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how would be your mind if you were born on a island without any humans ? real or not, just go through this mental visualisation without any drug, work hard on what kind of guy you would be and what you would believe in if you were only an human living alone on an island. how would you think your belief would build and stack this way ? would you be angry against the fruit to not being efficient ? of course you can, or not. then it is to you to work upon fruit. most humans need movements, did you read marc aurèle ? stoicism is not in deny of reality, could be that what you lack of right now. I m not saying darkness is not real, but it is and is not.

are video games not already a catalyst for our dark monkey pulsion ? We can't transcend darkness into fairy ? we don't know what we are not aware of. sure there is lot of bad, but porn, probably reduced seriously rape. ( STILL PROBLEMS OFC, but we all try it out ) shoot games allowed people to always kill each others without doing it "for real", violent pulsion catalysed. maybe one day, if no one lack of something, there will be no "darkness" but to see and believe that you have to transcend the mecanic "need/desire" inside your mind. don't comit bs death, take a huge dose of psychedelics then and ask all your questions, can't be worst than your current state, would it be ? maybe humans would transfert their minds in a biologic body without need & lack, and so without egoic need, would that still work, I m no authority on the question. I cannot tell you that is possible, I don't know, but I m not sure it's not possible neither. A world where judgement and hate doesn't exist is very possible, you can maybe not experience it fully in your lifetime, but it's not even sure, internet is changing the collective subconscious in radical ways.

What lack life to be great for you ? All Dreams could be true. You could defeat darkness from the world. At one point embrass it. Then Come back

Yep good stuff resonate. Could you link share the content ?

listen all the video of leo before doing psychedelics, until it becomes a real choice and a reflected one; Don't do them if you're not knowing what you set your mind for.

I want to rewatch everything. But this is a bit old. I m hungry for audio teaching. Robert Sapolsky introduction is great. Will listen again prob it has been years. Does some of you has better content in the same veins ? Would be grateful.

Imagination is a feature of god will. Everything is imagination. Cling to imagination is clinging to truth. Believing all your imagination is true that is delusion. Imagination create the mouvement to real creation

Fuck I m always crying

Would you say that there is a delusion vs non delusional kind ? How do I become wisdom and not deluded ? Where is the difference ?

You are close of something there. Where others are drawn in their own cumulated self mind story.

This. But after awakening to 'no meta' this need years aswell of rebuilding yourself. It's like washing the os computer of the old trash and using new softwares to rework properly. Or maybe even a lifetime of work you never too wake.

I had this phase once, some call it the anal ventriloquism

people are not animals, yes they are, but don't scope them on this lense we are all this "stupid animal" even if you include yourself, it means subconsciously you think of yourself as part of the collective stupidity, we all are, but a man accept to work on what you call a misstakes is already on the path of the warrior, where 90% of people will never even try to be better than an animal in a wheel. What is an animal really ? do you feel hate for the stupidity or dysfunction of an animal ? I feel pity and want to fix them. I started to understand that I have a passion for humans understanding ( deeply understand them, not always to manipulate and get something ) more to understand them and fix their "mental issues" if I can pretend to help for it. ( I try to be very hard and authentic aswell, people love me a lot, or hate me a lot, some truth hurt, but some people still love it ) accept yourself as you are, don't beat yourself by thinking you're lesser or any kind of bullshit, you're trying to be better, and that's already big game. maybe relation are not for you right now, see I didn't have a gf for years, but I didn't suffer from a lack really. ( only the belief that I lacked of someone ) this will be idiotic to say, but I m almost very happy to not have any relationship before my own "self improvement" truly, it would have lead me in many dysfunctionnal activity to live away of "my good life", I m happy to have been pushed by life at the right time. But in this state I was not aware of many dynamic of life, and would have been probably corrupted. not to say that it can't happen to me, I'll just try to lead my life and mind as a true samurai and live for the best

living happy and without any egoic authority telling you how to think and live at all. having the power to live fully of my creativity.

nice video, but I think I already catched this before meeting my gf, I didn't look for the high from a romance, but I really wanted to build a connection with someone and trying to understand. I was already aware of the emptiness of being with someone for a need of sex or to be coherent with society. it's hard to magnetize the right people, but this work is possible with many enlightment experiences and creativity. starting on mud doesn't build castle. finding a good ground and being aware of the authenticity of the relation. I think this is healthy to ask yourself, can I truly love this person if I could not have sex with her ? ( not in the practice, but you get my point, you should have more to your relation than sex ) but maybe that's only my view of relation, but someone who doesn't want to communicate properly and I cannot respect as much as myself, this is unhealthy. I even find my girlfriend giving me inspiration. She has true power inside I can feel. Am I deluded ? maybe not, cause I already showed her my vulnerability, and she told me about her. but for me it's a plane, life is a plane, so a relation is just a side of my own travel to me. ( in the bigger picture ) most relation are toxics because most people do it for "social imagery" or "want for sex". They don't focus on having an healthy and good relationship for themself. They become dissonant because of the lie they have been feed with, and they met just the mirror of their own bs, hence they believe relation are like this. sort of a circle of bs on yourself. if your mind is fos I find that people fos are aswell attracted to you I think if we transcend this kind of social programming bs, we can create better relation and be creative in our own way about it.

