Rigel

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  1. Posted

    Hello everyone I just want to share something that happened to me that maybe some of you can benefit from.

    So yesterday I was in an ego backlash after having a mushroom trip the day before and telling the truth to my parents about everything I do and my consumption of psychedelic compounds.(Another story)

    It was not that big of a backlash. I feel a lot more present today and I think part of what helped me get out of that is the very fact that I did not try to resist any of the "unconscious" behaviour. I ate terrible food all day and I did not guilt myself for it. What happened instead of me just going down that spiral is that I became very conscious of the effect that it had on my body. I felt terrible to be honest and I still do to a certain extend today while I am writing this.

    By this point I have absolutely no interest in eating junk food anymore. I did yesterday and I didn't like it. The little rush of pleasure from the taste I can get is just not worth it. I am way more at ease and happy when eating my regular whole food vegan diet.

    I remembre the video where leo talks about real vs fake growth and where he explains the difference and I understand now. I could just build an environnement for myself where I would have very limited contact to those kind of foods. For exemple, by not going out and hangout with my friends anymore(Because let's be honest restaurant food is generally garbage). By doing that I would probably eat a quite healty diet but it wouldn't solve anything internaly. I feel like I could go out right now, surrounded by junk food and alcool and not even want any of that. Just the joy of being with friends would be more than enough.

    For a long time I did the whole diet thing out of a sens of "Should" because it's somehow the "right" thing to do. That's terrible way to go about it ahah. Now I just want to be healthy and conscious. That's want I want not what I think I should do to become "better" or to aggrandize myself.

  2. Posted

     It's all french but if I had to translate it would be something like that I think:

    *Just doing anything sometimes and not taking yourself so seriously sometimes because sometimes we take ourselves too seriously sometimes and sometimes that's it*

    A king lives under the ground

    He was living in you

    A cross that is lying on the ground

    They were fearing me

     

    Why do we break our heads?

    Against moons to see

    Your turn to melt the hand

    Under that silky shirt

    *Wooah I almost fell to the ground! And now I am blowing my nose on my shirt... Everything fonctions perfectly every where everything works!*

    It's a lot better in french, it ryhmes?

     

    Funny note: almost all the video is a montage of a river flowing that I filmed a couple days ago at night under a bridge.

     

     

  5. Posted

    1 hour ago, Sidra said:

    Or should I give up on all of this n live the way they want me to..

    I don't think it's a wise way to go.

    Live up to what you want and if that means leaving your parents so be it...

    Follow your intuition, you seem interested in reality and truth and my advice would be to follow that.

    I know there's no easy way to go about this but I wish you all the best!?

  10. Posted · Edited by Rigel

    Every time you have a thought about how "unconscious" you think they are. Ask yourself how you are doing said "unconscious" behavior yourself.

    Judgment make it seem like there's a problem out there that you are well above but it's just a smokescreen to mask one's own bullshit.

    I hope you'll find the light within all of this turmoil<3

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    I don't know if I am confused or not. I don't understand what confusion mean. I feel like in the midst of an ego backlash yet I see that as happening with no substance to it. Everything seems groundless. I have no clue what to do or where to go next and I don't feel like it's a problem at all. I see a lot of assomptions and truth claims within myself. I know they are false and I don't feel a need to change that. I am tired yet wide awake. I am filled with the most insane _________ (I don't know the word for it) standing there in awe before the total absurdity of what is going on. Wow I am breaking down?

    No I am not tripping

  20. Posted

    On 09/04/2019 at 1:47 AM, RawJudah said:

    @bejapuskas obviously factory farming is bad. That’s why we should only buy grass fed pasture raised animal products. 

    What ya going to do though? Stop the big factory farms? 

    Come on...

    Actually grass fed is more damagable for the environment. Not talking about health here. It demands more land, and more ressources overall. Given the number of people on earth today it's a sure way to increase global warming. 

  23. Posted

    Thank you! @Sahil Pandit To be honest I was at a point where I feel it was just necessary.

    I was conscious of how it robbed me of my potential for many months but I was unable to let that go until it clicked.

    I clearly saw that to go where I want to go in life I cannot indulge in those activities anymore.

    So really that's the vision for my life purpose and the desire to grow myself and become more conscious that did it for me.

    I did not tell myself to stop because I should or because I believed it was bad for me there was just something in me that was ready to grow past that.

    I said to myself fuck it i'm doing it no matter what. I remembered the 100% commitment concept from the life purpose course.