Luna

I'm not severely overweight or underweight. i weigh around 145 lbs and i am 5'5 but i feel grossly fat. at the same time no matter how much i try I can never have a normal relationship with food. i am not an emotional eater, i dont eat when im sad or stressed out . however, I do not know why i can't just eat normal meals and have a normal relationship with food. every time i eat, every single thing i consume gives me anxiety and makes me hate myself. how i still do it. i can't stop eating sometimes but i can control it enough to where i dont become really obese. i am afraid i will lose that and become really really fat.. how do i sort this out? anyone has a similar experience?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUosEPmWLNk solely because it feels like it was written about me.

@snowyowl Thank you so much for your reply ! ! ! I

can you tell me about these @Tim Ho

@nitramadas I have asked a lot of people who have tried TM and 99% of the time they say stuff on youtube isn't accurate and you cannot master it until you go to teacher and pay for it. i just want to make sure i do it the right way i dont' want to waste time doing an incorrect practice of meditation and i know there isnt "right or wrong" in doing meditation but TM isnt like mindful meditation

Has anyone tried it? is it worth the money? i am a little iffy about spending that much money on meditation but if it is really helpful i would be down please comment about your experience if you had tried it

this will feel broad and cliche but what is the point of anything at all what is the point of living? I've been trying to find my purpose for 5 years now but nothing!!!!!! there is nothing that keeps me wanting to stay alive I don't experience negative or positive emotions anymore everything is numb and pointless. I don't know any other way to say it but I don't want to be alive anymore not because I'm overwhelmed with negative emotions but simply because there is nothing to live for there is no reason for me to stay here and i mean that in the least depressive way I can

i found out that i can actually sing

i used to flirt with old lonely men online to make money lol

oh my god i can't fall asleep if i don't rock myself back and forth i thought i was the only one

@Western Buddha I'm just going to say this, it wasn't your fault and you didn't know. it's HIS fault. he's the one who lied to you from what i read it's a natural response to be angry at a barefaced lie, i would be mad too. you didn't do anything wrong you were fooled by someone don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

@pluto some people need mental help there is nothing wrong with that

I think going to a professional is the best option.

I recently had to cut off virtually all my "close" friends because it felt toxic and forced and I couldn't get a day by without feeling negative emotions from them. I feel cold and alone and I don't know if I made the right choice.. any advice?

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