I consider myself being twin of Leo... I have experienced all of the stuff he talks in his videos + have very similar personality.

My background:

30 y/old male, Europe

Many years of HARDCORE spiritual path.

- Clean eating, mostly RAW (no wheat, no dairy, a little meat)
- Being aware ALL DAY LONG - 16 hours a day
- Contemplation and Self Inquiry 3 hours a day
- Meditating in PITCH BLACK room 3 hours a day before midnight (strong determination sitting)
- Concentration exercises
- ejaculating max once per 2 weeks
- Psychedelics (often):

15x 5-MeO-DMT HCL trips
30x 5-Meo-DMT Freebase trips
20x 4-Aco-DMT Fumarate trips
35x DMT Freebase trips
8x DPT trips
60x Weed trips
5x LSD trips
10x 2c-b trips
+ some near death experiences

And some others. Many of my trips happened in pitch black darkness. Always WITHOUT trip sitter.

I have had many "TOTAL" awakenings + experienced many paranormal, mystical phenomena and Kundalini awakening. Third eye opening etc...

I have experienced many logically impossible experiences. Sober or under psychedelics.

I consider myself Awakened consciousness, yet there are infinite degrees of awakening more left. DO YOU GET IT? After MANY infinite trips you will get it.

YES, there are degrees to awakening.

I have experienced MANY lifetimes. In fact, I have experienced ALL possible lifetimes that have existed, exist now or will exist when having many of my mystical experiences.

I have had trips, where I experienced ALL POSSIBLE LIFETIMES OF ALL POSSIBLE CREATURES in 6 hours. Entire lifetimes... YES! All possible creatures. 5-legged ones, or just beings made of energy only, or creature with not 5 or 6 senses but 300 senses etc... Sounds impossible? Well... If you do HARDCORE practices, you can experience many hardcore stuff.

This story about Big Bang and Planet Earth IS JUST ONE OF INFINITE MORE STORIES in infinite more dimensions.

I attained THOUSANDS of "spiritual" insights. Most of them are impossible to put into words and sentences.

"You are God" is just one of INFINITE MORE SPIRITUAL INSIGHTS. I can't describe this statement more, because of the limit of language.

There is INFINITE deepness. In other dimensions I took psychedelics 10000s times potent than DPT.

There are infinite more colors than you can see now in this current dimension.

Be very open-minded reading next lines please.

After many years of being "spiritual"... After my last awakening, I realised that this whole spiritual path is just ONE story of infinite other meaningless stories.

Chasing this whole "who am I?" thing is just of many possible stories and is AS MEANINGLESS AS ANY OTHER STORY.

I awakened to total meaninglessness. TOTAL.

THERE IS NO OTHER PLACE TO BE. I can't escape THIS being.
There is only being.

I experienced that no matter what I do, even if I kill myself, I will be reborn infinite times more.

In fact I have literally physically experienced dying and killing myself in other dimensions just to realise that I can't escape this BEING thing.

After you die, you can choose to "enjoy" formlessness for infinity. BUT that infinity is so infinite, that is finite. Basically, that INFINITY will feel like blink of the eye, and you will get "bored" and will reborn "instantly", after you get bored being formless. READ THAT AGAIN.

In other words: HUMAN DIES, BABY IS BORN. INSTANTLY.

You can't escape... There is only Existence.

No form of suicide is enough. Thanks to this insight, this exact life that I live now, is exactly good as any other life. No life is better than other life.

Thanks to many mystical experiences I realised that businessman has his sufferings and joys, is the same as homeless man has his pains and joys. No difference.

And here comes my question.... Question that no one of you can answer... Because I have used infinite times more potent stuff than your tiny limited human mind, YET I am still searching for answer.

WHAT TO DO NOW?

The thing is, I feel like there is no higher "level" to reach.

I have experienced mahasamadhi in other lifetimes, I have reached TOP OF THE TOP levels of Existence... I have experienced toppest of the tops, I always ended up in some limited dimension. And Now I want to suffer again.

