Javfly33

Samara is reality until is ILLUSION. That's why I never bought the story of "don't worry, you don't exist". Sure in the absolute sense I don't exist but it doesn't matter if my conscioussness is imagining an ego self. Then that is reality. Since Reality = Imagination @Nahm I'm not sure I get you. What is Objective really? Maybe just an idea.

You are not getting it. There's no filtering. Whatever "you see" is Actual and Objective.

I don't know if it's an illusion but lately I've been discovering that instead of avoiding fear or trying to come up with strategies or "accomplish self growth goals" that make the fear dissappear, it's better to get used to walk towards the fear, accepting the fear, surrendering to the fear, being in the fear, making the habit of making friends with fear.

Wow I want to hear a story of that!! @Hello from Russia Do you have any topics talking about that phase of your life?

THE mere meaning of "wrong" needs a subject or a reference point.

You are right I would like if I would say I haven't been influenced by Leo's teaching. I would say though If I would have to bet, he's pretty close to the truth. But for me is not as clear yet if not I would been totally surrendered to this dream and I would be enlightened.

Yes, but I assume everybody already understand that. Reality always happens in your experience. Imagining is a neccesity because reality happens out of Imagination. There's no ground whatsoever to reality. Only your imagination as God. So God can imagine a human breathing to stay alive, to then imagine a human smoking DMT, dissappear as human, and imagine a whole other situation where there is no body and no breathing.

People don't get how radical Truth is . When you go to sleep, of course breathing is not happening. The fact that you imagine that when you have been sleeping a body has been breathing is in fact, a thought, a guess, an imagination that is NOT actuality. You realized that in actuality there was NO breathing, and indeed. Breath is imaginary, as everything. Just make sure when the neccesity of Breathing is bring imagined, you actually Breath. ?

Last year I've been in the findom community, most men there actually just want connection with the girls, not sex. Ironically, the clients of this fetish are usually called "paypigs". I say ironically because you are calling them "piggish selfish men". Don't know where you are trying to get with that though. We all want connection but sometimes we all want to satisfy our urges too. Another thing which is ironic is that you are trying to make it as men are the ones who are selfish? Of course Pornography is a selfish business. Men wants to get off, but Women in the findom community don't doubt in draining 100$ in 10 minutes after calling his client piece of shit and off people who are clearly depressed or have serious self esteem issues. This is the "stage green" you are talking about right? ? It's a service though, I'm not judging because if I would be a findomme and I could make money I'll probably justify what I do since it would be for the benefit of my survival. Just saying...don't think selfish business is a matter of men only ? I've seen things...oh man, you wouldn't believe.

Maybe it's time for 5-MeO to truly surrender.

Well. I'm God after all. I'm just trying to understand the why's of my design. From my ego mind seems a quite flawed design. But if you say that survival is a necessary part of a perfect design...I'll open my mind to verify it and see if you are right. ?

You could also create unbreakable bodies that just go off (shut down) at the 80 year mark. Seems a little stupid to create a system that complex (survival) to then be limited by it (create fears and pains because if not due to the nature of survival the organism is not going to live very longer). Why create survival in the first place? And not just unbreakable bodies in a chaos of creativity for infinity?

@Gesundheit I think I understand you more now what you are trying to say. And I'm not saying that you are wrong, but Have you ever had a mystical realization of Truth? If not it's clear to me now that we are not taking about the same Truth/Absolute and relative to this absolute.

I'm saying that because of the following phrase: "The thoughts describing it can be either true or false depending on whether they actually represent what happened or not." Reading this makes me think your understanding of "true" is flawed. Well, not really flawed just relative to language and meaning. When you talk about Truth notice you are talking about Absolute Truth. Yet your trying to say that there's this set of words (relative ) of numbers (relative) in language (relative) that describe Truth (Absolute). You could be a million years trying to describe it and you couldn't. Because relative happens in the Absolute. Relative can't grasp something Absolute. A finger can't grasp a hand.

Well is true in this case that you don't know what you are talking about. What is that thing about "a set of words that describe truth" sorry what? Lol. Truth is beyond language, that doesn't make any sense. Having said that sure sometimes Leo is too harsh, although I would say in this case he just said what is true.

@WaveInTheOcean What would I create that dream as God? To discover that I did it all for Love? Damn it sounds too cheesy man i gotta be honest with ya. I´m that cheesy? OMG

Of course, but even in a non dual direct recognition of yourself, reality EXISTS. It´s what "you" are "seeing" in front you, YOU? Yes. But it still exists. Not only that, but duality is being projected again. So the dream keeps on going. I sometimes suspect that if reality keeps on going, is because God hasn´t still recognize itself truly. If it would have been, why he would still create duality.

Isn´t perception reality? Perception exists

Yeah, I think you hit the nail there. My average day is waking up, taking a dose of kratom or coffee, heading to work, taking another dose of kratom or coffee, finish work at 15pm. Fix a meal and rest until 5pm,but sometimes at that time i crash and I sleep until 6pm. By that time I am somewhat sleepy and lethargic so I do a coffee but since i dont have much tolerance it just makes me anxious so I end up not doing the work i want to do (work on finding a better job). I just surf the net or apply to some job offers. Kinda wasting time tbh. And then because I took coffee I can´t sleep so i do another dose of kratom to get me to sleep (but this is not all days just the days I do coffee at 6pm and I can´t sleep since i have little tolerance)

I don´t have a problem having energy for physical stuff but I´m having serious challenge coming back to my software developer projects because I just cant put in the energy/focus to get back at them. Its been sometime since I quit caffeine (over 3 months) and I feel I haven´t yet recover from it. I do not have the energy I used to have with coffee. The problem is, I have tried to drink an expresso, and since I have little tolerance I get so many jitters and pushy stimulation I can´t do anything and I end up watching porn of so stimulated I get (and anxious). Basically my focus and mental energy is shit and I dont what to do if go back to 4 coffees a day to see if my tolerance go up and i dont get so anxious and jitter but at least I can work.

I have smoked 5-meo and I don't know what the fuck you are talking about. I guess I have to increase the dose ?

Interesting, didn´t know dark chocolate would have that much caffeine. I will have to try it thanks I have heard of it too much, need to try it definetely soon!

Why you call it "horrible"?

@Opo @Keyhole @Rolo @Globalcollective Thanks guys for the advices I didn´t expect this support and I have found of them quite interesting/helpful. Will update how thiss turns out. Anyway If I find a better flat on my own I´ll defientely move

Should I just try to find another place? It kind of sucks because the room i found is really really good . I could communicate it with the owner of the flat but he probably will do nothing as long as he gets paid monthy. So far he uses a language and attutude that it´s aggresive towards me, he slams doors constantly...etc. Im afraid some day he will go crazy and really violent.