Exploring my sexual side

[Preety_India]

 

I like how this guy looks.  Perfect. Beautiful lips, killer eyes, Hunter's look. 

That arrogant punky look. 

Broad shoulders. 

Nice arms. Long legs. 

His eyes, that fierce look. He looks charming. 

I like such dudes.  They are so cool. 

I'll sleep with him. Just in my dreams. 

I want him to hug me. 

I want to lay my head on his shoulders. 

Kiss him. Touch him. Stroking his hair. 

Hugging him.  Like he is protecting me. 

A dream is a dream. He would never hurt me. 

I feel a sparkle in his eyes. I wish. 

Just to be able to hug. 

Sex is good but I want eternal romance first.. 

I want to miss him. Cook for him 

Be his gf 

I want to be insanely in love. 

 

 

 

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I've developed a fetish for you guy. A crush. 

Haha. 

I love the way you look. You could make me feel so happy. You simply looking into my eyes. 

I'd be absolutely in love. 

I want to sit and enjoy a dinner with you. 

I want to feel your kisses and hugs. 

I like the warmth of your skin against my skin. 

You placing your hand softly on my forehead. You laughing with me and telling me stories.. 

Every time I look at you I fall in love. 

 

Edited February 24, 2021 by Preety_India

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You could drive me mad. I miss you so much. 

I want to kiss your fingers. 

You would cook a cup of rice for me. 

I would sprinkle some chips on it and we would eat it together. Hehe, sometimes I used to sprinkle potato chips over rice as a kid. 

You're the guy I dream about everyday now. 

Every night you keep me awake. Your dreams make me wet. 

Your touch gives me warmth. 

All I wanted was you to sleep beside me, think about the stars, share silly stories and caress me with your arms. 

I would rub your chest. Slowly. Gently. 

Place my head over your chest. 

I would feel like I'm your princess. You would be my Prince. 

Come to me. I want to feel your arms wrapped around me. 

I want to stretch my feet and feel the joy of you rubbing yourself over me. 

Your feet rubbing against mine.. 

Your lips pressed against mine 

You would love me so much. 

Then we can sink into each other.. 

Forget that we are two and become one. 

Look around. 

You would show me the lights in the city. Take me to a cafe. A cup of chilled coffee. I want your sweater on me. 

I want you to laugh, say things and I'm simply soaking in. All your words. 

Omg. You're so handsome. I adore you. 

You make me happy.. I will drink from your cup 

Hold my hands my dear.... I want to hold your hands. 

I want to feel like you're with me.. 

When you laugh, I laugh. 

I want to keep looking into your eyes. 

You gazing into mine.. 

Such a sweet spot. We love sharing love. 

True love never dies. We would be together forever.  I only want love. No money, no nothing. Just your love. I want to be your love bird.  I imagine kissing you and it's so deep and beautiful. Like never ending. Everytime we kiss we can't get enough. 

When you laugh and tell me all these stories, I keep smiling at you. I became like a silly baby gazing at you. 

I wanna laugh laugh laugh. 

I don't even want to read a menu. You select something and I will eat. I'm so lost in your stories. Oh God I laugh so much. You like to tickle me. All night we go along like this. Wish every night of my life is spent with you. 

I never want to think of my ex again. I want to forget his dark shadow. 

Thank you for being my boyfriend.  My dream Prince.. I wanna lay my heart bare because I know you will protect me, won't you?

Hey you, what can I call you, my sweet Prince?

I wanna call you Mackee. 

The Prince of my dreams - Mackee.  

I love you Mackee. Muaaaah. 

You make me crazy with love. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited February 24, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

 

Mackee, 

I was listening to Beyonce drunk in love yesterday. I wanna be drunk in love with you. 

So these are the lyrics. Although  I don't drink. 

I've been drinkin', I've been drinkin'
I get filthy when that liquor get into me
I've been thinkin', I've been thinkin'
Why can't I keep my fingers off it?
Baby, I want you, now-now
Why can't I keep my fingers off you?
Baby, I want you, na na
Cigars on ice, cigars on ice
Feelin' like an animal with these cameras all in my grill
Flashin' lights, flashin' lights
You got me faded, faded, faded
Baby, I want you, na na

Drunk in love, I want you

[Pre-Chorus: Beyoncé]

Oh, baby
Drunk in love
We be all night
Last thing I remember is our beautiful bodies

Drunk in love

We be all night, love, love
We be all night, love, love

[Verse 2: Beyoncé]
We be all night, and everything all right
No complaints from my body
So fluorescent under these lights

Boy, I'm drinkin', I'm singin'

Surfboard, surfboard

 

Oh, baby
Drunk in love
We be all night
Last thing I remember is our beautiful bodies

Drunk in love

[Chorus: Beyoncé & JAY-Z]
We be all night, love, love
We be all night, love, love
I'm nice right now… Hold up!

