That's because you've barely managed to learn to stand on your skiis yet you're try to go down a double black diamond slope.
Go back and develop competence in basic self-help. After 5 or 10 years of that, you might be ready for some existential spiritual work. There's no shame in working on the basics of life. Go develop competence at survival before you try to transcend it.
It took me a decade or more of working on the basics before enlightenment became a real possibility.
Just because I talk about enlightenment a lot does not mean it is right for you at this time. I talk about very advanced stuff that isn't suitable for most people.

I think you are misunderstanding the Buddhist notion of suffering. What it basically means is that chasing material conditions and positive states is dissatisfying because they never last.
This does not mean you cannot meditate on the feeling of satisfaction itself. In fact, doing so is how you escape suffering.
Bliss and joy can be reached this way. Now, you can counter by saying that that bliss won't be permanent. Of course it won't. But I never said to get attached to permanent bliss. And it is still far better than what most people are doing, which is chasing dopamine hits.
Think of it this way: in every moment you only have one of two options: you can either be satisified or dissatisfied. Which will you be?

You should be going out 3-4 nights a week for at least a year, every week, with the goal of doing 1000-5000 approaches.
This is what is realistically takes to get results.

You should socialize just to push your comfort zone and gain more life experience but in the end nothing is gonna beat the spiritual pleasure of pure metaphysical understanding. So if you can be happy solo, that's actually a great gift.
But don't become a recluse. Gain some socialization and dating experience while you are young. It can be fun.
In the end you will find the highest joy is found alone, not with others. Don't let others gaslight you about that.

@StarStruck You shouldn't expect massive results if you just started game.
Massive results come after years of going out and honing your skills. The bottom line is that your skills still suck.
The learning curve for game is really steep. Stop stressing over it so much.
And definitely night game is an important piece of the puzzle you're missing. Only doing street game is gonna limit your growth and results. The serious skills are built with night game.

One of my best wings was a 5'4" Pakistani guy.
He got laid way more than me at 6'2".
What attracts girls is personality and boldness.
My wing would walk up to a group of girls having a birthday and make out with every girl in the group, one after another. Sometimes he would get slapped, but he also got a bunch of make outs, numbers, and dates. He would wrestle girls like a fearless mongoose does a cobra.

Think twice before infecting others with your toxic limiting beliefs.

My vision gets a bit wavy if I meditate a lot.
This is normal and even desirable. It's a neat effect and shows the fluid nature of consciousness.

I wouldn't even call that HPPD. That's just an expansion of your mind/consciousness.
I suggest you embrace it and enjoy it. A free trip when I close my eyes is something I would pay for. That's like a superpower.
Such things happen with people who meditate or do lots of yoga. The mind simply becomes expanded and more fluid.

They are similar.
But contemplation specifically focuses on asking questions and gaining answers/insights whereas introspection is a more general function of looking inward and observing the operations of your own psyche. You could also call introspection mindfulness.
To me contemplation is a more cognitive, verbal activity. Introspection is more about feeling. Although of course you can mix them together.

God is the perfect word. You just aren't yet conscious of what the God points to.
And that is a deficiency in Buddhism.
Except it isn't since your entire understanding of self and reality is entangled with language.
Of course the word itself could be changed to something like Teotl or Allah or Great Spirit. But the concept of God to which all these words point is fundamental and unavoidable.
Any teacher or teaching that is not telling you directly that "You are God" is not really telling you the truth.
All of spirituality can be boiled down to two simple lines:
1) You are God
2) God is Love
That is the most concise formulation of what you must realize to fully awaken. And if you don't realize these two, then nothing else matters for you have fundamentally misunderstood reality.

Go out and approach 5000 girls.
Also, it would really help if you realize your body is made out of God's Infinite Love.
The notion that you are ugly is literally the dumbest thing you could think.

Fear generates results by sending you scrambling into action.
When you are walking through the woods and think, "There might be a bear around the corner" you are more careful than if you walk around thinking happy thoughts.
Also, the highly conceptual and ideological way modern humans live is far removed from simple examples like finding foods in nature. If your only job was to find food in nature like a rabbit, you would have very few negative thoughts. Most of your negative thoughts come from highly conceptual, ideological mental activity far removed from simple physical survival.
When all thoughts cease, there is no longer a "someone" within experience at all.
Obviously there is no one inside you producing nor watching thoughts. Thoughts simply arise within a field of consciousness. Thoughts ARE the field itself. It is not even correct to say that there are thoughts vs a field, or thoughts vs a watcher. You ARE thoughts. Everything is one. There is no watcher as some object. Watcher and watched are identical.

