I can clearly tell. Which is why I'm saying it's not gonna work. You need to learn patience and consistency. It's hard to be successful from a place of desperation. Flailing your arms around is not how you do this work.
Meditation is a very serious affair and should be approached with the seriousness it deserves.
I cannot stress enough how much quality trumps quantity in this work. You must first be able to execute 20 minutes of quality meditation before you move on to 1hr, 2hr, 3hr. It is pointless to do 3 hours of low-quality meditation. You can do that for years and get nowhere!
Meditation is the antithesis of a quick fix. You are definitely not going to bull your way through into mastery of your mind. If that were possible all my work would be meaningless.

So many people live such shallow lives, without any sense of life purpose or philosophical depth. Of course you will be depressed that way.
What do most teens live for? Games? Porn? Parties? Sex? Online content? Likes? Approval from friends?
All of that is trash.

All things are ultimately One. Reality is composed of imaginary differences.
Yes, the difference between your Mom and a dog is imaginary. However, don't forget, imagination IS reality.

Def Canada. You can buy anything there legally pretty much 

Psychedelics moreso. I used psychedelics to build a rock solid inner game. Any insecurity about myself is gone and my state is much more consistent. I have better inner game than many coaches I know. Because while they were chasing girls, I was realizing myself as God.

There is a lot of overlap.
Ethics is usually rules of conduct for institutions and organizations whereas morality is more about your conduct as an individual.

No.
The notion of "matter" is a figment of Consciousness, so matter IS Consciousness.
However, what God can do it make you believe that matter is not Consciousness. So God can do the above as an illusion. Which is exactly what it has done.
Consciousness can never stop being Consciousness, however, it can forget that it is Consciousness. And that's the whole trick: forgetting.

If a girl calls you out for using pickup lines, you gotta stand firm and call her out on her shit. Like this: "Well, how else am I supposed to meet you? I saw you. I felt attracted. I came over. I'm a simple guy. And the opening line I use is irrelevant. I could have stopped you with the line: I love chicken."
Or, a dead simple alternative to all that would be: "I don't use pickup lines when I got real game. Pickup lines are for children."
But if you're gonna say that, you have to not be using canned pickup lines.
You create trust by being genuine. Have nothing to hide.

Simple:
Just focus on your ultimate vision: At the end of all this you will grow into a powerful, confident, high value man, and you will sleep with plenty of cute girls, and ultimately find your dream girl.
That's all you should be thinking about, not the negative crap.

Just remember that 99% of good news is never reported.
So your picture of reality is very skewed and untrue.

Absolutely.
But it is crucial to be able to maintain a conversation. The words don't matter so much but holding conservation is a kind of sub-communication and it is key to getting laid.
Developing that skill was one of my biggest challenges.

He's not wrong here. That's the most solid type of pickup.
Pickup is truly nothing more than approach, be in a fun mood, hold conversation, flirt, escalate, lead.

Chronic health problems have basically destroyed my happiness. I have to work around it every day.
But I am still happier than most of you.

Yes, it's bullshit.
Your happiness is completely contingent on good health.
A human in good health cannot even comprehend what it means to have bad health. Such people are oblivious and naive as children.
But like I said, you can still be happy.

@Igor82 There is a notion called: attunement to the subjective reality of others.
You don't have to buy into the reality of others, but you must be aware of what their subjective reality is and how they perceive you. This has nothing to do with caring what they think of you or them liking you.
If you are dealing with a hungry lion, you should be aware of his subjective reality and your place in it. Inability to do this is a mental dysfunction.

Technically yes, but don't get too technical here. Grasp what I said at a high level.
You can understand the frame of mind of other people with whom you're dealing with.
The technical psychological term for this is "theory of mind". Look it up.

If you cannot have conversations with normal people without them looking at your weird, that's your clue you are spiraling out of control.
No matter how conscious you get, you should always retain your ability to talk with normal people in a reasonable way without them thinking anything is wrong with you.
The first thing I notice about people with mental illness and dysfunction is that they cannot communicate coherently and reasonably with me. They are lost in their own minds with little awareness of how others percieve them.

Yes, significantly. I have much less time and energy for game than normies.
Serious games requires a lot of energy because it's exhausting.

There was no disagreement here.
He was asking for a solution to self-deception and I gave it.
Yes, humans are monkeys. It has nothing to do with them being nice or not. A monkey is a survival robot. And that is what you are until you start taking truth seriously.
If you don't like being called a monkey then stop being one.

No pleasure you get will match the pleasure of exploring higher realms of Consciousness. Which is why the the wisest don't care about fucking.

The light at the end of the tunnel is Infinite Love. But the ego will resist like a bitch.
To truly grasp what consciousness is requires losing your sanity.
There is good reason why humans don't do this work. It's no joke.

1) That's way too big a dose to start with. Now you spooked yourself off.
2) 5-MeO-DMT can have a pretty uncomfortable body-load for many people. It takes getting used to. Usually the body-load passes once you're heavy into the trip.
3) Some chemicals will just never be right for you. Find the ones that resonate with you. However, know that it takes time to get the full potential of 5-MeO-DMT. You cannot do it with just a couple of trips. You must really test it out patiently, knowing that there is a goldmine at the end of the road if you succeed. But you may have to work for it.
4) You may have energetic or psychological blockages which are keeping you locked up and unable to open up to the full 5-MeO-DMT experience. Those blocks need to be worked out over time through smaller trips, perhaps on other substances.
5) Stick to 10-20mg doses. And also consider plugging vs snorting. Snorting is a really unpleasant experience which will just make you not want to do it again. Plugging results in a more gentle trip than snorting.
6) 5-MeO-DMT is not a fun, recreational psychedelic. It's as serious as it gets. It should only appeal to the most hardcore, metaphysical-oriented psychonauts.

I don’t think turns the Tripp into a happy pretty trip, but the benzo can kill or numb down the anxiety and after that who knows
also, how would the dosing work?

Personally I'm not a fan. Psychedelics are superior if you have access. Ketamine disables the body and perceptual system. It is not like a psychedelic, you clearly feel it is an anesthetic and medicine like.
Doing it a few times is okay, but I would be careful doing it on a regular basis. Although I know people who do it weekly and love it.
Ia it worth doing at least one or twice? Sure! You will have a nice reference experience for how consciousness works. But hell, DMT or LSS is so much better in my opinion.

Feel the suffering of it, and then leverage that to resolve to never make the same mistake again.
This is how you learn your biggest lessons, by fucking up. Don't waste a perfectly good fuck-up by not leveraging the emotional pain of it to grow.