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  1. I had a dream a couple of months ago, and it was like a calling that I feel compelled to answer to. It was for a cause that exists on the opposite side of the world to where I live. The dream was very powerful and had an effect on me. I believe that we as humans are given signs and opportunities to make decisions in life. Sometimes these come in dreams which we have the choice to follow or ignore. I am seriously considering following this dream. If someone has relevant information or past experience in this domain, I would love to hear some advice/guidance. I don't know where to start. I have a small amount of money in the bank. I would like to make a difference to people's lives. Can anyone point me in the right direction?
  2. It's absolutely clear to me. I'd love to move to green, but I'm clearly an orange guy. Don't know if I'm ready to move to green. It's not so appealing. I'm entrenched in a materialistic mindset. Guess I should milk it for all it's worth?
  3. My dreams are so lucid that I occasionally interact with [people I know in real life] in the dream. I have had long conversations with people and agreed that we would talk about this experience we were having [in the dream world] in "real waking life". Then when I naively bring up the subject with said acquaintances, they look at me like I'm crazy. A lot of my dreams are so vivid and lucid that I definitely find it hard to believe they are "just dreams". I've been experimenting with looking at an object in a lucid dream, then looking away, then looking back. What I've found is that the object changes slightly every time. Like, if I'm looking at a wardrobe, it looks ornate the first time, then basic, then patterned, then basic again etc. I've been 800 years in the future, on another planet, after the end of planet earth, experiencing a kind of Star Wars type scenario with all kinds of aliens, and it was completely lucid and extremely vivid. Quite amazing what consciousness can do.
  4. I sometimes get book recommendations in my dreams. Like, I once found Viktor Frankl's biography in a lucid dream. Then I went and bought it when I woke up. Pretty cool, eh?
  5. Could you do a video of your favourite music? I'm interested to know, because you mention in at least one of your videos that you have a playlist of "sad" music that you listen to. I often listen to melancholy music and I think it's amazing that we can find joy in sadness. I bet you have a few cheesy numbers in there as well, right? 😉
  6. It is impossible to talk about nothing or even make an advert about nothing. It's possible, however, to "talk about something" or "make an advert about something" It's also possible to "not talk about anything" or "not make an advert". 🤔 What that right there is, is an advert about something.
  7. @Serotoninluv if my assumptions are correct then I am enduring a state of existence beyond any hell that anyone else could even imagine. To live with even the assumption that your very essence... your happiness... has been severely compromised if not obliterated due to biological damage, is the most horrific thing I can imagine. And the worst thing is that I brought it upon myself. Not only that but it's incredibly difficult to talk about, for reasons that are obvious if you think about them. Yet here I am.
  8. Can you imagine what it's like to be permanently on an ecstasy comedown for 12 years, constantly considering suicide, because you think the serotonin receptors in your brain have been burnt out and there's nothing you can do about it? Giving up on happiness and taking any drug to attempt to get back to how you felt then? Giving up on caring about yourself or your mental health, because who cares about a little more brain damage? The organ that you consider 'yourself' is damaged beyond repair, affecting your behaviour and mood every day. That is my life. It's a wonder I haven't killed myself by this point.
  9. Leo, most of the time, especially when alone, I feel nothing but existential torment. I don't feel love like I used to. Nothing compares to what I felt on MDMA 12 years ago. That is the truth, and ever since then, I have felt there is something 'missing' in my very essence. I can't feel that connection to others. My life has been hell ever since that experience with MDMA, and I don't think I'll ever get back what I once had.
  10. @Leo Gura what do you mean by that?
  11. @FoxFoxFox lol YASSS!!!
  12. @FoxFoxFox stop asking me questions and give me answers, oh enlightened one.
  13. @FoxFoxFox I have to have concepts to even comprehend what your saying. Although you also have to have a conceptual framework to get across what you're trying to. Because language itself is a concept. Now, if you're trying to wake me up, keep trying. Because I'm enjoying sleepy time.
  14. @FoxFoxFox yes... A very interesting perspective... I will ponder that long and hard. 🤔