify with thinking it will happen simply out of a desire for the survival of that identity. If you identify with being someone who is able to not think, you will think about that as well.

It might be at this point.

He won't make a new video until he finds a camera which can record his alien transformation.

Lol

Yeah separating life from life tends to not work.

Mental illness and spirituality converge, of course. You can go about fixing it in a "spiritual" way or perspective, or something more scientific, both try to deal with the same problem. Enlightenment or no self is really unrelated though. Anything prior to genuine realization is basically limbo and has infinite variety in suffering or delusion.

Round it up to 20.

I believe you when you say it isn't purely mental, looks like something more physiological. Get it checked by some professional that can try to measure it. I find it ignorant to disregard professional help or medication, because chemicals can in fact change your state of being. If you are genuinely experiencing a "sense of self" beyond mentally-induced torture, that is biological in the same way that touching a stove and experiencing pain is biological. Uncomfortable sensations do exist and they can be mediated.

I was thinking the same thing lol.

True.

Are you saying you can't control your body? What happens if you try to stop yourself from exercising?

OP after posting his "contemplations" and then not elaborating further

I already speedran this thread with my first reply tbh /thread

Thanks, I'll make sure to give myself a warning. I also noticed it said "no denial of enlightenment" followed by "If you believe these things are BS, then this forum is just not for you", so I'll have to give Leo lots of warnings in return too.

You said you had a "permanent awakening" and there was a series of shifts and releases afterwards, leading to where you are now. Going from this, and if you say it is truly a physiological phenomenon instead of some mental resistance, I wonder if it is related to some kind of kundalini symptoms, I would look into that and see if the symptoms resonate. Aside from that, try looking for things that can effect the phenomenon, as you find in exercise for example. I find it interesting that music doesn't resonate anymore since I think that resonates emotionally for most people. Does doing something like a guided meditation make any difference?

Was thinking about telling them to go see Nahm or something, since he does face-to-face stuff. Also told them to see a professional. Aside from that, I can only plant the seeds for inspection through text on a screen, which may or may not be useful. Anything that leads to self-inquiry can be powerful. Anyways, not gonna act like I know exactly what they're experiencing, but there is some narrative about an ego desperately maintaining itself which hasn't been dissolved or dealt with.

You saw new colors? Those colors wouldn't necessarily exist on the test then.