That is the reason I have chosen not to have mahasamadhi in this life (I had many opportunities to have mahasamadhi in this life)

You were God infinite lifetimes before, and now you forgot you wanted to experience being limited again. You forgot you have put yourself here just to limit yourself again. JUST CAUSE. Because you can.

I WANT TO BE HUMAN AGAIN AND TO HAVE ROLLERCOASTER LIFE OF EMOTIONS AND ILLUSIONS.

I want to forget I am God... But I know too much. Too much....

I am serious.

After TOTAL ENLIGHTENMENT, after THE HIGHEST HIGH, there is only a way down.

I just want to warn EVERYBODY:

THERE ARE INSIGHTS that will destroy your life, your motivations, your everything.

There are insights so shocking that will paralyze you.

You will lose interest for friends, movies, music, just about everything. It feels like know everything, have been everything, been everywhere, have done everything...

In every dimension I have lived, there is always this "OMG now I know too much, and there's no way back" level. After that insight, life in that dimension becomes very "meaningless"...

In every dimension there are illusions similar to "Maya", just to protect you. To protect you from "knowing too much" so you can continue enjoying the show.

It feels like the "secret" of Maya have its purpose here in this dimension.

Knowing too much (being awakened) in whatever dimension leads to being unfulfilled. It's like cheating...

Do you enjoy playing a game with "GODMODE: ON" cheat?

If I could choose again, I would not choose to awaken.

This world is made to be for unconscious beings.

Now I have a 2 choices.

Just watching everything, just observing this miraculous colorful explosion.

or

Put myself again into Matrix and forget who am I.

And I think I want to forget. But how?

How could I? How could I deceive myself again?

Basically, I want to warn you...

KNOWING "TOO MUCH" and being robbed of "mandatory" illusions will leave you unsatisfied...

TOTAL ENLIGHTENMENT leads later to total unconsciousness. It's a strange loop.

Even being infinite love will soon or later lead to infinite suffering. You are THE CHANGE. You want CHANGE. Don't ask me why...

YES, I am saying very radical stuff. I have experienced many lives in other dimensions being only "LOVE". But after some time, even LOVE will seem boring.

You will not enjoy your "total awakening" to the infinity... At one point, you basically get bored and want to enjoy being unconscious jerk again...

Soon or later, you may be interested in being Zen Devil just for the sake of doing it.
That's why you see many spiritual gurus having affairs and being zen devils.

There is something deep you can get from this post, but I don't know how to communicate it better, because I am not native english speaker.

Have a nice day.
 

1) Business's whole strategy is to strong arm and use enormous leverage to manipulate wages. An average person has little chance to negotiate for a fair wage. They are forced to take whatever offered, which usually undervalues their work. This is the core reason why a minimum wage is needed. To not address this point is to be naive about how business negotiation works. He with the most leverage takes the cake.
2) The idea that a living wage would hurt small biz is silly. A living wage could eaily be a requirement only above a certain number of empolyees. For example, all companies worth over $100 million or employing more than 100 people.
The whole point of using the "this will kill small biz" excuse is to conflate giant multi-national business with small mom and pop shops so that the giant multi-national can squeeze their employees dry.
A company like Walmart or McDonalds should be paying a living wage. This doesn't need to affect tiny businesses.
Living wage can easily be adjustable to cost of living per state and county. So in LA it could be $25/hr while in Alabama it could be $10/hr.
People make all sorts of bad arguments aboug minimum wage simply because they have an ideological position against it and no understanding of how corporations use leverage in negotiations.

A good way to make sense of it is to consider how video games work:
In a video game, like a first-person shooter, it seems like the player's view point converges on his eyes, but actually, the entire screen is rendered simultaneously. The avatar's eyes/body/brain in a video game is not responsible for what is seen on the screen, they are part of the screen. It's an illusion.

