allislove

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  2. Posted

    I want to share my "nofap" journey around 7-10 years ago. 
    I hope I remember properly how it was in my experience.
    Since I felt guilty from "fap" I decided to stop doing it for a long period of time.
    I think it lasted around 6 months. Why I stopped?
    First reason, I didn't like a wet dreams.
    Another reason, the main reason, if you do "no fap" for too long you look to girls without impulse to make love with them.
    Say, you talk to beautiful girl and you don't want to fuck her, even in your imagination, because you get used to "nofap".
    I consider it as a bad thing. So, I see the benefits from "nofap", but you should set your personal balance. The same as with everything else.
    For me I would say few times per month is completely fine (assuming there is no girlfriend nearby).
    "nofap" should help to get relationship you want, no other way around.

  3. Posted

    Let it be. Don't resist, enjoy no matter what. Zoom out and love, because it's you. There is nothing but you, there is nothing but Love.
    You can relax and see what life brings to you. Because everything is for good, everything is for you. You are you forever.
    Just be kind for yourself and love it. You are the creator of all of it. The best programmer ever, magician in action, I love you.

     

  5. Posted

    I am reading "LSD and the Mind of the Universe: Diamonds from Heaven" book.
    I have read only 13% but it's already worth the price for me. I've got new ideas how I can improve my psychedelics routine, thanks to this book.

    I am excited to make Dream Board 2.0 soon. I realized (thanks to Nahm) that my Dream Board was too dry. I just put there something like "Good health". I have to be more specific what I really want. If I have 20 heart-beating points of what good health mean for me rather than just two words "Good health", it should trigger good feelings which is a strong signal to Higher Self to manifest it. 

    A good insight (one more thanks to Nahm): manifesting on the dream board (by writing what you want) has no difference compare to manifesting of the wish itself. In other word, if I can manifest the board, marker, my character and draw what I want, I can manifest whatever I want in the same way lol.
     

  7. Posted · Edited by dimitri

    What a night, grateful for the experience

    Yesterday I took with my friend around 50ug of acid and went to "disco".
    Before the event I was feeling a bit guilty for using such a remedy "just for fun". 

    Insights from the experience:
    • everyone wants to feel love
    • it's possible to merge body and music :) 

    Probably, I had a micro mystical experience. While dancing I kinda zoomed out too much and everything kinda freezed. I had a realization in that moment that the guy who is dancing now is not me, I am much larger entity, and everyone around my body is me. That was quite scary, I even wanted to go out from the dance floor but then I am calmed down and continued to dance.

    Amazing experience, grateful for that.

  11. Posted

    I have a morning routine for a month or so, it feels so good. ❤️

    I start by meditating for 20 minutes. I usually do meditation by putting my attention on breath or some sound, or I do "do nothing" meditation. 

    Then, I play some short (around 10 minutes) video of Abraham Hicks. I do "dream board" exercise while video playing, video is just a background for this exercise. I have a big board on wheels, lucky me. xD

    The last part of my morning routine is to dance and sing a song. I usually use this one:

    https://youtu.be/7vhpBWb6upQ

  13. Posted

    7 hours ago, Gneh Onebar said:

    @Waken  Cool, yeah his trip reports are amazing! But the dosage is extremely high - at least from my perpective - if you follow the modalities of Stan Grof's therapeutic protocol like he did. Low-dose psycholytic therapy goes from 75 to 300 mcg (typically around 200) and high-dose from 300 to 500 mcg. The most I did until now is 150 mcg lol.

     

    Yeah. I did only 125 maximum and that was already life-changing experience. :D

    But I tried 5meo once with a breakthrough, so I feel what is there in a high dose range. 

    Anyway, wanted to thanks for sharing. 

  16. Posted · Edited by dimitri

    The reason for death is the choice to live

    The death looks sad because of wrong identification.
    But in reality death is the most fabulous experience of life. 
    True identification will be revealed for everyone in the moment of death.
    The good news you don't need to physically die in order to experience it.
    Imagine you look from the point of eyes now while reading this message.
    Death is something like you realize that you look not through eyes but through everything. 
    Everything is alive, warm and loving. Unconditional love is all there is. :x

  21. Posted

    I was thinking to share what has happened with me in the last few years. It might be inspiring for someone but I am not sure, I am better share the story gradually on the go. Then I was thinking to share in details my current spiritual routine but it might be not that useful since everyone has a unique path.

    Recently (thanks to Nahm), I started listening a lot of Abraham Hicks and maintain a dream board. So, probably, the insights which I am going to share will be similar to her teachings. It may help me to ground this useful knowledge.

    In the last month or so I try to master observing of the feelings. What the deal with feelings? Relatively speaking, feelings bring me to Now, thoughts put me away from Now . There is nothing bad with thoughts though (when I need them). The problem arises when I cling to them too much.

    Let's say I have a hard conversation with wife. What I can do? I can fight for me being right, or I can let it go. How can I let go? Should I tell that she is right and I am wrong? No, probably not. The trick is to be aware that you are sinking into thoughts and to move your attention from thoughts to feelings.

    If you feel bad do everything to feel good.

    What can it be? Go walk to nature, take a shower, take a nap, sing a song, kiss someone, make cacao, dance, go to gym, meditate, run, etc. You should know what can make you feel good in every particular moment.

