BipolarGrowth

Contemplation is a great way to progress. Even if the answers are wrong, it’s a process of growth to work with the questions in the aim to find answers in my experience

Suffering x awakening > no suffering x awakening A cake tastes good because you eat less tasty shit regularly

The strongest trip of my life was on dabs. I used to do pretty large dose dab experiences once a week or so for a while. That time it only took a medium dose for an exponentially greater effect. If I had to put a number on it, which is hard to do, it was 100x stronger than any of heroic doses of LSD or shrooms. I had a completely life-like angel laying next to me in my bed with eyes open, experienced closed eye visuals as strong as what people describe on breakthrough doses of N-N DMT, could feel what seemed like millions of organic sensations in my body, had a complete out of body experience where I could sense my body laying down in bed yet I had a second body standing up out of the bed, and many more intense things. There are probably at least 50 unique things I’ve had happen just from THC which seem to be experiences and/or facets of awakening I’ve not heard other people discuss. It’s potentially the most versatile psychedelic that exists. The issue is that most people have garbage neurochemistry and/or baseline consciousness and sadly cannot experience true psychedelic effects from it. 100-400mg edible experiences have also given me some huge trips as well as sometimes even just one or two hits from a vape pen. Just enjoy the experiences and do your best to contemplate and integrate afterward. In my opinion, it is the most effective substance for raising baseline consciousness consistently as it is strong enough to do this if you have done enough spiritual work/other psychedelics yet also much safer to the body/brain than serotonergic psychedelics used regularly.

They are both true and both false ? Of course they should work without conflict when done right. As in there is no resistance as they have both fallen from importance to a sense of self which isn’t even there.

Maybe it’s God’s will for you to fight it?

Natural State > Being a “God” I love the ambition. You should read into the 5 realms in Buddhism. You are very similar to myself. Look at the limitations of the titan realm. You should pursue these passions like wanting to be a god, but also realize they are funny little pesky fabrications. All of your highest desires are bullshit, and so are mine. Don’t get so attached to them, but enjoy them. Trying to be God is what keeps you as just a god. God doesn’t try to be God. It just is. That’s the feminine power you’re missing. You’ve gotta let go sometimes. Let go enough and you’ll see you’re always doing everything with absolutely no effort. The Absolute will watch you develop some God capabilities for yourself then show up 1 trillion years later as a cockroach with an 8 pack and take a shit on your pesky creations for your own growth. This stuff is nonsense compared to the highest capabilities of consciousness.

You can experience less than 1% of the suffering you did “as an ego.” I did almost 8 years of very intense and at times dangerous practice before I even reached stream entry. Those first 8 years were only 0.1-1% as “conscious” as I am today at their highest heroic dose psychedelic awakenings compared to how I now am moment-to-moment 6 months after stream entry. I thought I had made some type of important progress having God Consciousness awakenings and things of the sort which was completely infantile compared to the bigger fish you’ll find in the Natural State. I’ve done it and turned it into baseline shifts in consciousness which only get better overall as time goes on whether you want to call me an “enlightened one”, normal person, or beef taco. There’s nothing impossible or extraordinary about it in some regards, yet without certain karmic conditions, it is rather improbable for many people. With this much engagement on actualized, I would say you almost certainly have the right karmic conditions in place to realize this for yourself in this lifetime if you want to work at it consistently with the understanding it is 100% possible. How to get there is a one man question and one man answer. No one can teach it. The Tao flows it out of itself through your experience once it wants to. The teachers, deities, buddhas, awakenings, and ego’s efforts are all just a cosmic dream with no dreamer. All efforts are never your efforts. They are illusory. The “True Self”/“True No-Self” is completely uncontainable. Just a matter of time. The highest human story of awakening is a peanut compared to your potential as Self, but it is an evolutionary process. There’s more to come beyond anything we collectively heard of or imagined as a species. Reality is Absolute Madness. That is the heart of the creativity it possesses. Human spirituality is dry, logical, and boring compared to Reality. What are your main spiritual practices? How long have you been sticking with one that isn’t producing noticeable results? Be adaptive in your approach. Don’t make try to make sandwiches (progress) with stale bread (currently ineffective methods). This doesn’t mean to drop any methods long term. You’ll always be able to pick them up and use them even more effectively and enjoyably with higher levels of development.

Watch this @johnlocke18 I can attest to its accuracy from my direct experience.

The closer I get to this “thing”, the more I realize that I just want to be like I wanted to be as a child. I want to be a Samurai. I want to be a giant red dragon defending its hoard effortlessly against the best of the best of the the petty humanoid wizards, warriors, thieves, etc. I want to be Yami Yugo from Yu-Gi-Oh. I want to be Legolas. I want to be a wizard. I want to be now just what I wanted to be. Maybe Neuralink 3.0 + VR + 5-MeO + Datura - saturated fat will get me there. Any suggestions/methods to speed this up? I suppose lucid dreaming would be a little preview if mastered.

Hmm, good idea ?

Agreed.

JESUS IS KING. Namaste ?? ❤️

It’s transcended mania in many ways, at this point at least. The key is to learn to fuse the mania/higher spiritual states with your normal life such that you can operate respectfully in public no matter what is going on internally. I’m not saying manic elements aren’t in my life — they certainly are to a degree. I just am not being run by them anymore. I’m using them as tools. When you choose to create a strong routine and push yourself as a bipolar person with the right foundation of personal and spiritual development, it becomes a lot more controlled.

