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  1. Yeah, to be honest, it doesn't matter. I don't worry about the outcome, I just try to do the best I can. Everything is progressing as need be.
  2. Yeah, this is the perspective I am generally using. I didn't emphasis it in my post because I was only highlighting the effects the industry could have on the environment. I saw it in myself. I was willing to put 1.6 tonnes of Co2e in the atmosphere just to see my brother for 2 weeks when he is moving back anyway a couple of months after. We have to evaluate whether flights we take are needed and worth that cost. It is difficult though because it is a subjective opinion. However, most people I interact with on a daily basis do not take this perspective. They just assume because they have the money to be able to afford a plane that they can use it, which is fine, but they abuse it. People can get flights from London to Russia for £10. I know people that fly every other weekend. As well as eating meat and dairy on a daily basis. Not everybody lives on an island, away from their family and friends. Most live in cities in close proximity to their relatives. Generally speaking. At what cost do we need our lives to be enriched? An interesting piece of data pulled from Seth Wynes 2017 environmental research paper.
  3. I am starting to agree. I was planning on visiting my brother, who lives in India, for 2 weeks. Then I realised the absurdity of flying around the world to visit someone for ONLY 2 weeks. What a luxury we have, and it is absolutely taken for granted. Flights have become too cheap and are accessible to many people. A dangerous mix.
  4. Commercial air travel is currently responsible for a relatively tiny part of the global carbon footprint —just 3.5% of total greenhouse gas emissions, according to the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change. But the unique chemistry of high-altitude jet emissions may produce an additional warming effect, while the explosive growth in air travel makes it one of the fastest-growing sources of carbon gases in the atmosphere. And unlike energy or automobiles, where carbon-free or lower-carbon alternatives already exist, even if they have yet to be widely adopted, there is no low-carbon way to fly, and they're likely won't be for decades. The Airports Council International estimates that the number of airline tickets sold per year will double to more than 9 billion by 2025. Much of the growth will come in rapidly developing Asia, where passenger numbers are increasing by 10% to 15% annually. Even as carbon emissions from air travel grow rapidly, scientists are investigating claims that they may double the warming effect because of the altitude at which they're emitted. As jets soar they leave behind contrails, vapor threads of condensation that can persist for hours, especially in colder areas, and behave like high-altitude cirrus clouds. Those clouds seem to have a net warming effect, trapping heat in the atmosphere. Planes also create ozone, a greenhouse gas that has a stronger warming effect at high altitudes than low. The science is still being nailed down, but the side effects of high-altitude emissions could double air travel's contributions to global warming. Are we using our magical ability to fly irresponsibly?
  5. What do you trade? and how do you get into it?
  6. How many hows a day do you work? What is the recommended amount?
  7. Does any one experience memory changes after taking a psychedelic. Do you notice a change in memory for the better or for the worse? How does it effect your long term memory or short term memory?
  8. What are the best ways to practice self love? Ok I understand. Don’t slack. Still work out, still focus on you LP. Mix the inner Jihad with the outer Jihad. Will give this a shot, thank you so much !
  9. I have had some deep awakenings over the past month. Utterly profound. Even though these awakenings were deep, the aftermath was pure suffering. I realise the devil has been operating my life since I was a teenager. It is so paradoxical because it is apart of oneness. But it feels like it is separate. And now it is stronger then ever before. I have seen what is lurking within my unconscious mind and it is not pretty. All the worst things I could have possibly thought about myself has arisen into my awareness. It is paralysing. It is scary. It is hard to see it as an illusion because it is so powerful. I am scared. I am confused. I am lost. I can’t do anything. My emotions are completely out of control. I have lost my mind. There is so sense of any grounding to my reality. One moment I cry, one moment I am paralysed with anxiety. Taking my away ability to make any desicions. I have lost interest in material aspects of life, and I have reduced me social circle to literally a couple of people and family. I struggle to relate to my family any more because they are so different. They don’t have the same values. It is hard to keep any relationships with this peculiar, intense yet strangely synchronistic experience going on. Heck I am losing my ability to communicate and form sentences with people. The only thing I know I can do is to meditate more. I am in too deep now. I guess I have to continue and work through this stuff. I am only 24, sometimes I wonder weather to leave this work for a later time. But I can’t I have seen some deep shit. I can’t go back to my materialistic life. But my meditation are scary. The sensations get more intense, they get more dark. I have images/thoughts of suicide or killing others. And I never knew I am capable of thinking these thoughts and feeling these feelings. One thing is to just observe these feelings, these thoughts it will pass. Has anyone experienced this after having awakening experiences?
  10. So after my 4 aco dmt trip which I took after 10 day meditation retreat. It felt like the light of consciousness spilt my mind in two with glass. I became the void and saw how everything is arising out of me. Biggest mind fuck. Now I see that there is nothing outside my direct experience, that my direct experience is floating within nothingness, existing in no particular location. It is like a bubble. Then when I look at another person I see nothing in side them. They don’t exist in any location. It is like the present moment is a bubble within a bubble within a bubble to infinity existing nowhere
  11. Has anyone managed to reach states where they have no thoughts for 10mins, for example. There is no thinker, thoughts arise, but is it possible to have no thoughts arise for a long period of time. If so how?
  12. Yeah this was difficult. It can become an addiction to want to stay in these states of altered consciousness. The key is to apply the insights into daily life as it is so easy to get back into the trap of ego/delusion. I think what is helping me is when i meditate at home i combine vipassana with neti neti - makes it a lot easier to see impermanence, no self whilst interacting with others.
  13. This is what I am going through at the moment. But fuck what they think, they like to indulge in the shallower aspects of life. They don't care about depth, they care about fitting in and surviving. That is perfectly fine. Each to their own. You do you, enjoy what you do, let the passion of life flow through you. Follow your bliss, my passions are spirituality and wildlife medicine, I have other hobbies but generally, my focus' are limited. I have this as a grounding and in generall it allows me to connect with people more. Every person has a unique story to tell, be interested in what they have to say. You don't have to dismay other perspectives because yours is so different. Also, surround yourself by people who have similar values, this means you don't feel like the odd one out. Sometimes you can feel very isolated when you only interact with people as stage orange or below in spiral dynamics. Find people who are at your level and above so you have some ideal to work towards and that can guide you. Maybe get a new girlfriend/friends
  14. Wow this is a great way from frame my situation. I find that it is difficult working on LP and Enlightenment work simultaneously. Whenever I do deep enlightenment work I struggle to focus on my LP and vice Versa. I think I am going to focus more on my LP as I am only 24 and will develop a strong grounding in it, this will also enable me to survive in society doing something I love. I will still be doing meditation and psychedelics but not as deep. Once LP becomes mastered will go deeper into enlightenment. Feels like a weight lifted of your shoulders figuring this out but now i am even more scared to start and take action. I guess that is where the growth starts.
  15. Do you think Steve Irwin was conscious of what he was exitensitally or do you think he just has a compassionate identity/ego? It seems that even at the height of his fame he wasn’t corrupt as the profits he made went straight back into conservation and the purchase of land to conserve.