Sex Diary

[ALLIS]

Incredible journey thank you ? Write some erotic novel or something, I am not kidding amazing writing skills brate ?❤️

[ivankiss]

@ALLIS Appreciate it very much ❤

The idea crossed my mind. Might happen 

[ivankiss]

Note to self:

Maybe I should consider mature women more seriously. Plenty of gorgeous women in their 40s in this city. My life could be much easier with a sugar momma lol. + it should be a very fun experience.

[ivankiss]

In our bar with little dude and another cool dude now. What a cool day. 

Chillin' hard. It's semi-crowded. Plenty of bonkers hot girls. But I ain't in hunt mode right now. Enjoying the break.

Had a very special moment with little dude earlier. It kinda surprised me. A lot. I showed him some of my writings dedicated to my ex, and the dude literally broke down in tears. Right in front of me. In the middle of the bar. If that's not fucking awesome, I don't know what is. We hugged and I told him how awesome of him that was. I truly admire how in touch with his emotions he is. And how vulnerable he's cool with being. Very nice.

This song came up earlier... Life is dreamy ya'all. Hope you're enjoying yourselves too.

 

[ivankiss]

And now this song... Oh my fucking God.

Right in the childhood. Right in the feels.

I don't know who to trust, no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies

Trying not to break, but I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

Tension is building inside, steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me

Trying not to break, but I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

I won't waste myself on you
You
You
Waste myself on you
You
You

I'll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

Everything from the inside
And just throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you
You
You

[ivankiss]

And another golden one.

Holy fuck. Them feels...

I am so fucking high, I can hear heaven!

I am so high I can hear heaven
I am so high I can hear heaven
Whoa, but heaven
No heaven don't hear me

And they say that a hero can save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away

Someone told me love would all save us
But how can that be, look what love gave us
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling
That world never came

And they say that a hero can save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away, Hi-ii-igh!

Now that the world isn't ending, it's love that I'm sending to you

It isn't the love of a hero, and that's why I fear it won't do

And they say that a hero can save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away

And they're watching us (Watching Us)
And they're watching us (Watching Us)
As we all fly away!

And they're watching us (Watching Us)
And they're watching us (Watching Us)
As we all fly away!

And they're watching us (Watching Us)
And they're watching us (Watching Us)
As we all fly away
Whoa, whoa

[ivankiss]

Hallelujah.

[ivankiss]

It's been a few moments... Thought I'd do a brief, little update.

Have not been feeling horny these days really... up until now. I'd fuck the living crap out of someone right now.

I'm in Italy, and there's a big chance I might stay here for this next chapter of mine. Women are ridiculously hot here. I don't know where to look. I definitely want an Italian girlfriend, or a fuck buddy. But... There's other stuff that requires my attention now. 

Finance before romance. 

- I learned that lesson the hard way.

 

[ivankiss]

Lots of ethnic diversity in this city. Fucking awesome. I'd definitely love to hook up with an asian or a black girl. It would be a first time.

[ivankiss]

A girl just asked me out on a date. Wut.

She's not a model, but she's not bad-looking, either. Big boobs and even bigger ass. Very juicy. Pretty cute.

I still have a lot on my mind, and I don't really feel like dating... but I could definitely bust a nut. It's been a few days...

I might go with it.

[ivankiss]

Also; I already got a few bonkers hot tinder matches in this city. Oh man... The fun I will have here...

[ivankiss]

In our hot bar with little dude and a few more young, hot people. It's quite a busy night. 

I'm back to SLO to pick up my stuff. Moving to Italy fully tomorrow. Man... What a fucking ride. What a life.

There's tons of emotions in the air. We really bonded in this period  while I was here. But... this is not our last goodbye, I'm pretty sure. Our paths will most certainly cross somewhere down the line.

Serbian Beauty is with another dude at her place atm. Lol. So usual. So her.

She might or might not join us later. Not gonna lie; I'd really like to see her before I leave. But I ain't counting on smashing. I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. Not planning on going all the way tonight.

Fuckin' good times man!

[ivankiss]

Heading home with little dude. He's sleeping over at my place. But, not before we stop by Serbian Beauty's place and say goodbye.

It's gonna be tight. I must get up 8 in the morning and pack.

Fucking hell man!

 

[Barbara]

On 01/09/2021 at 3:57 PM, ivankiss said:

Note to self:

Maybe I should consider mature women more seriously. Plenty of gorgeous women in their 40s in this city. My life could be much easier with a sugar momma lol. + it should be a very fun experience.

Ahah I kid you not. I haven’t even read this before. Magic it is!

[ivankiss]

@Barbara ?❤

[ivankiss]

Guess who is stopping by my place do say goodbye?!

Fucking J - that's who! 

She's gonna be here any minute now. A fucking perfect closure to this chapter!

[ivankiss]

@Knowledge Hoarder There is some truth to that, but it's not the entire truth 

I'm leaving the city this instance, so we won't be hanging out for a long while. If ever.

We had great times. 

 

[ivankiss]

J and I did not have sex. For a few reasons. It's irrelevant.

Point is; we had a wonderful talk and coffee at my place. Solid 30 minutes. Lots of emotions. Respect. Love.

We agreed to definitely catch up if I ever come to this city again. I also invited her to Italy for a vacation. She was very happy.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is how it's fucking done. Fuck yes, it is.

I said goodbye to two of my 'most important' fuck buddies from here. J and Serbian Beauty. We hugged and wished each-other the best. No weirdness whatsoever. Everything was smooth and clean. Just beautiful. Definitely looking forward to more magical experiences like this.

Goodbye MB! Hello Italy!

[ivankiss]

Oddly enough, I'm much closer to D now...

Cannot lie; I'm still not 100% over her. Maybe I'll never be. In my awareness, I can still hear her voice, see her face. If only I could feel her touch now...

Too bad her kiss is poisonous.

J and I texted quite a lot since I left MB. She was kinda sad about it. As was I.

I told her I assumed she got bored of me, or found someone else, and that's why she distanced herself... But no. She told me she was just too tired from work and was not feeling sexual. She also said she was pretty sure I'd find someone new, pretty fast. I did not deny. But I told her that what I had with her, was really, truly something else. Very, very special. She ofcourse feels the same.

She thanked me for all the mind-blowing orgasms, once again. She says it was beyond anything she ever dreamed of.

Man... that's so bittersweet. I'd drive right back to her and fuck her brains out, right now. I really hope God will bless us two with another chance. It was as good as it gets.

Sometimes it seems like my heart cannot take all this beauty. It simply cannot be contained. It's infinite.

[ivankiss]

Texting with an Italian cutie on tinder.. She texted first. That's usually a great or a horrible sign lol.

She's pretty damn hot. And smart. Loves literature and travel.

An ESFJ... according to google, INFJs are not very compatible with them.. Whatevs.

Should I ask her out on a date? The timing might not be the best, but a drink or two cannot hurt anyone.

I think I'll ask her out.