Bullshit
The best guys who go out constantly only sleep with maybe 30 girls per year. 30/year would be master pro level. And to get those 30 they approach 1000+

Logistics is every practical mundane detail which is necessary to get her in a room where sex can occur.
If she is hungry and you don't feed her, she won't be in the mood to sleep with you. Yet if you feed her too much, she also won't sleep with you. If feeding her takes too long, she will be too sleepy and also won't sleep with you.
And a thousand other things like that.
If you want results you have to handle every single niggly detail, and do it quickly and smoothly.

Oh God....
Your biggest mistake is actually assuming you will become rich from daytrading. What you'll discover is that you actually end up losing money and wasting even more time until your situation becomes truly dire.
The problem with leeching value as a survival strategy is not merely that it hurts others and society, is often simply does not work even for you. Greed and desire to take shortcuts often ends up hurting you the most.
The surest way to become wealthy is through serious hard work, not through get-rich-quick-schemes like this.
Daytrading is a get-rich-quick-scheme because it offers no value to the world yet demands high profits. And therefore it is fundamentally unnatural and you will be ruthlessly weeded out by evolution. Theft is a risky survival strategy. And don't fool yourself, what you're doing is a form of theft -- you're just not connecting the dots yet.
Stop listening to people who are selling you the idea that daytrading will make you rich. Those people don't make money off daytrading, they make their money off desperate suckers like you.
I understand you just want to be financially free. But financial freedom is not created with that kind of mindset. Financial freedom is very counter-intuitive. You have to relinquish your desire for quick and easy results. Rather than trying to get rich quick, you must adopt an attitude of get rich slow.
The proper way to get wealthy is to offer massive value to the world, to become genuinely creative. Not these silly games you're playing. Your greed and laziness with backfire on you.

There should be enough pre-trip anxiety which shows a healthy respect for the substance. But it should not be uncontrollable fear that grips your mind. Just some mild hesitation due to your recognition of the seriousness of this work.
Overall your mood should be, "I'm read. Let's do this."
If you don't feel ready, you're not ready, so don't trip.

Of course.
Physical objects like your hands are just a denser layer of imagination than the domain of your thoughts.
But if you were able to become conscious enough to break through into the physical layer, you could literally reimagine how your hands look. If you become conscious enough, your hand could become a monster's paw -- since the difference is imaginary. At which point you would be so freaked out you'd think you'd gone insane and you would beg God to give you your old state of mind back.
See, your sanity is your bottleneck. It's fear of insanity that keeps you human, otherwise you'd have already turned yourself into a kangaroo and hopped away.
What do you think a kangaroo is? It's you minus all attachments to being human!

Yes!
Flake rate is typically very high. Which is why PUAs tend to push for same night lays.
You should also get in the habit of screening. Screen for boyfriends, screen her desire to date.

WAY way lower.
And logistics are almost never right.
Realistically close rate is less than 1 in 100.
If you are approaching girls and hoping for a 1 in 10 close rate, you are out of your mind dog.
Typical sales close rates are 0.5-2%

A fine example of integrity.
Although I agree, his mother's death is irrelevant here.
Just goes to show how academia isn't a place for serious intellectuals, philosophers, or spiritual practitioners.
Cornel West should just lecture on YT. Why the fuck does he need Harvard? That's some elitist nonsense he got tied up with.

I am not saying to print wealth.
It can certainly be distributed better.
If Amazon employees got double their salary, society would be better off. That you can't see this shows your lack of vision.
You frame this situation as though we would be stealing money from Jeff Bezos. But consider another frame: Bezos stole most of his money from Amazon employees.
You see, 500 years ago, a king would claim that all the money in the country was his. And when people suggested to change that system, the king righteously felt that they would stealing all his money. But the deeper truth was that the king got all his money by stealing it from the people. So the people took it back and killed the king.
No one gets a billion dollars by earning it. You get a billion dollars by stealing it. This is crucial to understand.
The logic you are using is exactly the same logic that was used to justify kingdoms.
You are assuming that a billionaire's wealth rightly belongs to him. But this purely a social construction.