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what are you looking for in a relation ? are you genuinely interested by knowing someone else ? or is that just for sex and not feeling alone ? one is coming from love, the other /neediness/lack. and if you're a bit "neurotic" yourself, you'll attract girl with aswell some neurotic problems, ( but we all have, just try to find one, as crazy as you )

I fap now only to become a better lover and I sometimes don't for days. there is truth to the idea on an addiction pattern in the mind ( to easy pleasure ), but now I try to be balanced. Fapping once every 3 days on some "normal porn" can't makes you bad. Especially if you do it with tantric work for being longer in bed. ( and if I see my gf, I don't do it a lot, but if you're alone ) I don't believe in the no fap mental benefit, they are all related to neuroticism and non acceptation of sex as a godlike features. But I approach sex from a love perspective, not a lack perspective. it just like everything, find a balance. a perspective from a man who works in porn

Aldous huxley hated 95% of society for being too stupid. ( he was very enlightened ) but at the end of his life he would rethink about that. and if you are a true outcast, why looking here for some company ? that's good to be an outcast though, you can be very unique this way, but this could aswell wrap on a toxic life for you. that's just like sex needs, you cannot surpass your own biologic fabric, you can be aware, accepting, finding new logics and metaphysic paradigm. but the essence of your desire for social is still there, probably never leave. even Nietzsche wanted some friends.

I agree on the causality but for now it still is an abstract thought, but my experience of reality and "coding" makes me believe the contrary, we just can't be aware of the "law of nature" in their globality, hence we have no free will from a "god perspective" it's all written, why choose having desire or no desire, but you experiencing the free will of your ego. or it will depend what relative terms you think of when you use "free will". if you think your choice in life are not made by the biological system (or whatever, maybe the mind is above the body, but for now, to my experience this isn't absolute ) even the fact of learning things about awakening. or another theory, our mind is quantic, and sometimes there is "free will" and sometimes not, but this one, is not even think-able and could not be easy-explained. ( I never used DMT, just hard mushroom and LSD alone for multiple days, but I read a lot on this experience ) a movie who makes me think of dmt is "enter the void", did you see it ? does it catch the idea ? how dpt is different from lsd in term of possible understanding ?

how can illusion be an illusion without a sense of illusion ? is the sense of illusion real ?

you too can get it man when you start believing in yourself, but this is an hardwork and there is darkness to fight inside, but this whole forum, leo & personnal reading and short introspection of my own condition in reality while on psychedelics, does helped me, or I think they did and that's kind of the same to me, I cannot prove, but I m 100% sure that I purged most of my wrong internal thinking. ( still have some ) instead of the pattern of "everything could be wrong" ,I was into, " being present & reflect for the best " sort of. I don't know if you can catch me, I m talking about guts, it will never be perfect, and that's to accept aswell. , this can be learned but hardly with 2 sentences of me, I m aware of it, that's an internal work until feeling lesser sounds like a logic non sense, learn about yourself until the idea of being lesser disapear. good luck, but find another girl man I don't think from my experience that after years of chasing without success, magnetism should be there at list a few in the start, or this will probably never work ( from personnal observation ) I was not trying to catch the most beautiful girl in town, I changed to try to find someone who works with me ( my gf, is close to a yellow/green paradigm very art/science ( just like me ) she is beautiful but that was not even my first thought when I started flirting, so it's easy to build a cool relation when you focus on others things than starting a neurotic relation ) It should work like water in a boil, not like a rock on your head

first time I got a girl, she just wanted to fuck me, like whatever I was talking about she wasn't caring, she just wanted to fuck me. -and now I was ready, cause I focused too much on myself on the point to forget relation with people. ( working too hard on self improvement and enlightment ) we got to her place, and she naked herself 5 minutes later. I mean she was not playing mind game LOL not at all, I was almost even deceive. ( find girls who knows what the fuck they want ( and YOURSELF TOO, especially YOU ) I'll not push details, but it was very hot and not weird, very fluid haha, she didn't notice, and I even make her get an orgasm ( all my friends believe I m a liar, this is even better to me to be called a liar, it means that I worked so good on myself that what I m doing is not even believe-able ) I didn't feel lesser or what I totaly didn't give a fuck on my level of relation:sex and all that ( I was "nothing" ), I trusted my self so hard to be god experiencing reality at this moment. I could even say that I was in sort of a blank state of mind. Like if I was on a lesser psychedelics. I m still in the gate and in the process, but my mind is very stable now. " be present and stop the neurotic thinking when it happen, catch it when it start and destroy it like a true master, feel like a god." girls can smell confidence against fear. ( I would believe so ) even if they are not "consciously aware of" people can have a sense of your inner energy just by being around you. attract to you the girl you need, not the girl you want, and believe me I come from far, I got my first relations with girls at 25. ( I m 25 ) I m talking from myself, hope something in there to help / now I m in a very healthy relationship though with a girl I truly like since 6 months.

add could aswell makes you overtexting. HEY Am I a redflag ?

Drawing. Reading some articles and Books. and 2 hours of laying down under the fire ball with visualisation of music and no thinking méditation. Aim to improve understanding communication / sociology / biology / physics. I even catch a little egoic need while meditating and used my trans-logic to disable it. Reflecting on where I should aim my boat.