Reality has no beginning or end.
It has existed forever.
No matter how deeply you explore it, you will always be infinitely far away from reaching the end. No matter how far back in time you go, you will be infinitely far away from finding its beginning. Not because you are too limited as a human, but because a beginning and end simply do not exist.
God is endless consciousness.

I would actually say just the opposite:
All of your current dysfunctions in life are the result of past events.
It's not so simple as correlating some one horrid childhood event to your current problem. It's much more complex. All problems are the result of whatever the "self" you identify as. This "self" was constructed as a reaction to survival challenges in the past. The "self" is nothing more than a survival mechanism. So of course it's highly conditioned by upbringing, childhood, teenage years, and early adulthood. Whatever stuff happened to you between the ages of 0 to 30 has shaped your personality almost totally to the point where you cannot even know what your self would be without it. Of course your are not just shaped by bad events but good events too.
Of course none of this means you can't change.
It's a bad idea to listen to academic psychologists when it comes to understanding the dynamics of the self. Broad surveys and studies are not gonna cut it here. This requires existential level insight through direct work on oneself.
Ask yourself where your "self" came from? You'll see it was from the past. In fact, your entire mind came from the past. Every word you use came from your past. 99% of the ideas in your mind came from your past. You hardly invented anything new. You are like a snowball rolling down hill collecting more snow and dirt.
But the strange looping twist here is, the past is just a figment of your mind! There never was a past or a self or a world! You made it all up. You sneaky devil, you.
Survival has everything to do with your problems. Without survival there is no problem at all.

That's because "hot" is literally defined by that which is in the top 5%.
So it's not that most women are not hot. It's that what's hot is the top 5% of whatever is.
If women were donkeys, you'd still be like, "These donkeys suck. I want a better donkey."
That's survival. Always looking for the most you can get for the least amount of effort.

Of course corporations are a source of government corruption and rig the laws to serve their survival.
But the problem is far deeper than that. Complex technology and massive scales of life (human society in the 100s of millions) requires massive infrastructure and collective forms of organization. We cannot just go back to living in little tribes in some hippie eco-village. The whole challenge here is that individual humans are not the end-all-be-all of life. Life has surpassed humans to include corporations, organizations, religions, social movements, cultures, governments, nations, and beyond. Massive complexity and bureaucracy is necessary to sustain things like nuclear weapons, gasoline cars, airports, highways, currency, the internet, GPS satellites, regulation of pollution & deforestation, regulation of endangered species, modern medicine, modern food, modern electronics, etc.
None of that could exist without corporations or giant bureaucracies.
You cannot build a modern home by yourself, or even with a small group of your friends. Modern housing construction requires sophisticated supply chains, regulation, infrastructure, factories, shipping containers, airports, railroad, power plants, mining, logging, and a thousand other things.
Starbucks does better than a family owned coffee shop precisely because it solves complex organizational problems like supply chain issues, warehousing, etc. and it delivers a very reliable, high-quality product which people love.
You must always take into account the problem of scale. Scale! Scale! Scale! is what people underestimate. It's very easy to run a small coffee shop that serves 100 customers. It's a whole nother design challenge to serve good coffee consistently to 1 billion customers. What worked at the scale of 100 does not work at the scale of 1 billion. It's a whole new creature. And we live in a world were business is done in the billions, not in the thousands. If business is not done in the billions, say goodbye to your car, your TV, your house, your phone, your computer, your internet, your video games, your fave TV shows, your GPS, your vacations, your books, etc.

Concept and imagination is made out of being.
1st order reality is being, 2nd order is concept. 2nd order is made out of 1st order, like how a Lego castle is made out of bricks.
You are confusing those two orders.

LOL
Yeah, if you wanna bang hot girls you're gonna have competition. Welcome to the jungle.
You really expect hot girls for free?
You are way too entitled. Attracting hot girls is a lot of work, and it must be that way because hot girls are valuable & rare.
So either lower your standards or up your effort.
I got 400+ rejections before I slept with my first hot girl.

