Brain visions

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LaLa lushness

 

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So here's the deal. I'm not able to focus on some of my daily goals as a result of constant interference and work or errands. Just silly unimportant errands. 

I'd like to have more control over my daily life. 

So I'll be looking into it. 

Today I did some odd job here and there but nothing really productive apart from my office work. 

The problem is that even the office work is interfering with my life goals. 

It's not leaving me with enough time to get important life changing stuff done. 

But let's see. I've already achieved 6 milestones this January month so the year 2020 has been a great start.. 

I'll really want to squeeze the best out of this year. Really looking forward to a great year with great accomplishments. 

Well let's see... 

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I wanted to talk about destructive criticism but I'm gonna put it off for later. Right now too much on my plate 

 

 

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So today is January 28. And I have a 10 day goal set in front of me. 

In the next 10 days, I have to lay out what all I need to get done. Today was frustrating because I couldn't get it done. 

But tomorrow no excuses. 

I have to write something like 

"goal for the day" and mention it on a flash card 

 

 

 

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I moved out on 17th January. Then came back on 21st January to collect the rest of the stuff along with the refrigerator. 

I was too tired on January 22, 23 and 24. January 25 I went to the hospital. 

January 27 I joined the new place. I went grocery shopping. 

 

Today is January 29.

I need to clean up the mess 

Edited January 29, 2020 by Preety_India

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This is my new flash card for today 

 

 

 

 

Edited January 29, 2020 by Preety_India

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  One person is happiness 

 Two people is headache 

 3 people is disaster 

 Time to enjoy my loneliness 

 

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I'm surprised she didn't come to yank me off. 

 

 

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Only 10% of the cleaning is done 

 

 

 

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On 28/01/2020 at 4:35 AM, Preety_India said:

Poison ivory 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I'm slow. I've completed 20% cleaning 

 

 

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I came home now from work and just started cooking. 

Will start the cleaning right away. Got to have the motivation to do this as much as possible. 

20% cleaning done. 

I need to get this done. C'mon c'mon get going. Pumping myself. 

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This looks gorgeous.

 

 

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So I didn't get it done. Jeez

 

 

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Not feeling okay today 

 

 

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I can put everything in to the dikki 

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I'm not a narcissist. I don't need any compliment or validation to look great. I'm just me myself and I'm happy being that. 

 

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I broke up and it feels awful.. But I'm glad I did it. Andrew is by my side. I went through too much. 

But finally closure. 

Andrew has been very kind and patient throughout this time. 

I was hurt for a very very long time. It was too much trauma to hold within me.. 

But I finally let go. 

I can finally move on with Andrew. 

He is my true soul mate. 

 

 

 

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The most inspiring words that I read today were 

This feminine soul went from victim, through surviving, to victory. 

 

These words are great. 

I went through horrible abuse throughout childhood and I ran from home multiple times to escape it. 

I am still dealing with effects of it. 

What can I gain from those words is this 

 

I am a victim 

 

 

I need to survive till the devil is dead and carry through the end. 

 

Once the devil is dead, I will find hope and freedom. 

 

. I will survive 

 

I need to survive 

 

 

I need to get to victory 

 

 

One day I'll be free and happy and I'll win

 

Till then I will have to struggle and persevere. 

Persevere till the devil is dead. 

 

Survive through the abuse. You'll do it

 

 

 

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The worst kind of victims of abuse are those who can't help themselves and those that are never heard, who are afraid to tell, who are never believed when they try to tell and who are never understood or offered help once they have told