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  1. Well, i dont know how much people would appreciate my music here haha, i mostly sing about drugs and sex. Thanks for your advice! Yeah thats what im trying to tell myself aswell, to just make music for the joy of it. As soon as these feelings of pressure comes in it completely takes the fun out of the process...
  2. I recently started making music and just now started putting myself out and trying to promote my music which was a big step to release it because im kind of shy and have alot of self doubt. I actually really enjoy my own art and i personally think i make very good music but i know the genre im making a lot of people dont like it and are going to find it cringy etc plus im not really getting the response i was hoping for. This is causing a lot of emotions of self-doubt, low self esteem etc. I feel like this has to be a pretty common issue for many people as they're in the starting stage of creating something, whether its like a business or youtube channel or something. Anybody got some advice how to deal with this? Wont give up tho!!
  3. This is a popular myth because soy contains high levels of phytoestrogens, but I am pretty sure there are no real evidence to support that soy consumption for humans messes with our hormones.
  4. If your purpose is spiritual development and awakening experiences, how does regular old magic mushrooms stand against other more potent psychedelics such as maybe LSD or DMT and its synthetic kinds? I would like to do them all, especially 5-meo as it seems the most potent for awakening but unfortunately I do not have access to it right now but I do have have access to shrooms. What do you guys think?
  5. I agree that plant based is probably the way to go for health but one thing always confused me. People are talking about vegan diet as the way were "supposed" to eat. But we need vitamin B12 to live, and B12 is found in animal products??? Am i missing something here?
  6. Thing is that you have gotten more than enough advice, you just dont seem to actually listen to it, instead you are just discarding it and coming with excuses. Meditation is too hard, fixing diet is too hard, you cant exercise because you dont know where your running clothes are??? How much can you actually be suffering then? You have all the information and tools that you could possibly need to improve your life, so do it! Your life situation is what it is, it is probably filled with many challenges as are most peoples. You have two ways to go: you could either accept it for what it is and tell yourself you're going to do what you can to improve it, or you can complain and whine and keep telling yourself how hard life is and how much it sucks and bla bla, i know which alternative im going to choose but i understand you're also very young, i am sure with time you are going to mature and realize this yourself.
  7. Also, i am not a doctor so i obviously cant give you any medical advice and of course I do not know anything about you and your specific situation but in MY personal experience and a lot of others, these antidepressants and psychiatric medications have not done any good at all and in many cases actually just made the symptoms worse in the long run. IMO there are so many alternatives that may be more effective and more beneficial to our health to try before doing antidepressants. If your not experiencing much benefits from these medications maybe you should considering trying to get off it. However, this is of course something that you should take with your doctor.
  8. Im sorry, but why do you guys even bother at this point? Awekenedsoul44, you've created countless topics about your different mental issues that you're experiencing and various challenges in your life however you don't seem to be very willing to actually listen to and process all the advice and information that you are getting. So i am asking you, what is it that you want to achieve from these threads? What do you want to hear? Many, many people suffer from various mental issues: crippling social anxiety, severe depression, asperger etc. Try to believe me when I say that your case is in no way unique or so exceptionally severe so that its untreatable. I don't intend to sound harsh or rude to you, i am actually very empathetic as I myself suffering from many of these issues: anxiety, depression and so on but the positive side is that there are ways to make yourself happier and these are no secrets, they just require consistency and patience. Here are three concrete things you can start doing today that are scientifically proven to have massive benefits on our mental health: Mindfulness meditation, exercise, and fixing your diet (gut health). If you start doing that along with the necessary therapy for your other issues and be consistent with it, then over time i am sure you're going to be happy!! Stop thinking so much
  9. @Nickyy @Nahm @Vercingetorix @Superfluo @LeoX8 Thank you all for offering advice and giving me support! After posted this i decided to take action again once and for all to try and become as happy and healthy as i possibly can from my circumstances. I now have 10 days of eating really healthy, meditation and no-fap, and i already feel a big improvement in my overall mood. Maybe i cant heal myself in three months but what if i go on like this consistently for three years? 10 years? Surely if i devote myself to becoming a better person and not give up something good must come out of it I will try my best
  10. Hope some of you can take the time to read this and give me some advice or maybe just some encouraging words, because i am feeling very hopeless and sad at this moment. I am suffering from some sort of condition. I dont know if its gut issues, some type of fatigue syndrome or maybe just plain old stress/anxiety as the doctors suggest, even though I kind of doubt its only that... I have had this since I was 17. I was a pretty high level athlete, then I got sick a bunch of times and took a lot of antibiotics for months. After that something happened to me, i started having severe skin infections, sick all the time, extremely fatigued, cognitive issues and pretty severe anxiety and depression. And this came out of nowhere after being a very energetic and happy kid who loved spending time with friends and doing sports. I quit school, quit boxing, isolated myself and stopped hanging out with friends. Im 24 now and its been like this more or less ever since. I would say im feeling better in some ways but its mostly because i have learned to deal with this condition better. Meditation, diet etc helps. I have been to countless doctors, taking every test, neurological testing etc and they all say i am fine and that its probably just stress and anxiety. I dont know what to do. I know something is wrong with me and I would pay a lot of money to find out what it is and what to do about it. Twice I tried going on a balanced plant-based whole-food diet and both times after 3-4 months i started having crazy anxiety and insomnia, herpes and skin problems, tingling, numbness and fasciculations, so i had to give it up. And no one can give me and explanation why this happened? A normal healthy body should be able to be vegetarian/vegan. I have tried every medication and antidepressant out there, ssris, add pills etc I always react terribly and get crazy side effects. I have not felt happy in 6 years. The only sort of hope of happiness that I have is that maybe if I just eat healthy, meditate, try to manage my stress and stay consistent then over months or years maybe just maybe my body could recover and go back to normal again. The problem is that I cant really do shit. I cant go to school, cant be with friends, cant do anything because of my anxiety and stress. Theres so much more to write about my situation but whatever, maybe somebody can give me any kind of advice. At this point everything just feels so fucking pointless I want to end it all
  11. For as long as I can remember I have been pretty unhappy and unsettled (as most ego-driven humans) and the small amount of positive feelings i've felt have almost exclusively come from the ego. Very rarely have i felt real pleasure from doing something in the present moment except from some very temporary entertainment like drugs, sex, masturbation, having fun and i guess some very rare glimpses of some kind of genuine peace. I have been meditating daily for a couple of years but never with the real intention of actually becoming enlightened. However, lately as i have made some progress and actually starting to raise awareness i have come to realise that my mind is no friend of mine and i genuinely want to become free. So i've started becoming much more serious with my awareness work, started self-inquiring and trying to be present and aware as much as i possibly can. My mind is definetly a lot more still but this has left me with an unpleasant feeling of emptyness inside aswell as alot of negative sensations and emotions as anxiety, sadness, mild depression etc. Have anyone else experienced this? Is it normal and do you have any tips on how to deal with this? Thank you