what if becoming more conscious makes you miserable

[Olaf]

What if becoming more conscious and aware doesn't actually add happiness, I feel that I was much happier being completly deluded in my spiritual ego then now becoming aware of all the bullshit that I believed in. Is evolution not to become happier instead of more miserable? Even when it is not fully conscious and aware, it might still be something that makes you happy. 

Edited 1 hour ago by Olaf

[Willy Phallicus]

Its a phase. 

Call it the dark night of the soul for consciousness.

Keep going and you will overcome all obstacles.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

If you do not also work on integration, grounding and embodiment as well as raising consciousness - in my experience - you are in for a bad time!

[cetus]

39 minutes ago, Olaf said:

I feel that I was much happier being completly deluded

It's like Scrapple. You enjoyed it more before you knew what it consisted of.

[Olaf]

@Natasha Tori Maru Leo doesn't even look happy...

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Just now, Olaf said:

@Natasha Tori Maru Leo doesn't even look happy...

I cannot speak for Leo - but if he is on a path of integration and working on conditioning? In my experience that is more emotionally challenging and confronting than raising consciousness alone. The most fucked up shit comes up. And you have to just deal. Squirm in place. You have to struggle. Find a way. And couple this with navigating survival. It has been my biggest challenge. Is my biggest challenge.

The process of working through conditioning often DOES simultaneously raise consciousness. 

It is always darkest before dawn. I have no regrets. As down as I got, it has been worth it. Peace, clarity and stability are wonderful <3

[Olaf]

@Natasha Tori Maru I wonder if we as humans are only supposed to get conscious to a certain level, a certain extend. Like what use does it have to become more and more conscious when it doesn't increasingly make us more and more happy and makes surviving harder. MAYBE we are meant to stay in the dark or am I the absolute devil for mentioning this. 

[Natasha Tori Maru]

19 minutes ago, Olaf said:

@Natasha Tori Maru I wonder if we as humans are only supposed to get conscious to a certain level, a certain extend. Like what use does it have to become more and more conscious when it doesn't increasingly make us more and more happy and makes surviving harder. MAYBE we are meant to stay in the dark or am I the absolute devil for mentioning this. 

For me - raising my consciousness has made my relationship to survival easier and less stressful. Not survival itself.

The mechanics, challenges and tribulations of survival remain the same. Raising my consciousness and awareness has benefited how I respond to survival pressure. How much I am thrown about by life. Life is. It goes. It isn't a race to the end. There is a measure of peace when a lot of seeking stops and we deeply, deeply accept and surrender to what is.

The friction generated by the small self dissolves as we realise truth. What IS - outside of concept, ideas, interpretation. This is where suffering arises from. And there is a reason why suffering is touted as the greatest teacher. Feelings are felt more truly. Thoughts are clearer. And they pass more rapidly and are experienced with more depth.

There is what is happening separate from: perception - interpretation/conceptualisation - identification/resistance. These additions we generate lead to suffering. These additions need to be totally deconstructed. That's the work of awareness helping integration and conditioning..

Recognising what IS. What is truth - helps to make this distinction (between what we generate, and what is).

And raising your consciousness is recognising and becoming aware of Truth.

I don't know if this helps. It is just what came out  

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