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To unfortunately be even more confusing and seemingly unhelpful, the Truth of the situation is more precisely held in the statement that the answer is neither something nor nothing. Both of those poles of dualistic conception are rudimentary Homo Erectus scratchings on a forgotten cave wall compared to what actually is/isn’t. There is also no something which can prevent something from becoming nothing. Even something and nothing are really downplayed words of the more fundamental duality of Existence vs. Nonexistence or you could say Experience vs. Non-Experience. Furthermore, you could also say God vs. Nibbana (this is specifically referring to the definition of Nibbana which covers cessation as opposed to the waking life of one who is an Arahant). If anyone is sure of the absolute nature of one pole above the other, I can almost certainly guarantee you that they haven’t explored the true nature of their preferred pole far enough to be speaking with conviction in a accurate sense. Please do not look at your struggle to grasp the nature of these concepts and your questions as a basic or simple thing. The core of this goes back to the most advanced human beings who did not have a real understanding or answer then, do not have one now, and will never have one. Not only is this problem ungraspable, it is unreleasable. You’re doing a damn good job for even caring enough to ponder such a thing with serious intent, and it will get you far as you unravel it to find it even more raveled than before. If you’re interested to go deeper, I encourage you to spend an hour researching the Two Truths in Buddhism. Here is a link to start that: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Two_truths_doctrine Feel free to shoot me a PM for discussion on this tasty treat of insight sustenance.

His model has two levels after God with emptiness/Arahants being at level 4 of 5 and the Natural State being level 5 which is enlightenment which has no levels to it.

Source = Appearance or in other words all the stories behind something that you have for understanding are empty, including emptiness Where do DMT realms come from on a practical level? Mind.

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Work out 3-5 days per week. Start taking classes again to continue working toward a bachelor’s degree. Do a solo three day retreat with vipassana, cultivating jhanas, and fire casina at home then do two 10 day formal meditation retreats of either vipassana or fire casina. Clean up my diet.

I recommend reading Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha by Daniel Ingram for getting an idea of where you’re at. He has some phenomenologically-precise ways for gauging such things. You can read the whole book for free online here: https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/ Another thing I would recommend is speaking to masters directly. I’ve spoken to both Daniel Ingram and Dhammarato for free. They are both quite available if you’re interested. Send me a PM if you want details on that. I’m also happy to chat with you sometime. Dhammarato has online sangha video/voice calls on Skype multiple times per week for his UK and US sangha groups.

I did not experience any anxiety. I would not want you to expect it to be like that though. People have very different reactions to it, and for many people it’s quite challenging. I’m kind of an intensity and weirdness junkie with a lot of trips and similar high consciousness experiences under my belt, so I think that helped make it a pleasant experience. I think it’s good to be fairly experienced with other psychedelics and spiritual states first to set yourself up for a better chance of “success” with it. No, by pattern recognition I mean seeing and feeling patterns in things like furniture, wallpaper, etc. much more vividly and noticeably. The patterns felt to have a sort of “spirit” or personality to them although it wasn’t interpreted literally as that, but it’s hard to describe without using those or similar words. It had some similarity to one of my first experience mushroom trips but was more intense.

@Loba I tried it a couple times. I found the effects were very pleasant. It certainly has a unique power to it to affect certain aspects of the psychedelic sphere other substances didn’t seem to touch on as much for me. I had the odd sensation of the left half of my field of consciousness being rolled up into the room as if that whole part of consciousness was like a yoga mat just getting rolled up. Quite strange. The right half remained normal in comparison, but pattern recognition became quite heightened with some strong emotions seeming to be attached to the patterns. I just enjoyed the strangeness of the experience the most. It’s not something you come across often as a human. It introduced a lot of new tactile sensations to me.