    Feelings should be your compass of Life.

    I am not talking about huge change in feelings (like go and take heroin, no). It may be something as small as eating an apple or giving someone a smile. The trick is to follow from one good feeling to another to build a momentum. Then, do not be surprised if life flows so beautifully for you. ;) 

    I was studying the letting go technique for quite some time, but I think I've eventually got the essence. 

    Do what feels good in the particular moment, let life unfold by itself.

    That's easier said than done. There are some obstacles, the one obstacle called "People Pleaser". There is nothing bad if you want to make something good for another person, I even encourage everyone to do it! But do it only when you are high (by high I mean you feel good, really good). If you feel low don't please someone else, please yourself first, break the cycle of bad feelings, then act from the position of Love, from the position of abundance.

    Related topic is a dream board. You don't need to focus on how  to do something, you really don't, focus on what feels good for you.
    You can use the dream board to put what feels good for you, what you really want, and see how life unfolds for you.
    I really recommend reading Nahm's topic on the subject.

    If you don't know how to distinguish between what feels good for you and what not, the meditation is for the rescue; 20 minutes every morning, right after waking up.

    Meditation, the dream board, follow good feelings, and you are good to let go, let it be. :x
     

  22. Posted

    Thanks for the support.

    I am not sure I am often going to look from the teacher's perspective (like Leo for example). I am more a student here. 
    Let's hope everyone will get something from the experience.

    As for now I plan to start by sharing my current spiritual routine, material which somehow helps me in my spiritual journey, gradually sharing my life story, insights, feelings, worries, experience.

    I also like to post music, photos, smiles :D

  23. Posted

    Hi!

    I am not a native speaker. I never tried a public journaling. I don't think I am a good communicator. I am not sure I have something valuable to share with you dear reader. I even don't know what the main theme of this journal. So, why I decided to create it?

    I feel I spend to much time reading other people content, commenting or suggesting to people my opinion which is not really useful in most of the cases for them. I better put my thoughts here, I better be creator for myself rather than a victim for others. Ideally, I want to share something useful which will increase people consciousness; or just improve my writing English skills; or find what I really want, my life purpose; or become enlightened; or do a shadow work; or reduce usage of reading this forum and chatting on other online platforms; or cultivating healthy habits; or just throw the thoughts out of my head; or whatever.

    Expect super low quality content when I feel low, and high quality content when I high. Expect to be bored, expect unexpected things. Will see how it goes. I will try to be honest with myself. But feel free to point the flows in my thinking, ask any question, would be cool. But even if I am the only reader of this journal I am grateful for this community and for my life, I can contemplate something, use my time and enjoy it. Yeah, and I am not a perfectionist, I am not planning to spend hours on crafting my messages.

    Have a good day.

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  24. Posted

    3 hours ago, Nahm said:

    Patterns of thought would unconsciously play out, and when this dream ends & you awaken, you’d have a hearty laugh. Not a thing right or wrong with that unconscious life, and that is precisely what would be so funny. 

    Consciousness is infinite & whole, perfect & complete. There can not be a separate thing, a separate object, nor a separate self, because if there were, consciousness would not be infinite. If there is some thing which consciousness is not, then consciousness is not infinite. Consciousness Is infinite, and is infinitely, spontaneous & free. One who takes reality for granted has yet to realize the feelings they don’t like, is our source, the one-glish speaking voice of infinite reason, conveying the truth - that one is so free, one can impose limitation. The One has already amply done this however - to allow for this very experience. No more limitation is needed, source did a fine job. Add to limitation at your own emotional peril, as Truth is Unconditional Love, and conditions simply will not resonate. 

    Practically speaking...one who is “stuck”, is over-emphasizing the intellectual method of - practically speaking. “Stuck” requires profound materialism, knowing one’s infinite all loving unconditional limitless eternal self - as a thing. An object, in a world. ??

    What knows all that comes & goes, is already transcendent and does not come and go. What does not come and go, and does not have separate parts in truth, can never actually be “stuck”. The cosmos is an ever-transient vibrationally liquid creation of potentiality. What sustains you - your “living”, your “life”?  Love, air, water, food. Are these “separate objects”, or are you...not separate from anything.. since the get go? Every thing is not always as it appears. 

    This ever-changing-ness, this ‘appearance’, is known by thought, perception, & sensation, ‘themselves’ every-changing. Are you an object separate of this? Or is all known to you, as the consciousness of, the awareness of , the knowing of ? 

    Were ‘you’ ‘here’ to know yourself...love, sensation - feeling, would not be so abundant, so easily & readily known in the sharing of our infinite being. You most absolutely know your absoluteness - you just forgot. Why would an infinite all knowing, all loving being - forget that it is? To experience. So you could create. Which is what you’re doing right now. It is all you have ever done. It is everything that you do. So much so, So totally & entirely, that a comparison can not be made, a duality can not be derived of it, and it can not in truth be said that you have ever done anything. Why you create what you do has a source which is always available. What you create and when you do, is always up to you. How it is created, is the same as how your heart is beating, your lungs are breathing, thoughts are arising, feeling is present, perception is abundant. “You”, you’re not really doing anything. You’re just unbelievable, unfathomably good, at making it appear as if you are. It is safe to surrender “how”. 

     

      

    That's beautiful. Saved for the re-reading just before the next shrooms tea. ♥️