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There is no location in which experience is happening, and there is no thing which knows it is happening.

I am here? Where is here? I am 5m away from that tree? Does that mean your body is 5m away from the tree? Or if see a guy and I am 10m from him? What is the you that I am trying to locate? The perceiver? OK, so when you say "where are you," you mean where is the perceiver of things? Ok, so where is the perceiver of things? When I perceive a tree, am I in my head? Which is 5m away from the tree, which is in Himalayas, which is in India, etc, we can go forever and ever. It's just a chain of "where" stemming from the head, because you can keep giving another word for where the other word is. So no you aren't even defining a location for something. You are coming up with more perceptions and words to define a location for the previous word, which in turn is leading to nowhere. So you are still here by actually struggling to find where you are. The stories you give yourself are there to make comfort for your life, they give your life a grounding. But really, there is only perception. So even the question: where are you? is a perception within the sea of perceptions. And you are the knowing of the perceptions. So where is that? When I look at a tree, is the act of perceiving happening in my head? Or is it happening "as the tree is known", is the tree self-knowing? Is that where I am? But if every perception is self-knowing and that is where I am, I am not located. Location is happening inside what I am.

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I just wanted to say, thank you so much for your work @Leo Gura I've been following your work since 2014. I'm just imagining how I was back then. Extremely socially anxious. So scared of women. Unclear in what I wanted to do. I was so lost. Painful just to exist every day. I wasn't sure why this was happening. Why I was deserving of it. Every day felt like panic attacks, and I couldn't be comfortable around people. I hated life. I hated my family. I hated myself deeply. But your content, especially as it matured into spiritual development, was so fucking interesting to me. It was the only thing that kept me sane. Finally, someone I can listen to and I can relate to. Someone who's introspective and cares about life and what it is. You showed me how to develop a deep passion for existence, for consciousness work. As you're getting into consciousness work, I still needed to deal with all of my troubles that I was facing. I wanted to push further and harder into meditation, but the survival aspects of my life were just a mess. I left all of that and focused on survival: focused on getting a stable job, being able to attract women, being able to be comfortable in social situations. Through you as the basis for overcoming all of these issues I faced. And now I just can't imagine how different my life is. The connections I have had with people, especially women, have been unbelievably beautiful and deep. My anxiety is basically gone, and when it comes I love it. The connection I have with existence, just through consciousness work on a day-to-day basis, is getting to the point where it just moves me: The profundity and beauty of life The fact I'm alive The fact that experience is happening The fact that I'm here It just moves me to tears. I've been crying alot this year, and it's been fucking incredible. The risks I've taken in my career, the risks I've taken traveling around the world, traveling to different cultures, experiencing a multitude of different cultures, have given me a worldview of compassion and care for existence. I'm not scared of life anymore. Well, I'm less scared. Surrendering to it. Like, fuck it, whatever happens, happens. Let's ride this bull. Let's ride it till we die. Everyday is magnificent. Every day is magical. I just want to go deeper into this. I wanna go deeper into myself. Into my understanding of who I am. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you

Atm I quit my job and went in on the startup. But I moved to the Himalayas so it is cheaper here. And simple. I am reaching such profound states of love, beauty, by just doing nothing.

Appreciate your advice. But I do work. I don't really have the energy to put into finding a gf for per se. I am working on a startup with my friend and I am meditating for four-five hours a day , I could be working more on the business to make more money, but I don't, so I make less money. That's annoying, but I'd rather meditate. Do you see what I'm saying?

"if you enjoy just sitting there then it should mean you enjoy watching the birds more and enjoy going on walks with your friends even more". I do enjoy these as much. All I want to do is watch birds and talk shit with people, this is the same as sitting, just being, but this is different from making money and putting in the effort to date.

I guess, I just have to try it and see

I am facing a dilema in my practice, so doing like 4 hours daily, anapana, kriya, do nothing, labeling, also tripping. The practice is opening real fast right now. Sustained bliss, Seeing myself in everything, Sitting for hours just blissing out. And the more it deepens the more everything else looks like decoration. I am less motivated to push to make more money, I am less motivated to put the effort into dating, cause I just love sitting, even when I experience negative emotions, it makes to so nice. However, this has consequences. I can see this effecting material aspects of my life. Which I am confused about. How do you manage this? Ideally, I want to be and sit more, but it will take away to much form my daily life.

@Leo Gura how does 5 Meo compare to lsd trips and this trip report?