I’ve taken 10 tabs of LSD at one time, several 5 gram+ mushroom trips, 80x salvia, 160x salvia, and ayahuasca in ceremony as well as a number of medium dose LSD and mushroom trips. You could roll all of those experiences into one and it would not come close to the experience I was describing with dabs. Many people have reported stronger effects with THC after “opening the door” usually with either a number of high dose psychedelic trips, having built a high baseline with meditation/other spiritual practices, or both. Calling it garbage neurochemistry was probably not the right way to say it. It’s probably better to say typical neurochemistry. I haven’t ran 20 years of research in a university setting to verify my theory. It’s been a trend I’ve seen in plenty of people who raise their baseline consciousness and/or alter their neurochemistry with psychedelics. It does seem quite clear from what I’ve seen that some people have an easier time having permanent shifts in how their brains process THC than others. I just happened to be pretty lucky with it which is why my results might sound unbelievable to some. “Have you genuinely looked? Have you studied other cultures, and read their mysticism, travelled around talking to teachers, or are you merely assuming this after not really looking? Once again, this kind of talk reeks of the need to feel special. Also- how do you know that these experiences you had were even facets of awakening? Are you assuming this?” I have genuinely looked. Essentially all I do in my free time has been focused on spirituality for 8 years, probably an average of 3-5 hours a day if I had to guess. I could be wrong about what others have or have not experienced. It was just my analysis speaking authentically. Maybe they aren’t facets of awakening in your book. They certainly feel to be such to me after having experienced them. The difference in intensity between my own high dose psychedelic trips and how THC has affected me is not an assumption. It was experienced directly.

Contemplation is a great way to progress. Even if the answers are wrong, it’s a process of growth to work with the questions in the aim to find answers in my experience

Suffering x awakening > no suffering x awakening A cake tastes good because you eat less tasty shit regularly

The strongest trip of my life was on dabs. I used to do pretty large dose dab experiences once a week or so for a while. That time it only took a medium dose for an exponentially greater effect. If I had to put a number on it, which is hard to do, it was 100x stronger than any of heroic doses of LSD or shrooms. I had a completely life-like angel laying next to me in my bed with eyes open, experienced closed eye visuals as strong as what people describe on breakthrough doses of N-N DMT, could feel what seemed like millions of organic sensations in my body, had a complete out of body experience where I could sense my body laying down in bed yet I had a second body standing up out of the bed, and many more intense things. There are probably at least 50 unique things I’ve had happen just from THC which seem to be experiences and/or facets of awakening I’ve not heard other people discuss. It’s potentially the most versatile psychedelic that exists. The issue is that most people have garbage neurochemistry and/or baseline consciousness and sadly cannot experience true psychedelic effects from it. 100-400mg edible experiences have also given me some huge trips as well as sometimes even just one or two hits from a vape pen. Just enjoy the experiences and do your best to contemplate and integrate afterward. In my opinion, it is the most effective substance for raising baseline consciousness consistently as it is strong enough to do this if you have done enough spiritual work/other psychedelics yet also much safer to the body/brain than serotonergic psychedelics used regularly.

They are both true and both false ? Of course they should work without conflict when done right. As in there is no resistance as they have both fallen from importance to a sense of self which isn’t even there.

Maybe it’s God’s will for you to fight it?

Natural State > Being a “God” I love the ambition. You should read into the 5 realms in Buddhism. You are very similar to myself. Look at the limitations of the titan realm. You should pursue these passions like wanting to be a god, but also realize they are funny little pesky fabrications. All of your highest desires are bullshit, and so are mine. Don’t get so attached to them, but enjoy them. Trying to be God is what keeps you as just a god. God doesn’t try to be God. It just is. That’s the feminine power you’re missing. You’ve gotta let go sometimes. Let go enough and you’ll see you’re always doing everything with absolutely no effort. The Absolute will watch you develop some God capabilities for yourself then show up 1 trillion years later as a cockroach with an 8 pack and take a shit on your pesky creations for your own growth. This stuff is nonsense compared to the highest capabilities of consciousness.