In light of Leo’s recent video on love, I’ve been contemplating what it might mean that reality is Absolute Love and that Absolute Truth and Absolute Love are really identical. During one of my recent meditation sessions, I had an incredibly powerful insight into the nature of this love and wanted to share and hear feedback from the community

What is love? What is actually going on in my direct experience when I experience love? I realized that that 1 common facet about this phenomenon was that love has always been accompanied with an overwhelming acceptance of whatever it is I am loving. That is to say, when I feel love towards someone, or something, there is also a full acceptance of that object necessarily. In other words, it could be said that loving and accepting are two sides to the same coin. When scaling this insight up to the level of Absolute Love, this should mean that there is also a component to Absolute Acceptance.
And this is where things get interesting – First, a bit of philosophical infrastructure: We are reality. I am reality. I am the whole of my subjective experience, while also not really being any of it. Sight, taste, touch, sound, smell, mind, emotions, ego, etc. are all contents appearing within consciousness. Consciousness is aware of an infinite field of distinctions, all of which may be identified or dis-identified with. Both of these perspectives being equally valid and invalid. But even to say this is too much, because all that really is going on is Being. The unified field of phenomena and the empty nothing underlying their existential nature is the essence of Being. I am Being.

What “I” noticed while meditating was that regardless of whether the ego is accepting the present moment or not, Being is always accepting. This is critical to notice – Being is ALWAYS accepting whatever is. While ego may not be able to accept the potential pain and suffering reality can take on (war, rape, murder, torture, etc.), the true I is always accepting whatever arises. In this way, Being is in a constant, harmonious moment of Absolute Acceptance with itself. I am that Being. I am Absolute Acceptance. So even when it feels as though there is resistance to whatever is occurring within consciousness (suffering), this resistance is in fact an illusion; the True I is in total acceptance.

When we can tap into this total, Absolute Acceptance, and open our hearts to understanding the sacred nature of all moments (really one moment), the infinity of form that consciousness takes, then we can understand what Absolute Love really is – a form of divine Acceptance and Being. You are infinite, and Absolute Love; no form can be denied, to deny any potential would be to limit Infinity, limit Acceptance, and limit Love. All pain, all suffering is being Accepted by virtue of the fact that it is Being. You accept all suffering. You love all suffering whether you’re conscious of it or not. It is a total mind fuck.

Key take away:
- Being (aka YOU) accepts all that is by nature of Being's very nature, and full acceptance equals love. You are Absolute Acceptance, you are Absolute Love, which is really Absolute Truth. 

I look forward to exploring this insight further.

You were never a child. You just imagine so.
There are no people here, just you talking to yourself.
That is enlightenement.
You are not fucking real! Anything that assumes you are, is imaginary. Your entire life story is a hallucination. History itself is a hallucination.

I here is a thought.
You are assuming I is real. That's the key mistake.
You are not real!
You ARE the misunderstanding.

I know a sexual hypnosis technique where a girl can visualize and experience the orgasm of a man.
You can orgasm without even physical stimulation.
Sex is all about how you use your mind.
 

And concept is being
Zero of course is also a concept, but if zero is the only thing there is, zero is one. And if zero is one, then there is now a distinction between zero and one, which means there is two. And three. And four. And so on to infinity.
Ta-da!

Go out the club 3-5 nights per week, every week, for several years.

Do all the practices diligently and slowly you will transcend various personal needs.
Or you can also exhaust them to death. Like, go have so much sex you get sick of it. Or go earn so much money that you stop caring about money.

It tends to work both ways. If you act in a loving manner at the 2nd order that helps move you to consciousness of the 1st order. And consciousness of the 1st order helps with acting more lovingly at the 2nd order.
Which is why in all serious mystical schools they emphasize right action and compassion alongside meditation.
But you can only go so far without consciousness of the 1st order. That is what most people are missing most. Compassion and action cannot ever substitute for lack of consciousness.
So the practical answer to your question is: become conscious of 1st order Love. Then you will know how to act. It's not possible to fake being unconditionally loving. It will only happen as a result of awakening.
The same analogy can be used for relative vs absolute truth.