$10 million is literally plenty of reward for ANY job on the planet.
You know what feels really shitty? Paying someone who works in the hot sun picking strawberries all day long $20/day. How about rewarding them? Why do you not care about properly rewarding 99% of the workforce, but you are so passionate about rewarding the top 0.01% who are already so highly rewarded that literally they cannot feel the difference when we add an extra billion to their bank account?
Do you see how fucked up your priorities are?
How about rewarding teachers, police, firefighters, soldiers, mothers, construction workers, fast food workers, Amazon warehouse workers, delivery drivers? See, you don't give a fuck about these people who are being exploited to make Jeff Bezos a billionaire.
Billionaires are a lot more analogous to kings than to the existence of money itself.
Money is a necessary and important technology. Billionaires are not necessary, like kings.
All this is true of slavery.
In the 1850s you'd be in a public forum shouting that our society is not evolved enough to abolish slavery and that we cannot function without slaves. Out of slaves, massive wealth creation, etc. We can even fuck them for free. How can a man live without having slaves to fuck? Our society cannot handle it.

DHV comes off as too fake and gamey.
Be fun and playful. Don't try to impress. And then on top of that, you should already be a cool and interesting guy by building out a cool and interesting life.
DHV should be a natural consequence of your yearly self-actualizing work. Once you got it, you don't need to try to impress girls with it. It will naturally reveal itself as she starts asking about your life.
Like, if a girl starts asking me what I do, if I just talk about it authentically, I will come off as very high value. She will be like, "I thought this guy is just playful and fun, but he's also got an amazing life! This is amazing. I want his dick right now!"
If anything, you could even DLV. Purposefully play down your value by telling her you work at Walmart sucking customer's dicks. This will come off much better than trying to impress her that you're a DJ.
"Girl... you think you want to be with some hotshot DJ, but I know what you really want. You want to marry a guy who works at Walmart sucking customer's dicks for minimum wage. I bet you didn't even know Walmart had such a position. Well, they do and today's your lucky day."
Humor is the fastest way into a woman's pants.
P.S. If you actually work at Walmart, then that strategy will not work so well. It works better the higher value your naturally are. If you were a DJ or a doctor, that line would work amazing.

I sit now before my computer covered in dirt, I'm too tired to take a shower. I spend my days slaving away in the hot sun and carrying heavy shit, in exchange I get like $750 every two weeks. I have no friends or ever had a romantic relationship, I live with my parents but I feel like I hardly know them and vice-versa. Trying to tell them about self help or entrepreneurship is like trying to tell a toddler about the rise of Hitler, they're uninterested and they find the television far more intriguing. It's disturbing how complacent and myopic the human mind can become after a lifetime of mediocre unconscious work, they're like zombies! The fucking television is the most diabolical invention man ever unleashed! After work my body and mind feel numb and hazy, but I fight through it because there's more important work to be done, I'm a CEO after all! At least that's what it says on my business card. I make a sale here and there but I wouldn't say my business is a success quite yet. At the end of the day I lay alone in darkness, my only companion the voice whispering 'I love you' through my headphones, sometimes its a man's, sometimes it's a woman's. Then its right back to work in the morning, to the scorching hot sun and asphalt, to serving and obeying people I dislike, to fighting the urge to knock someones teeth out. I honestly think a sane man's first reaction to being ordered around in the heat like a dog would be to gut the motherfucker who crossed you like a fish so no one else gets the idea they're your superior, but I'm a lover, not a fighter. Maybe I'll listen to one of Leo's videos with my earbuds or imagine I'm Augustus or Napoleon to pass the time! I always liked the idea of being a conqueror or an emperor. In a strange masochistic way I enjoy it sometimes, the stinging and aching in my muscles, the unforgiving omnipotent sun, the sweat bleeding into my eyes. It's a very peculiar high but most of the time I feel like jumping off a bridge.
What the fuck is this? This is what life is like in the twenty-first century? How the fuck do people do this decade after decade? I'm only twenty-three and I've had enough of this shit! The life of the average person is a mind-numbing bitter struggle only interrupted by mediocre media, hollow relationships, insultingly little vacation, and alcohol. How has the plurality of mankind embraced this way of life? It is humiliating! I feel like a different species or something because I'm the only one I know fighting for an alternative! How the fuck do you just get told what to do your entire life!? Doesn't this fucking bother you after a while!? Then people get married, have kids, and buy a house, MEGAFUCKING the entire situation, now they're guaranteed to always be a wage slave!
I HAD TO WORK ON THE FUCKING FOURTH OF JULY LAST YEAR!!! The day about, ya' know, FREEDOM!!! How the fuck do you cope with this shit because I feel like a losing my sanity more and more by the day!