Sex Diary

[ivankiss]

@Preety_India All is well. I'm beyond satisfied.

Yet... no pussy tonight

[ivankiss]

In sum

[ivankiss]

Jebote

[ivankiss]

@AtheisticNonduality It's nothing... a scratch.

I don't remember much... but apparently the dude hit me with a bottle of vodka on the ribs... and then I hit him with the same bottle on the head. It was fun.

All is cool, we hugged and said sorry at the end.

You guessed it... it was because of that girl I made out with...

I made quite a scene tonight. First night out for real... I think they'll remember my name.

[ivankiss]

Definitely feeling them ribs today haha! Especially when I cough or laugh.

But it's not too bad.

Not gonna lie, somewhere in the back of my mind, this was exactly what I wanted. It's been forever since I last got into a fight. And it felt pretty damn god. I felt no fear whatsoever. 

I mean, it's not like I was looking for trouble... The dude clearly got triggered out of nowhere. It completely caught me off guard.  But I'm also kinda glad it happened.

Fights are common in this club... and this city in general... so it's good that I've shown some teeth. Now everyone knows I can both take and throw a hit. Though I really don't want to be that guy, who gets into fights always. Not at all.

I aim to have fun there and pick up girls. But the thing is; a lot of drunk, desperate dudes, who do not get laid that often, have a problem with that, obviously. It's kinda understandable, too.

I was definitely very loud yesterday. Lots of eyes on me and our table. I might've been a bit too all over the place. Dramatic, theatrical. I was putting on a show. Can't help it... it comes natural to me.

So in that sense; I kinda deserved that hit, I guess.

All is cool... as I said; later on I approached the guy and we talked it out, hugged and said sorry.

The only thing was, that I had to leave the club. So I fucking ruined my chances with that girl. I still cannot stop thinking of her. She was ridiculously gorgeous.

Things between Serbian Beauty and me were very, very hot, too. We made out and danced like crazy. Again; we were the main attraction in the club. Lots of heat.

But... she also ended up making out with some Italian dude later on. She stayed there with him when they threw me out.

So yeah... I think it's just a matter of time and place... it's happening. We're fucking on some point, for sure. Because what happened last night was fucking wild!

The three of us grabbed some coffee earlier. Everything is cool. No weirdness whatsoever.

[ivankiss]

YES!

 

[ivankiss]

And the road becomes my bride
I have stripped of all but pride
So in her I do confide
And she keeps me satisfied
Gives me all I need
And with dust in throat I crave
Only knowledge will I save
To this game you stay a slave

Rover, wanderer
Nomad, vagabond
Call me what you will
But I'll take my time anywhere
Free to speak my mind anywhere
Never find anywhere
Anywhere I may roam
Where I lay my head is home

And the earth becomes my throne
I adapt to the unknown
Under wandering stars I've grown
By myself but not alone
I ask no one

And my ties are severed clean
The less I have the more I gain
Off the beaten path I reign
Rover wanderer
Nomad vagabond
Call me what you will

But I'll take my time anywhere
I'm free to speak my mind anywhere
Nevermind anywhere
Anywhere I may roam
Where I lay my head is home

But I'll take my time anywhere
Free to speak my mind
Nevemind anywhere
Anywhere I may roam
Where I lay my head is home

But I'll take my time anywhere
Free to speak my mind anywhere
Nevemind anywhere
Anywhere I may roam
Where I lay my head is home
Carved upon my stone
My body lie, but still I roam yeah yeah

Wherever I may roam
Wherever I may roam
Wherever I may roam
Wherever I may wander
(Wander, wander)
Wherever I may roam

[ivankiss]

Fun info; 

All three of us faked our covid tests last night to get into the club. It worked.

The place was absolutely full of hotties.

Heaven.

[ivankiss]

@Knowledge Hoarder Indeed 

Thanks brother! Keep rockin'! 

[ivankiss]

Things between me and her are getting very, very interesting. But, it's all still too abstract.

Will share more soon, as the story unfolds.

Very hot, to say the least.

[ivankiss]

Turns out... the fight I got into... broke out because of Serbian Beauty.

Dun dun duuun!

[ivankiss]

Samo što nisam...

(convo between me and Serbian Beauty)

Edited August 16, 2021 by ivankiss

[ivankiss]

Well this is fucking unbelievable.

Me and little dude went out for a coffee in that hot bar. A bunch of awesome people were at out table... and then, we ended up alone with tho incredibly hot, kinda trashy, alternative-looking chicks. We smoked, laughed, bonded. Then we came up with a very spontaneous idea to go for a swim in a local river. What?! Is this real life?

One of the girls is so so so my type. She is sitting right across me and is rocking a mini skirt. I can see her panties nice and clear.

Holy mother fucking shit.

We're going into a fast shopping spree now, as we all miss some stuff. And then.. we're heading down to the riverside.

Good Lord!

[ivankiss]

 Just got her number. She's got a beautiful name.

And has access to 5-meo, lsd, ect.

Fucking YES!

[ivankiss]

Yesterday... was just insane. 

We had a great time by the river. I nearly drowned to my death - I kid you not. 

Then I bonded as fuck with that girl I mentioned. Not gonna lie here, it was love at first sight. I still cannot get her of my mind. She is hands down the most beautiful being I've seen in a very long while. Maybe ever.

