Your guy's deepest insight on self deception

[Yimpa]

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[oOo]

Not being infinitely curious, strategic, and organised.

Imagine if you lived your life this way. 

You'll make excuses for why you won't today. 

That makes this strategy, an "if then". 

Some may then go on to say, "well the reason I am not curious right now is because I am meditating and thus..." Or whatever it happens to be, but what was it that led to that state and why cannot curiosity coexist with or be dominant to that state regardless as to when you need the alternative state to be salient.

Curiosity is not binary, it lives within the same Gestalt as wonder, awe, interest, attraction and more, the world of curiosity makes it completely indivisible by its opposite and multiplied only by a joyful yearning for life. "But I hate life" one says, what are the hundred why's and how's behind this at the emotional level and how can you reach peace with these?

The pre-requisite to curiosity is not a genius IQ, it is the strength in the simultaneous wonder and humility of one's own sentience, and appreciating the unknown art and science it can create to symbolise it's own sight upon what it has seen.

This is what consciousness in humans has been doing for millenia, our sentience will take in the world, compress it into symbols and then reorganise ourselves around those symbols to become the culture that informs both future generations and the next generation of consciousness metamorphosis. 

This next moment is not a decision within the binary matrix of clock time, it is a release valve into traveling within the world that has awaited your creation; that is living, that is the binary choice that gave you the only answer you only ever truly wanted, freedom, and its opposite, deception.

Edited Friday at 11:21 PM by oOo

[JoshB]

On 7/25/2026 at 11:58 AM, Yimpa said:

The self is REALLY an illusionary hallucination. The REALNESS dial can be cranked up and down, which makes the self-deception even more REAL.

Notice how psychedelics make the dream even more real. How can something unreal become so real? It blows my mind.

YES exactly, I've had trips so deep I could no longer distinguish between imagination or reality.

Ive had trips where people who have never met me personally know me. Whilst being lucid that others are a complete fantasy 

 

Edited yesterday at 11:04 AM by JoshB

[oOo]

One suggestion I'd add to my other.

Do lots of practical things that also test your cognition. 

Me being in medical school, its an interesting blend of both.

But in medical practice, deception has a price that can actually be weighed.

This is the benefit of the physical world, we can pontificate on the existence of our foot and how it meets the road all we want but until we actually do it we merely have at most, the confidence that we can. Here's the catch though despite that confidence, you've been imagining the idea of running your entire life from zero orbit so your bones and muscles have never truly developed the ability, you've only seen films on how its possible without the medical knowledge on how you can regress from having the physical capacity to. 

That's a little what it was like when I ran from Ho Chi Minh City to Phnom Penh. I was at the time, out of shape but had the memories of my more athletic days that gave me the confidence that I could. I decided on a whim at 8pm at night in the muggy heat knowing that I didn't want to begin in the blistering heat in the morning, and just started running with my military like boots and backpack. I had to run mostly at night due to the heat with wild dogs at my heel the whole way through, especially through Cambodia which was beautiful by the way as I met many natives that would spontaneously invite me in for lunch and dinner, even singing karaoke during the day with a group at one stage in the middle of no where.  

I made it through, but the physical toll made it a constant test of self-deception more than physical endurance. Because its the endurance more than anything else that is asking the question to the brain, can you do it? That's a very difficult question that needs to be managed with both confidence which can overinflated, and the removal of deception, which can cause personal doubt. This is also while I still persisted after having being hit by a motorbike head-on at night at one stage with blood pouring down my forehead and a nasty bloody gash on my leg that required stitches for both. Not to mention the extensive bruising over my stomach, thighs, arms and legs. And I had to limp to the hospital, which lucky for me, was less than a kilometre away. I thought I was done, I thought I'd seriously damaged my leg, but I was starting again the next day thanks to the kind doctor at the time that didn't even want to charge me money. So I came out stronger physically, but my mental growth got the better end of the deal when it comes to facing falsity, deception and the like head on. 

Be the rubber that hits the road, don't just dream it is the lesson there.

It's this reason that from now on, concerning any say journal entries that I make, they will be inspired essays, because they impose a structure my mind is forced to comply and grow within, not merely just ideate wherever my mind wishes to travel at the time. And that's if I choose to share the essays, as it may be better for my personal growth not to share in some ways, there are pro's and cons. With falsity around every corner ready to catch you as soon as you think you no longer need a judgement that weighs, prices, correlates, breaks and generates through razors designed to trim through pain points. This is my way of not only measuring my recovery overtime from my seizures (epilepsy), but also converting the desire to extend my abstract understanding of where being meets the world through tested limits. And don't give a second chance at life or opportunity like a video game.

Edited 17 hours ago by oOo

[ChrisZoZo]

My deepest realisation was any gain in self deception can becomes a setback because you believe that you less able to be self deceived. I suppose you can overcome this by always realising you can always deceived and you always are currently deceived by something.