I went, I felt like I embarked on a voyage yesterday. I'm back, I'm a bit fazed. Back into this physical reality. But different. More aware of, like, what the fuck is actually going on. The biggest insight I got from yesterday is that what you are... is... nothing. And that nothing... is conscious. And it's creating fucking everything. And it exists nowhere. And you are literally a fucking universe. Being aware of itself. This experience, this conscious experience. The experience of being conscious is how the universe is creating itself. And it fucking breaks you heart. I was walking down the street, as I was coming down, and I could see... the arrow, as, like, an arrow of nothing that's penetrating everything, and it was pure unity, pure oneness, with everyone else, and everyone, including my body and my mind, and everything else, was... connected with this unity. With this nothingness, with this awareness, with this consciousness. So, when you're looking at a bottle, the bottle is generating itself with awareness. And that's what the universe is creating, but it feels like you're looking at it when your consciousness is not high, but it's not. There's something, there's a nothingness, which is aware of the bottle, and that is the creation of it. The experience of being conscious is the creative process. Oh, no, no, I'm walking down there. No, no, no. I penetrated through unity, so then everyone was myself, and I wasn't in my body, and by myself, I mean, universal self. Like, universal oneness, and everyone was it, and we were all there. And because of that, you just start crying. I remember when I finished. I was calming down, I was walking, went to a coffee shop, and I was just fucking crying, and everyone. And then this guy was like, "You're right." I was like, looking at him, and I was like, there's no me, there's no self. It's just, that's me, this is me. Everyone's me. Now I'm back in this limited form, but, like, definitely more aware of the mechanisms of how this form is working. This is where it's at, but, like, riding the bull of consciousness. This is what the monks talk about in Zen Buddhism. And it makes my meditation practice look like a fucking peanut. It's even crazy, because, like, when I'm writing to you now, it feels like, is there anyone? I was writing to myself. Is there anyone there on the other side of this communication? Is there anyone that's actually conscious of something? Please tell me. But then the thing, the thing, which is aware of it, that thing is exactly the same, and it's, I am you, you are me. It's all one thing going on. It's just oneness. There's, like, one thing which is, and it's a complete mystery, because it's coming out of nothing, it's occurring nowhere. It's existing nowhere. It is creating itself. You're that. And you're that, and... the awareness that you are looking right now is what that is. Like, that process of being aware is what you are, undeniably. It's like... like you're not the body or my mind. That consciousness, you can rest in that. And when you raise your consciousness, it's like, it's like you're awake. The universe becomes awake to itself. And the universe is looking through you right now. Now, another question I need to figure out is, like... I remember when I saw this deep into this nothingness. And, like, the first thought that came was like, what is it doing? There's another being. What is it, what is it doing? It's just doing itself. And then this tree is an "I". It's like existing as itself, and I'm that. What is it doing? What is reality doing? It's just doing. It's doing itself from nothing. This void, it... It's nothing, and it's doing. And it's the whole thing doing. Like, when you hear a bird sound, thats reality doing, When you hear, when you look at someone, that's a reality doing. When you see... anything is reality's doing... Reality is doing, and why is it doing? What is it doing? Like, these are the questions that, I don't know. It is doing. I... All right, that's a mystery. Like, in this solid realm, it seems physical, is because your awareness of it is not strong. We're very much asleep. And by being asleep, I am asleep right now, because my consciousness is not high. I am asleep. Because, yeah, my consciousness is not higher. You raise it, like, you wake up, and then you come back to sleep, and it's, like, okay, so now, my consciousness is very subtle. There is awareness there, but I'm not really conscious of it. I'm not conscious of me being aware. I'm not conscious of the conscious experience which is going on now. Like, when you raise your consciousness, you see that, that, that consciousness is the emptiness. And that's what you are, and then when you look at something, you're creating it. With your consciousness. Oh, fuck. Oh, you get the sense, it's all gonna be okay. Now, I don't have that sense. I mean, I do a little bit, but I just felt it strong, but when you're there, you're like, it's all one. It's all perfect. It's all fine. Everything's fine. Everything is out there, it's going to be. Reality's just doing its thing. It's doing its thing for no reason. And that's what you are.

Yeah because the whole framework in which pickup is built is toxic. There are important teachings behind it. But the why is fucked up. A lot of my pickup buddies care about lays per year. There is one guy I know who has fucked 800 girls, but never had a girlfriend. Thats what doesn't hold. Toxic stage orange and a bit of red. Why do you get into pickup? That is a question you should ask. For me it is this now. It helps you attract women, which in turn develops key skills that are helpful for you as a man. Also, you attract women to find a women that is aligned with your values, your lifestyle, and that you can grow with. This is way more beautiful then sleeping with endless women. I made the same mistake, letting go of a girl because my mind was inundated with these toxic pickup philosophies. Take the good stuff, leave the bad.

Lol, this is my life right now. I quit my job in the west. Moved to Sri Lanka. Living in paradise, in solitude. Meditating/Kriya 3-5 hours a day. Working on my own mental health startup from my computer. My life is so simple, isolated, yet fully alive. Probably the most I have ever felt. Walking on the beach I came across a saltwater crocodile with no legs. I feel so much more at home being alone then with being around people all the time. Well right now that is. Love is here right now, within us, if you can cry at a women stroking a dog. Seeing the beauty in that. The beauty in all qualia. Seeing yourself as colour not as human. What do you need

It teaches you to face a different kind of pain. An emotional pain, that cuts deep into your identity. It has brought me to tears many times. Way harder then intense physical exercise and what not. But there is a flip. When you break free, you feel free. Not giving a fuck about anything. Then it feels like the easiest thing ever. But it takes a lot to break through in a night. Well for me anyway. When I walk into the club, I feel everything. The fear, the embarrassment, other people failing, sometimes it paralyses me, covers me in sweat.

Okay so something I've been sitting with around pickup, it was genuinely one of the hardest things I've ever done, and I think I finally understand why. As an INFP, I couldn't detach. Every approach carried real weight. The fear and anxiety weren't surface level, they went deep, like each interaction was somehow connected to whether I was actually worthy of love. I took everything to heart and I couldn't switch that off no matter how hard I tried. But when I did connect with someone? It was intense. Intense connection, real intimacy, something that felt almost beyond just dating. Like I was actually seeing the person and they could feel it. I think the standard pickup metrics, approaches per night, number closes, pull is so stupid, they were never built for someone like me. They're measuring extraverted sensing performance and I'm just not wired that way. Anyone else feel like the whole framework was designed for a completely different type of person? @Leo Gura was it easy fo you to detach as an INTP?