Picture perfect hourglass body shape... it's just out of this world. Her titties and ass are so gorgeous I wanna kill myself. Cutest face ever. She's into psychedelics and spirituality. We talked so much... Fucking amazing taste in music. We listen to a lot of same stuff. So much bond. So deep. So hard.

Later, a few more folks joined us and we all went out for another drink. Then we went to some private party, and then for another drink.. and then, another private party. Where we all finally collapsed.

I flirted with this girl, the whole time. Some touching, dirty talk, cuddling... I made it very clear to her that I'm going all crazy about her. She loved it. I told her I'd take her home right away and she said a big part of her would go... but... she has a fucking boyfriend. God fucking damnit! She even said she's having a very difficult time resisting me... So in other words; I nearly had my dick inside of her lol. It burns so bad... So close, yet so far away.

Absolutely, ridiculously perfect girl. She's down for hanging out more often... even at my place, she said. She lives close to me.

So yeah... you never know. Things in her relationship are not wonderful as I heard. I'd give my everything for this girl lol.

Makes me wanna cry she's so damn hot.

[ivankiss]

Love this shit tight here. So very relatable.

Hey you mrs. I don't know what the fuck your name is
I'm drawn to you, something's magnetic here
If I could approach you
Or even get close to the scent that you left behind
I'd be fine

No doubt that (no doubt)
You bring out (bring out)
The animal inside

I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive

Hey you mrs. too good to look my way and that's cool
You don't want nothing at all to do with me
But I want you, ain't nothin' wrong with, wanting you
'Cause I'm a man and I can think what the hell I want
You got that straight?

No doubt that (no doubt)
I'd love to (I'd love)
Sniff on them panties now

I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive

I'm sorry, so sorry (damn you're so hot)
You beauty is so vain (damn you're so hot)
It drives me, yes, it drives me (damn you're so hot)
Absolutely insane

I just wanna look at you
I just wanna look at you
I just wanna look at you, all day
There ain't nothing wrong, no
There ain't nothing wrong with that

Once you seep in (once you seep in)
Under my skin (under my skin)
There's nothing (nothing), there's nothing (nothing)
In this world that could wash you away (wash you away, wash you away)
Once you seep in (once you seep in) yeah
Under my skin (under my skin)
There's nothing (nothing), there's nothing (nothing)
In this world that could wash you away (wash you away)

I'm sorry, so sorry (damn you're so hot)
You beauty is so vain (damn you're so hot)
It drives me, yes, it drives me (damn you're so hot)
Absolutely insane

I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive
I'd eat you alive

[ivankiss]

I cannot believe I'm actually living this lifestyle now, full on.

A few months ago, this was all just an idea in my mind. A 'maybe'. And now I'm deep in it.

I definitely gained a lot on confidence with this diary. Things are a lot more clearer. I know exactly what I want and I'm going for it, strong and precise. Approaching ridiculously hot girls is childs play now.

I'm beyond satisfied and grateful for what's going down in this bar. It's exactly what I was looking for. And it's only about to get better.

[ivankiss]

She's still on my mind... I'm in love lol.

This is pretty much exactly her look... except that she's a brunette.

Fuck me, man.

[ivankiss]

Yup... She's still on my mind. I might as well start referring to her as 'S'. I'm sure I will be mentioning her more. I'm kinda getting obsessed lol.

I'm sitting here and I'm getting flashbacks of that day/night... So here's a few interesting lines between me and S that I remembered (in no particular order):

 

I: Are you always this fucking hot, this casually, or is it a special occasion?'

S: *smiling* 'You did not see anything yet...'

 

S: 'I have a very high tolerance for pain.'

I: 'I'll be the judge of that.' *massive eye-fuck*

 

I: ' I swear I'd take you home right now, and have you just for myself, for the rest of the night.'

S: 'I'm very labile, so be careful. Especially if you keep talking with that deep voice into my ear.'

I: 'Well.. I might just take advantage of that.'

*more eye-fuck, touching, cuddling*

 

The whole time we were very close to each-other. Very intimate vibes. We whispered into each-other's ears, mostly. Depending on how loud the music was lol. Which was, absolutely epic too, btw. Mainly dnb.

And that's just some of the flirting that was going down between us two. I won't even go into all the talk we had about music, spirituality, drugs, relationships, and just life in general. 

This was a massive tease, God. You really got me all hyped up.. and then, nothing.

I truly hope the story between me and her does not end here, God.

I know you hear me. I'm counting on your magic lol.

[ivankiss]

This song always had a special place in my heart. Dunno why. It's kinda dark and twisted, but knowing JD's story and his pov, I think it's fucking awesome how he expressed things. 

Kinda relatable.

And of course... S is a big Korn fan, too.

How did it start? Well, I don't know
I just feel the craving
I see the flesh and it smells fresh
And it's just there for the taking

These little girls
They make me feel so goddamn exhilarated
I fill them up, I can't give it up
The pain that I'm just erasing

I tell my lies and I despise every second I'm with you
So I run away and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?

Your feelings, I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away

I don't know why I'm so fucking cold
I don't know why it hurts me
All I wanna do is get with you
And make the pain go away

Why do I have a conscience?
All it does is fuck with me
Why do I have this torment?
All I wanna do is fuck it away

I tell my lies and I despise every second I'm with you
So I run away and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?

Your feelings, I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away

I tell my lies and I despise every second I'm with you
I run away and you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?

Your feelings, I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away (I hate)

just thrown you away
(I) just thrown you away
(I) just thrown you away
(I) just thrown you away