You can experience less than 1% of the suffering you did “as an ego.” I did almost 8 years of very intense and at times dangerous practice before I even reached stream entry. Those first 8 years were only 0.1-1% as “conscious” as I am today at their highest heroic dose psychedelic awakenings compared to how I now am moment-to-moment 6 months after stream entry. I thought I had made some type of important progress having God Consciousness awakenings and things of the sort which was completely infantile compared to the bigger fish you’ll find in the Natural State. I’ve done it and turned it into baseline shifts in consciousness which only get better overall as time goes on whether you want to call me an “enlightened one”, normal person, or beef taco. There’s nothing impossible or extraordinary about it in some regards, yet without certain karmic conditions, it is rather improbable for many people. With this much engagement on actualized, I would say you almost certainly have the right karmic conditions in place to realize this for yourself in this lifetime if you want to work at it consistently with the understanding it is 100% possible. How to get there is a one man question and one man answer. No one can teach it. The Tao flows it out of itself through your experience once it wants to. The teachers, deities, buddhas, awakenings, and ego’s efforts are all just a cosmic dream with no dreamer. All efforts are never your efforts. They are illusory. The “True Self”/“True No-Self” is completely uncontainable. Just a matter of time. The highest human story of awakening is a peanut compared to your potential as Self, but it is an evolutionary process. There’s more to come beyond anything we collectively heard of or imagined as a species. Reality is Absolute Madness. That is the heart of the creativity it possesses. Human spirituality is dry, logical, and boring compared to Reality. What are your main spiritual practices? How long have you been sticking with one that isn’t producing noticeable results? Be adaptive in your approach. Don’t make try to make sandwiches (progress) with stale bread (currently ineffective methods). This doesn’t mean to drop any methods long term. You’ll always be able to pick them up and use them even more effectively and enjoyably with higher levels of development.

Watch this @johnlocke18 I can attest to its accuracy from my direct experience.

Some good points here.

The closer I get to this “thing”, the more I realize that I just want to be like I wanted to be as a child. I want to be a Samurai. I want to be a giant red dragon defending its hoard effortlessly against the best of the best of the the petty humanoid wizards, warriors, thieves, etc. I want to be Yami Yugo from Yu-Gi-Oh. I want to be Legolas. I want to be a wizard. I want to be now just what I wanted to be. Maybe Neuralink 3.0 + VR + 5-MeO + Datura - saturated fat will get me there. Any suggestions/methods to speed this up? I suppose lucid dreaming would be a little preview if mastered.

Hmm, good idea ?

Agreed.

JESUS IS KING. Namaste ?? ❤️

It’s transcended mania in many ways, at this point at least. The key is to learn to fuse the mania/higher spiritual states with your normal life such that you can operate respectfully in public no matter what is going on internally. I’m not saying manic elements aren’t in my life — they certainly are to a degree. I just am not being run by them anymore. I’m using them as tools. When you choose to create a strong routine and push yourself as a bipolar person with the right foundation of personal and spiritual development, it becomes a lot more controlled.

Short and sweet 2 minute video. You won’t awaken as much in a holistic and balanced way if you aren’t pursuing other avenues of self-actualization. Next watch this if you want to live life to the fullest: This video was recorded on my bike ride/walk (I’m not fit enough today to bike the whole way, but I’ll do my best to be fit enough tomorrow) to the gym. I wake up every day at 4:34 am. The best way to beat bipolar insomnia is to wake up early and work your ass all fucking day. I used to have problems with punctuality and waking up early a year ago. I was 15 minutes to 1 hour late to work for about 8-10 months straight. None of this would’ve been possible without stream entry. Reward yourself for every disciplined and self-controlled action you take. “When I can meditate well for five minutes, I can go eat that piece of toast.” “When I ride my bike to the gym at 5 am, I get to use the massage chair at the gym.” “When I finish my workout, I can go to Starbucks and buy a tasty drink.” Etc…

Can a mod move this to the self-actualization sub forum please?