Think of how an FPS video game works.
There is actually no separation between the player and the world. The entire scene is rendered in one seamless frame. The player is enmeshed in the world.
In fact, there really isn't a player. There is only the world, shaped in such a way that the illusion of a player is created (arms, feet, nose, blood, etc.). But all of that is really just part of the world.
Your life is no different than an FPS game, with no one behind the screen.

Fear and deep habits of self-judgment.
Social survival is deeply wired into your mind.
More, deeper awakenings are required and some serious, industrial-grade spiritual practices like meditation/yoga/concentration.
Psychedelics will not rewire decades of bad mind habits. That requires daily practices over years.
Emotional mastery is the hardest part of this work. It's much harder than a few awakenings and psychedelics alone will not be enough for that.

Observe yourself chasing positive states and notice how this subtle duality and attachment creates suffering.
Expecting constant bliss precludes true peacefulness since when your bliss dips you start to complain, "Where did my bliss go? How can I get it back?" Which is the very root of unhappiness: trying to escape the present moment.
It's okay to chase bliss. Just observe this dynamic closely so that you become more and more aware that it cannot ultimately work. Through lots of observation of this clinging you will slowly aikido your clinging into surrender.

@Shin Here are some ideas:
Improv class Toastmasters Pickup Go to mall on weekends, chat up all the department store clerks Meetup.com Online dating Sports Join a commune or ashram Music festivals, Burning Man, etc. I suggest Improv class. It's fun!

That's not going to work because techniques are designed to address different problems for different people.
You have to tailor them to fit your needs. Everyone has different needs at different times in their life.
Pickup might be useless to one person, but life-saving to another. Etc.
You should take an experimenter's approach, where you play around with different methods and theories and stick with the ones that resonate with you.
This field is much more broad and complex than the mind initially expects. There are hundreds of highly useful theories and techniques. Like a good handyman, your toolbox will have hundreds of tools, not just 2 or 3.

When I was serious about it, I was doing 20 approaches per night.
The most I did was 700 approaches in one month.
It took me 450 approaches to get my first girl.
Of course it's not just about quantity. Quality of approach matters A LOT. But for newbies, sheer quantity is needed to build up the quality, cause a newbie doesn't know what quality means yet.
The whoke key to pickup is you gotta find a place where you can quickly make 20 approaches per night/day. And you can only do that in very specific areas, like a big nightclub, or downtown area, or giant shopping mall, or busy beach.
Best places are:
NYC LA Venice Beach Santa Monica Miami Austin Vegas London Etc.

Classic newbie mistake.
Your own mind will trick you like that and get you to believe that having fun with your friend is accomplishing something. It isn't. Fun is fun. But it's not enough to get you the skill set you want.
You must force yourself to approach 10-20 sets each night. No excuses. It's best to start approaching immediately upon walking into the club. The first girl you see, you approach.
Which is why when you get a bit more experience and comfort, you should hit the clubs solo. Solo you can really do some damage in the club. Hanging to your friends too tightly will not allow you to get laid. You must be ready to break off from your friend to approach girls, and bounce them to new locations. It is not enough to just approach a girl and stand with her in the same spot the entire night. Once she's attracted to you, you've got to bounce her as much as possible around the place and then outside the place to other places and ultimately to your apartment. Pickup does not work without leading and bouncing.
Solo is highly efficient. But it's emotionally hard, because when you're out of set you feel very alone.

@Anakin Your life is long enough to do both. Shoot for both, although not necessarily at the same time.
If you are ready for serious self-inquiry, start doing it.
If not, work on your life purpose. That process will set the stage for eventually getting into self-inquiry.
It's individualized in the sense that you might be at a different stage in Maslow's Hierarchy, simply unable to motivate yourself to do serious consciousness work. Just don't make a limiting belief out of what I'm saying. See my vid about Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs where this issue is discussed in some length.