[Verse 3: JAY-Z]
 if I do say so myself
If I do say so myself, if I do say so myself
Hold up, stumble all in the house
Time to back up all of that mouth

Talkin' 'bout you be reppin' that Third
I wanna see all that shit that I heard


Beat the box up, like Mike in '97, I bite
I'm Ike Turner, turn up, baby, no, I don't play

You gon' need G3, 4, 5, 6 flights


We goin' in, we be all night

We be all night, love, love
We be all night, love, love

[Bridge: Beyoncé]
I'm never tired, never tired
I been sippin', that's the only thing
That's keepin' me on fire, we on fire
Didn't mean to spill that liquor all on my attire
I've been drinkin', watermelon
I want your body right here


[Chorus: Beyoncé]
We be all night, love, love
We be all night, love, love

[Produced by Noah “Detail” Fisher, Beyoncé Knowles, Timbaland, Jerome Harmon, BOOTS and Andre Proctor]

 

I removed some dirty part of the lyrics and sort of sanitized it. 

 

Edited February 24, 2021 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

@modmyth I call him Mackee. I love him. 

 

[Hardkill]

Is it weird to say that I am getting turned on by some of your posts@Preety_India ?

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Can I call you baby?
Can you be my friend?
Can you be my lover up until the very end?
Let me show you love, oh, I don't pretend
Stick by my side even when the world is givin' in, yeah

Oh, oh, oh, don't
Don't you worry
I'll be there, whenever you want me

I need somebody who can love me at my worst
No, I'm not perfect, but I hope you see my worth
'Cause it's only you, nobody new, I put you first
And for you, girl, I swear I'll do the worst

If you stay forever, let me hold your hand
I can fill those places in your heart no else can
Let me show you love, oh, I don't pretend, yeah
I'll be right here, baby, you know I'll sink or swim

Oh, oh, oh, don't
Don't you worry
I'll be there, whenever you want me

I need somebody who can love me at my worst
No, I'm not perfect,…

 

[Preety_India]

So I've been exploring this side of me. 

And sometimes I develop romantic and sexual feelings for different entities and imaginary things like ghosts and spirits. 

So i wanted to know if i was all alone in this and I looked it up and there were some references about this. 

It's called Spectrophilia

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The place where my rape fantasies come from - the place of supernatural rape. 

My thread on sadomasochistic rape fantasies. I like bdsm rape fantasy.

I like being the Sub in the roleplay and the guy being the Master or Dom. 

I like dominant males. Only dominant. 

 

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Supernatural Rape Fantasy

 

 

[Preety_India]

Sex with ghosts, spirits, entities. 

 

 

Edited March 5, 2021 by Preety_India

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I find it extremely pleasurable to imagine a ghost raping me or having sex with me 

Rape not in the sense of a crime but more like rough sex and sadomasochistic elements 

I've discovered that some of these sexual moments of deep intimacy and sex have been the most beautiful, peaceful, calming and relaxing and releasing for me. 

They have given me unusual strength and clarity. 

It's obviously supernatural but this is not my first brush with the supernatural and this won't be my last. 

 

 

 

I have had supernatural experiences where I felt like I was saved from death. 

Things where I felt a strange presence or hands holding me. 

 

But when something held me, I also felt an unusual sense of peace, affection and calm. 

 

Edited March 5, 2021 by Preety_India

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Spooky 

 

 

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What makes a bad boy so attractive? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I'd choose Damon over Stefan. 

Of course in the real world I'd choose Stefan.. 

But since this is the journal and I'm exploring my sexual fantasy world, I would pick Damon. 

Whats so special about bad boys? 

1. Are they good at sex? 
2. They lay down their rules. Sexy 
3. They have sexy looks 
4. They are not afraid. They are confident. 

[Preety_India]

For a long time I really liked bad boys. 

But these days not so much. Yet somewhat. 

There might be something protective about them? 

 

However this could be an illusion created by movies and media and pop culture.. They have put the bad boy on a pedestal hehe. 

 

[Preety_India]

Note to self 

Recently there's been an uptick in my misbehavior towards men.. 

Not a good sign. Badie girl stop. Stop flirting with men. 

Men are strange. When you are too good, they want to force you to like them. When you actually begin to like them like a drunk girl, they begin to distance themselves. 

Oops. 

Men wil be men.

I think I'm better off with my creative imaginations of what I want a man to do.. 

Men in my fantasies are damn brilliant and never act cold. 

That's a good thing   

I want a man who can lift me up and place me on a hard floor and then look into my eyes and give me a deep kiss. 

 

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Game B

 

One step forward in dating. 

 

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