As a beginner you should only focus on sitting with your eyes closed. When your mind gets a hang of the practice, it will do it on its own, despite what you’re doing. Until then, I advice that you stick with a normal meditation practice.

This is mostly a message of gratitude--to Leo.
Leo's channel and videos came to me at a time of need and now for me liberation has happened. The illusion is completely seen through. Suffering is gone, the sense of doership/agency is gone, separation is gone, meaning is gone. 
Thank you Leo for having your videos and this web site. They were an integral part of the profound shift that has happened. I want to tell my story briefly in case it inspires or helps anyone here.
Caveats:
I'm not interested in playing non-dual word games. I'll use 'regular' language so it's easier to understand. So-called 'enlightenment' is not a certifiable event. I'm not interested in arguing about whether or not I am really 'liberated'. I know my experience, and I’m not asking anyone to believe me. It doesn't matter. These are just words and concepts--pointers, not the truth. This is my experience. There are many paths. Go with what resonates for you. It's only a story, told by a fool, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.  
The Story
I first heard of enlightenment through zen in my early 20's - I somehow got an audio tape of 'The Way of Zen' by Alan Watts. I was intrigued, but thought liberation was out of reach for me, that it was only for monks or something. I did some zen and mindfulness reading in my 20's. Lots of Thich Nhat Hahn and some of the classics like Herrigel. Also some Taoism.
Then more life happened and as I got older, my suffering increased. I realized that I was very anxious and had some anger management issues. I saw everyone in the world as an idiot if they didn't do things the way I thought they should. I found Leo's channel and his videos helped with anxiety, getting more positive, and increased my emotional intelligence and mental control. I started to meditate again, this time seriously and it stuck right away. I easily got up to 45-60 minutes a day. I loved it.
Along the way, I re-discovered non-duality through Leo's videos.I read many books and watched countless videos on YouTube. I watched a lot of the 'big name' gurus like Mooji and Adyashanti, read some Peter Ralston.
Then I found Rupert Spira from forums and Leo's book list. Rupert showed me my true nature. His pointers were so clear. I was looking for 'the answer' to "Who am I?" and somehow when he pointed it was immediately revealed. I did a couple of retreats with Rupert. They were beautiful experiences and the energy was intense. Rupert's teaching is close to Ramana Maharshi's and is sometimes called 'the direct path' because you go to your true nature and you stay there. That is, in essence, what I did. My daily meditation became this--abiding as awareness (it's also called things like 'resting in being' or 'going to the I am'--it's being in contact with your core/source). Rupert's yoga meditations helped dissolve tensions in the body and really helped deal with suffering (and there was a lot on the way).
I discovered Roger Castillo, and though I originally dismissed him, he may have been one of the most helpful teachers for me. He has a practical, bottom-up approach and it helped me really really see that there is no doer in me or anyone--that this is all just happening. That may have been 'it' but it's hard to say.
At some point a deep peace set in where there used to be self-referential thoughts (something left, nothing was gained). At another point, all the meaning dropped from the world. Neither were set points in time, I can't say exactly when they happened, but when I looked back I noticed them.
There are still more insights and integration just seems to keep happening.
For what it's worth, Jim Newman and Tony Parsons messages resonated well, but I was mostly just agreeing at that point. There is some energy there, though--they are to me like living koans. They are not for early on I don't think, but their message can stop thinking cold, revealing what can't be thought or known. So beautiful.
 
These things may have helped (who knows):
I always had a curious, exploring nature. Always seeking. For example, I have two bars from "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" tattooed on my arm. There was questioning of reality from an early age, and a feeling that something isn't right--that I am not of this world or am somehow different. I have always had the ability to see and be comfortable with paradox. I had a near-death experience as a teen. What I felt when I gave in to the 'fact' that I was going to die was the same way I feel now. It was a very early glimpse but I thought it was 'God' at the time (I was right in a way). Teachers that really affected me (or seemed to):
Rupert Spira Roger Castillo Jim Newman Other teachers I resonated with at some point and at some level:
Ramana Maharshi Tom Das Paul Smit Gautam Sachdeva Fred Davis (he may seem kind of kooky but something in his energy spoke to me--it's not all about words) Lisa Cairns Tony Parsons Gangaji Tips for seekers:
Follow your heart, not your head Question all assumptions Believe nothing The only way out is through Expect shit to come up You may need to clear energies that help hold the idea of separation together. Rupert Spira's yoga meditations helped me a lot in dissolving the physical sense of being a body. You must explore. This actually can't be known. It is prior to thought. It could be thought of like this: There is awakening, which I would call having a peak experience or glimpse. You momentarily contact what is and wow! Is it amazing. These apparently can last from minutes to weeks or even months (for me it was days). Then there is realization, which is a visceral 'wow' or 'aha' moment of getting it, but it's not over. This seems to be a result of contemplation. It almost bubbles up from inside you and you see how it is so intellectually-ish. Then there is liberation, when this realization is taken into life and seen in enough cases that self-referential thoughts fall away and everything simply becomes the way it is. It is so simple in the end. So ordinary and obvious. There are 'awake' people who never take this step.  It is important for suffering to fall away. Watch yourself like a hawk Towards the end especially, I did a lot of examining of what was going on. I would do quick 'rewinds' in my head of my experience and tried to determine if I actually did what I just 'did' or it just happened. This alone sparked awakenings/glimpses. Every thought is untrue. The core of it all is to investigate these beliefs and discover their untruth:
I am a separate, individual entity in control of what I do. Actually, there is no doer in you or anyone. This is all just happening and it's aware of itself. I need circumstances to go the way I want them to in order to be happy and/or fulfilled. Actually, you do not need life to turn out a certain way to be happy. You are already complete, whole, and fulfilled at your core. Find your core (hint: it's the only thing that is always here).  
Thanks again Leo, and peace to all of you.
Ken
 