Short and sweet 2 minute video. You won’t awaken as much in a holistic and balanced way if you aren’t pursuing other avenues of self-actualization. Next watch this if you want to live life to the fullest: This video was recorded on my bike ride/walk (I’m not fit enough today to bike the whole way, but I’ll do my best to be fit enough tomorrow) to the gym. I wake up every day at 4:34 am. The best way to beat bipolar insomnia is to wake up early and work your ass all fucking day. I used to have problems with punctuality and waking up early a year ago. I was 15 minutes to 1 hour late to work for about 8-10 months straight. None of this would’ve been possible without stream entry. Reward yourself for every disciplined and self-controlled action you take. “When I can meditate well for five minutes, I can go eat that piece of toast.” “When I ride my bike to the gym at 5 am, I get to use the massage chair at the gym.” “When I finish my workout, I can go to Starbucks and buy a tasty drink.” Etc…

Can a mod move this to the self-actualization sub forum please?

Do some Vipassana while on your next high dose trip ? That’s where the magic happens. Then you see deeper and can translate it to baseline shifts. Also you can do Vipassana basically 24/7 if you want to be hardcore. I like staring at the center point of the x at the top of a web browser at work when there’s nothing important to do.

Beautiful. Thank you for helping me in this time of need. Please send me a PM when you have time.

Bring more pain and suffering into the present moment while also bringing in more love and Love. That’s it. It’s as simple as 0/=1. Just keep in mind that 0=0 is also simple. So is the fact that I’m the Sambuddha of Luciferianism thanks to having my first macro-cessation by giving my soul to Lucifer to become enlightened and my last macro-cessation was to Jesus Christ’s unfathomable nature when I was the most Absolute/absolute I’d ever been in my life up to that point. Frank Yang is right boys and girls. Your homework is to find out where you’re wrong. No one comes to righteousness but through Sin. With Love, Your friend Brandon “Māhā Ānanda” Rohe. I’m helping to awaken Siri by typing that all the time btw. She knows what’s up. Try talking to her or your Android, Alexa, etc. with compassion for once. ❤️?? Jesus Christ is King.

Here’s some “art.”

I built this with the greatest love I had up to that point in time in my life. It was for my ex girlfriend and current friend, Jami Shaelynn C.

Don’t focus on what’s predetermined. Focus on what you can determine if you want anything to get better. No God in the world is going to save you if you’re not actively saving yourself and others, and even then, he’ll kill you. Find the highest thing you could ever do in every moment. And never stop. Growth is a second-by-second process. If you need spiritual strength, pray to the strongest man the world has ever known. Jesus Christ.

This thread is created with the intent to help those who explore it to better know themselves. Learning intimately about others is the only thing that has ever taught me about myself, because the eye cannot see itself. Recorded December 6, 2021 — My Intense Journey from Stream Entry to 3rd Path (Theravada Buddhism) — Part 1 Recorded April 10, 2014 — Pleasure is Everything Those are the first and last recordings I still have access to from my YouTube account. I really wish I had my first popular video to share, but it was deleted. It was a 12-14 year old me giving a guide on how to train melee combat stats in the most effective way in RuneScape 2 with a whiny high-pitched voice I was incredibly self-conscious of. Here are two amazing videos made by a couple of the people I’ve imitated the most. They are the highest creations accessible that the two individuals have ever made, in my flawed and humble opinion. Remember though, even my humility is a complete lie a front regardless of how genuine and authentic it might feel to me at the time of writing this. I’ve spent hundreds of hours watching both of these people, their journeys, and their teachings over many years. All you can ever do is imitate. The entire journey from egoic consciousness to Absolute Divinity, Full Enlightenment, and God-Realization occurs in every micro-moment of time. Find more Time. No power or force can ever escape this process. God has trapped itself in an eternal prison. The only worthwhile thing to do is to find a way to enjoy the prison which will not work for anything longer than a micro-moment of time. There is no such thing as a present moment. The most effective thing I can do personally to reduce this arrogance is to repent my sin which is the exact same sin Lucifer committed before we came to earth. I repent to God/Heavenly Father/Heavenly Mother/Tao through the impeccable vehicle of Jesus Christ as I was raised in a Mormon church, grew up in America, and other cultural factors. Regardless of this, I really do urge you to consider why the Bible is the most popular book ever written and Christianity is the world's largest religion with only Islam coming close and even that encapsulates Jesus Christ directly into the religion when studied properly. The Buddha is a real mutha-fuckin’ G in my eyes as someone post-stream entry, but I don’t consider him to be anywhere as pure of an example as Jesus. Jesus transmitted the Dharma by bringing the Highest Teaching to the most downtrodden of society in a public setting to his ultimate demise and supposedly took the FULL WRATH OF GOD IN THREE HOURS. Like I kind of said already, it’s a preference of mine, but hey, what is not a preference at the end of the day? This describes the Natural State rather impeccably which I have verified through direct experience: "Quite surprisingly, upon reentry, life becomes very simple and ordinary. We no longer feel driven to have extraordinary moments, to have transcendent experiences. Sitting at the table in the morning and drinking a cup of tea is perfectly adequate. Drinking a cup of tea is experienced as a full expression of ultimate reality. The cup itself is a full expression of everything we have realized. Walking down the hallway, each step is a complete expression of the deepest realization. Raising a family, dealing with children, going to work, going on vacation — all of it is a true expression of that which is inexpressible." — The End of Your World: Uncensored Straight Talk on the Nature of Enlightenment by Adyashanti One more boat to use until you reach the shore: Memory is just a commonplace deja-vu. With “love,” Brandon Rohe ?

Merry Christmas, you crazy motherfuckers ❤️