Is any of this real?

[phillyvx]

For while now about the last four months ive been dealing with panic attacks cause I thought I was in imminent danger of a heart attack. Ive never been an anxious person, always been outgoing but this led me down the first time experiencing panic, anxiety and DPDR. Turns out my heart is in great shape. The feelings have gotten better over the last few months im not in a constant state of panic and I absolutely have relaxed good moments. The thing now is that all of this has had me question the absolute fuck out of reality and what's real and what's not. There's almost like this haze im in I want to get out of and feel in touch and intact with my surroundings but constantly doubting everything. If I'll ever feel the same again, is this real, etc. Which led me looking for answers here, and on actualized YouTube channel but that even gave me more doubt and fear. Nearly everyday im questioning everything and it doesn't feel good, I understand questioning for development but I can't even enjoy my day most of the time or just be in PEACE. It's always a fear and a what if and im not sure what to do. I try just forgetting about it but I can't help but feel like Ill be at peace when its resolved. Things I hear from here like "You aren't real" "This is a dream" "The physical world is not real" "This is magic" "Consciousness is imaginary" all are driving me even more scared and I can't even get to a point where I can be relaxed and understand in a logical way. Then there's always that one jackass on here that responds to things in fragmented cryptic sentences talking in a super "spiritual" way I guess is what you would call it. It's gotten to the point where im asking for help on here now after watching videos for 12 years and Ive only posted one other time. I just want to feel at peace and connected with the world around me, this constant doubt isn't productive and I just want to be okay again. Any advice? Thanks in advance. 

[enchanted]

Take a break from the forum and Before you do anything else start with 

1 plenty of excersize (weights cardio) do at least the recommended amounts or do more if it feels good

2 Eat the right stuff. Eat a healthy diet (water, fiber, veggies, protiens, no junk or fast food)

3 get consistent high quality sleep

Before you do any of these there is no point asking for advice or spending time and money on therapy as most problems result from neglecting excersize, diet, and sleep. 

Edited 20 hours ago by enchanted

[Inliytened1]

8 hours ago, phillyvx said:

For while now about the last four months ive been dealing with panic attacks cause I thought I was in imminent danger of a heart attack. Ive never been an anxious person, always been outgoing but this led me down the first time experiencing panic, anxiety and DPDR. Turns out my heart is in great shape. The feelings have gotten better over the last few months im not in a constant state of panic and I absolutely have relaxed good moments. The thing now is that all of this has had me question the absolute fuck out of reality and what's real and what's not. There's almost like this haze im in I want to get out of and feel in touch and intact with my surroundings but constantly doubting everything. If I'll ever feel the same again, is this real, etc. Which led me looking for answers here, and on actualized YouTube channel but that even gave me more doubt and fear. Nearly everyday im questioning everything and it doesn't feel good, I understand questioning for development but I can't even enjoy my day most of the time or just be in PEACE. It's always a fear and a what if and im not sure what to do. I try just forgetting about it but I can't help but feel like Ill be at peace when its resolved. Things I hear from here like "You aren't real" "This is a dream" "The physical world is not real" "This is magic" "Consciousness is imaginary" all are driving me even more scared and I can't even get to a point where I can be relaxed and understand in a logical way. Then there's always that one jackass on here that responds to things in fragmented cryptic sentences talking in a super "spiritual" way I guess is what you would call it. It's gotten to the point where im asking for help on here now after watching videos for 12 years and Ive only posted one other time. I just want to feel at peace and connected with the world around me, this constant doubt isn't productive and I just want to be okay again. Any advice? Thanks in advance. 

Yeah I agree with @enchanted really take a step back dude.  Just go back to the basics when you were enjoying life.  Maybe wait until late 40s or 50s for spirituality and all that stuff.  Right now just fucking enjoy your life.

[Raze]

Practice weightlifting, yoga and metta meditation to ground yourself 

[Human Mint]

Spirituality is not for the depressed, it will make you more depressed.