PS - Leo, you were so right. You are a strange loop. 

The ego can't cease seeking, it is the seeking energy itself. The path is utterly hopeless. The ego will turn non seeking into seeking. There is nothing the ego can do, absolutely nothing. It goes around in a circle. There is no final destination, there is no "there." Nobody is "there." Nothing is "here."

I had this insight a couple of days ago after watching "How Fear Works" part 1, and I figured someone in here might relate so I'm going to share it.
I was walking my dog, reflecting like I usually do, and I came up with the thought of monitoring my micro-fears like Leo had suggested. I did that for a while, and then I put my attention on the activity that I was doing in the moment, which was reflecting. Don't get me wrong, I find it a rather pleasant activity, but I do it all. the. time. That is, unless I'm gathering new info. So I started wondering why I'm never really taking a break from it. Why am I so addicted to thinking and generating new insights? And then it hit me.
I have a strong fear of being surpassed intellectually. It's very real. I can even recall abandoning certain ideas for the sole reason of them becoming mainstream. I feel very calm and relaxed when I'm reflecting, and I enjoy the places where it takes me. I feel like I'm growing. But when I stop doing it, the fear hits. If I still the mind, I will not grow. And what will eventually happen when my understanding is not growing? People will surpass me intellectually. People will see things clearer than I do. And thus, my value in the world will diminish. I will have nothing to show for. I will become boring. Dull. Unineresting. No value. And most frighteningly, I will be stuck at the place where I'm at now. No new insights, no growth. Just ... nothing.
I feel good about sharing this with you. I feel like it might help some people. I feel valuable. But I would not have been able to share this with you hadn't it been for reflection. I would not have been where I am today without it, not even close. That's what makes it so hard. Because the rewards of reflection are so obvious. For each new insight, I feel like I'm growing and seeing things more clearly. So I feel like I can never get enough. The hunger is insatiable. But at the same time, there's this fear of not doing it. And that makes me wonder what lies on the other side. It could be growth, or it could be stagnation. It seems like I just have to take the plunge in order to find out.

That's a very good insight about your fear.
But you must take it deeper. What is it about your identity which allows this fear to have any teeth at all for you?
Obviously you've somehow made intellect an significant part of your identity (of who you think you are). So you fear losing that sense of intellectual self.
Contemplate that. Try to get more clear about it.
And of course you know the ultimate solution here will be to surrender that intellectual self. You must bite the bullet that you will have no intellectual advantage over anyone else. At first you will resist accepting this because it will feel like a serious loss of meaning. You will feel like your life will become worse as a result. It will feel empty. But that emptiness is Truth. That emptiness is the True Self which you are avoiding. That emptiness leads to liberation.
Remember, a big part of waking up is surrendering meaning. Especially those things in life you find most meaningful, which for you probably means the meaning which comes with intellectual pursuits and knowledge acquisition. Notice that knowledge acquisition is a subtle form of greediness and materialism. Like the businessman hoards money the intellectual hoards ideas and insights.
Hoarding of ideas and insights must ultimately be surrendered to attain the final liberation. Because your truest Self is more empty and insubstantial than an insight or a piece of knowledge.
Of course don't make the mistake of demonizing or rejecting insight. Just don't build an identity out of it. That's all.

Perhaps you could benefit by examining your current state of balance in life.
The long walks, contemplation and journaling are all important parts of your journey, and perhaps this current fear you describe is an indicator of a tipping-point at which your balance is slightly out.
Are there areas of life you aren't committing enough time and resources to? If that is the case then that could be behind the mechanism of your fear communicating a message to you.
I am still struggling to commit myself to projects and habits that i desire to have in my life, so I speak from this perspective. When i suppress my plans (whether it's through distraction, procrastination etc.) and become unconscious / ignorant of them, i usually get the message via fear, low mood or similar.